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by brandiandme » Tue Jan 14, 2020 1:13 pm
Holy cow. Lots of speculation here. Some pretty accurate too, some not. This is pretty long. Sorry.
First off, I was in a bad place when I posted last and have come around.
I wrote most of this on my long plane ride back to Dubai and the rest tonight after I settled in. It's now 2 am here so I need to try to get to sleep. The time change sucks. Yup, I'm away again, and for 10 weeks this time.
A LOT has happened. There has been lack of honesty (on both our parts), confusion, lack of communication, lack of support, missed red flags, and general indecision and flip flopping (mostly me).
I have not been nearly as supportive as I needed to be. 90% of the time I was begging Brandi to be a slut and do all kinds of things, and 10% of the time I was not supportive and even negative, even making her feel bad.
Brandi really let things get out of control. I missed some red flags as well. Brandi has been hyper sexual and her behavior the few nights we had been out which was my friends party and New Years, was very slutty. In one breath it turned me on while in the other I was pissed about it. On top of that, she has been smoking weed regularly, even keeping her own. This was a girl who used to occasionally take a puff here and there, maybe one or twice per month. Now she was smoking every day.
I wanted her to be a slut, while it looks like I got one. Brandi turned into some kind of sex toy for Tre and has not only fucked Billy, but 5 other guys, and blew another, at his request. On top of that, she fucked my parents 20 year old neighbor in my parents basement while we were visiting. I thought we had agreed to put this on hold a month ago, but Brandi actually became the cheating wife.
Thursday evening (1/2/220) I was in the kitchen while Brandi was in the bathroom briefly. We were getting dinner ready and she had left her phone on the counter. I did not intend to look as I feel spying on your spouse is really douchey, but it was right in front of me. There was a text from Tre that flashed up and said see you at 2:00 tomorrow. It was sitting right in front of me and impossible not to see. I wanted so bad to open her phone and read the text string. I could not as it would show as read. I just flipped her phone over and moved to another counter space. Brandi came out of the bathroom shortly later, looked at her phone, tapped a few times, and did not say a word.
There is the possibility that Tre could have been planning to see Brandi for other reasons, but I could not see many. I did my best to remain calm and not go crazy. I wanted to ask Brandi about it and confront her but was trying to be logical and say there must be another reason for the text. Later, when Brandi had gone to bed to wash up, she left her phone in the bedroom. I could not help it, I had to look. The text string from Tre was deleted. What made it worse was that Brandi's pussy had seemed loose when we had been fucking lately although we've been having sex every day. In full disclosure, we had still been acting out role play scenarios where I would fuck her with her big dildo and we'd pretend it was Billy or Tre, and I got a lot of sloppy seconds from the dildo. We also used it in a lot of double penetration scenarios, and a few days after "the night" with Jason, had even used the dildo to DVP her.
I should have confronted her, but I wanted to "catch" her. Looking back it was vindictive and not the right thing to do.
I left the office to be home for "personal reasons" and was back just about 1:40. Looking back this was right after my last post on here. As long as it's not too late in the evening, there is decent parking on our street. I parked just down from our building so I could see the front door. I still had no idea what I was going to do if Tre showed up. Should I stop Tre, should I bust in on them. Should I wait and see if it's really innocent and he's gone in 5 minutes.
As I'm sitting there wondering what the fuck I'm gonna do, I see Billy of all people leaving our apartment building. What the fuck was he doing there? Had I somehow misread the text message. Was Brandi cheating with Billy? After mulling it over for several minutes I was about to get out my car and go inside when Tre pulls up and parks 4 cars in front of me. I sank in my seat. To my surprise, Tre gets our of his car with 2 other black dudes and goes up to our door and gets buzzed in. I recognized one of them as Tre's friend that goes to our gym and the other is his roommate.
My mind was going completely nuts now. These guys had to be there to run a train on her. Fuck, she's a whore. What if she's charging. Maybe she's a secret call girl. I was all over the place, and I think anyone else would be too. The worst part was is that I was rock hard and rubbing my cock now, thinking all of these nasty things my wife might be up to. Then I stated to justify it.
No, I was being crazy. Maybe she was getting drugs, maybe she was selling them. She'd been really into weed lately. After 30 minutes went by and I had to go in. I let myself in the front door and walked up the stairs to the door of our unit. I put my ear against the door and sure enough I could hear the definite sounds of sex coming from our apartment. It was faint and not easy to hear from the hallway, but with my ear against the door I could hear definite fucking. I sat there listening.
