tit4atat wrote: ↑Sat Nov 07, 2020 7:44 pm
One thing you haven't talked about much is how you felt after that first time. What goes thru your mind now that SW has a boyfriend that she is planning on seeing on a regular basis (distance limiting)? Knowing that he might be bigger than you or that he pleases her differently?
Fair question.
I do know that he is bigger than me. SW appears to be going through her inner struggle in that she apparently does want to get together with him again despite his not engaging her in the time in between, in the way she was envisioning. She was expecting more doting and attention along the way.
Mr. S seems to be approaching this almost like a bull, in that he seems to be all about the meetup and the sex (as far as I can tell). That, or he's just not into it. But SW has adjusted her expectations and instead of cutting him off and cancelling, she appears to be all set for the next round.
You asked about me. I mention the above because it's thrilling to me that SW seems to be enthralled enough to be making this adjustment. It's hard for me to fathom, I normally would not believe it. I love this element, that she's turned on enough to absorb the paucity of what Mr. S is providing in the interim, and still into it.
I have been getting great pleasure reflecting on some of the elements of what she described when they were in bed together. How he was laying behind her in the aftermath and she decided to rub her clit to orgasm and was kind of expecting him to start getting himself re-aroused, but he said he was not comfortable doing that in front of her. A tame but at the same time intimate element.
I also like thinking about her now, that she has a vivid image of him for reflecting when she plays with herself. She used to tell me that she doesn't fantasize, per se, when she does this. I believe that has changed, and this change has activated something within her.
So I guess my point is that I am pleased and proud of myself and of her ("us") that we are already beginning to see the dividends of this adventure.
And I'm having all the normal and expected feelings that go along with it. The new feeling of the mix of maximum turn-on to think of my lovely wife sharing her body with another man, to the exact opposite turn-off feeling at virtually the same moment knowing that some Joe has captured her in a way that I have not, and that he has not even begun to earn it in any of the ways I've done.
So it becomes a reflection on myself. I realize that so much of what I always assumed is expected by SW is in actuality something that I expect from myself, for her. Good to know.
And that we seem to have had a nice start to our adventure into this lifestyle. This itself is very satisfying.
Got a lot of ground to cover in the relatively near future. Will be very interesting to see how it plays out.
As a more direct answer to your question, I am positive that the newness of Mr. S and also the fact that he is another man (e.g. not me) with a bigger body and cock for her to discover and indulge herself with, is something she is looking forward to repeating and getting deeper into it all with him. She has been carefully cautious in how she discusses and describes him, in that she doesn't want to hurt my feelings. It's cute and sweet, and a turn-on for me.