gordon921 wrote: ↑Fri Jul 22, 2022 12:51 am
Hi newaussiecuck,
not commented but have been reading your thread. As your mother said, your wife possibly needs a fright to get her out of this assume "emotional affair" fog.
It also looks like your struggling to engage with her.
Once you have worked out in your mind what you want to say to her, I would suggest you go into the room, sit down so you're both at the same level, look at her eye's if she does not make eye contact and say something like "xxxxx we really cannot keep on going like this, our marriage has collapsed and is non functional, we need to talk about what our future is..." Hopefully that'll provide the fright she needs to snap out of this fog.
Hi and thanks for commenting. Yes I've been going over in my mind what I need to say to her. Your suggestion is a good approach. I also like the approach from whosbeensleeping: "I don't know how we got to where we are, but it doesn't seem to be working. At least it's not working for me." and maybe following it up with something like "All this shit here (pointing to her computer setup) needs to end. Our marriage can't survive much longer like this. This here (again pointing to her computer setup) isn't normal. I can't keep living like this".
Basically, the nice approach I tried obviously hasn't worked so time to try some tough love.
To be honest I'm feeling like I'm pretty worn down by trying to hold everything together for 2 years and trying to fix things and doing whatever I can to save our marriage and not let it end.
I start to feel like just letting it all go and collapse.
Unfortunately I also start to feel like the woman I loved and married no longer exists. The woman I fell in love with was kind hearted (although strict in her own way but that was sometimes fun if you know what I mean), honest and always a pleasure to be around. Obviously whoever she's spent so much time talking to has been a really bad influence. The woman sitting there now is a proven liar, lazy and just bitter and nasty, and always looking for the negative in everything that I do. I can surprise her by making something unexpected and she'll just pick all the faults in how I did it rather than just enjoy that I did something unexpected. After our rare lunch outing with friends on the weekend I rushed ahead a little and opened the car door for her, just to show a little gesture you know? The only response I got was "You need to vacuum the car"!
I just finished a major project I've been working on for about the last month or so. I attached the last item to it following the instructions and we put it up. Instead of saying right away how good it looks she focused on that last item attached (which she didn't know existed until I told her and you can't see it anyway). She got up and started inspecting that tiny little piece and spent a few minutes talking about it and told me that it's in the wrong spot and I need to move it a millimeter! I said "I'll take a look later" and she raised her voice "I'm just telling you blah blah blah ".
So instead of making it a nice moment of congratulations on finishing the huge project and how good it looks it just became this deflating letdown.
Anyway the project is done now and does look great, which she did eventually say later.
I also feel a little better about the girl not being there. It could be many reasons really and doesn't have to mean anything. Come to think of it, even though the weather has been good there were a lot less people there last few days, so it wasn't just the girl that wasn't there. Someone suggested that maybe people are taking their dogs to the beach instead because of the good weather.
Thinking back on everything I'm pretty happy with the way I played it all so that's the main thing. I just missed talking to her is all, a breath of fresh air even if she's nothing more than a dog-park friend. Was just nice to have someone excited to see me. Maybe even she just needs her own space also to work out her own feelings or giving me space to work out mine. They say "Absence makes the heart grow fonder" so maybe she's giving me absence to make my heart grow fonder.
I'm sure she'll turn up again one day.