I could occasionally hear a squeal of muffled scream from Brandi and an occasional comment from one of the guys loud enough to make out. My cock was rock hard and I was rubbing it standing in the hallway. I then got worried a neighbor may catch me. That would be worse, getting caught playing with myself in the hallway listening to my wife getting fucked in our apartment. I thought about going in. Should I bust in? Should I sneak in and try to watch? What if it turns violent? I went back to my car. I was so horny I jerked off in my car in my pants, worried someone may walk down the street and see me and call the police. I manged to cum leaving a mess in my underwear. I instantly felt awful. What the fuck is wrong with me. My wife is in my home getting likely getting fucked by multiple guys and I jerk off in my car.
I was on the verge of tears but soon being mad started to take over. After what seemed like an eternity, but was only another 45 minutes or so, Tre and the 2 other guys walk out the door. I sat back down in my seat until they drove off. I was again torn what to do. Do I leave and come back at a normal time. Do I pretend I didn't not see anything and try to get her to admit it to me? I was too worked up to let it rest and it was time to confront Brandi. I was in the house in less than a minute. I opened the door and found Brandi in the bathroom.
She was wearing her robe and it was clear as day she had just had sex, and she was clearly very high. She was more than surprised and gave me a what are you doing home followed by her eyes tearing up and an I'm sorry. She started to cry and I just held her. It was fucked up, I should have been beyond mad but I was rock hard and wanted to fuck her bad. I picked her up and carried her to our cum stained bed. I threw her down and slid inside her very loose pussy. She was sloppy and wet and I just pounded her. I soon realized that her pussy was not just wet but appeared to have cum leaking from it. She had stopped crying and and was now begging me to fuck her. I called her names, mostly a slut, and commented on her stretched pussy. I told her she was my slut and she would fuck who I wanted when I wanted. She said she was a slut and agreed. It was hot and passionate. Having cum earlier in my car and with her pussy nice and loose, I pounded her for a while. I did not care if she got off I just wanted to fuck her as hard as I could. I finally came after 20 minutes or so and was out of breath and exhausted.
We had a decent amount of alone time before I left to dissect what has happened so far and where this might be going. There were a lot of tears. We both came clean about everything. I told her I needed to know everything she did and when. I have actually created a timeline to keep track of it. I also made her promise not to do anything until we had talked it through and had a plan, and that we needed to have monogamous time together before I left. As far as I know, she has not fucked anyone since I caught her getting gangbanged.
Brandi admitted that she had had sex with 6 other guys recently that I did not know about. One being Tre's roommate, another 4 friends of his, and lastly my parents neighbors 20 year old son. This does not include my friend Jason, his neighbor, and the other guy from the house party. I am broken up about the deception and cheating, but some fucked up part of me is loving what a slut she is becoming. We've had a few long talks, and I'd been so focused on what I wanted and expected I failed to focus on what Brandi was getting from this and what she wanted. More about that later, but I will say that besides Tre and his 5 friends fucking her, and my parents neighbor, she has continued to have sex with Billy, but at Tre's request.
More about Brandi, Billy, and Tre. Apparently, Tre is really turned on by Brandi fucking other guys as well. They day I caught her was like the eight time she had had sex with one or more of Tre's friends. He has a thing where he likes to have sex with other guys and fuck her really hard and have her tell him he's the best. She said it so dirty and nothing like she'd ever thought she'd do or enjoy, but Tre makes her orgasm very hard and is just dominant over her.
Then there were the times where Tre asked her to have sex with Billy before him. The very first time she did this Tre brought his roommate over with him, who she had just fucked for the first time a few days before. The day I caught her was the second time Tre had instructed her to have sex with Billy, and then gangbanged her with his roommate and gym friend.
This is how it all started.
She had a threesome with Tre and his roommate weeks ago, and that opened the door to Tre inviting more friends over to fuck her. She does not know why but she could not tell him no. They've double penetrated her, including DVP. She said all 5 guys are pretty hung but not as big as Billy or Tre. That's a lot considering we were gone for almost a week at Christmas and she had her period the prior week. She also admitted that Tre has been coming in her but not Billy.
Apparently the very week I had called it quits on hotwifing, she had a few drinks after work one night, was feeling horny and haughty, was pissed at me for how I had been acting, and went to Tre's house to smoke weed with him. That very night she ended up fucking Tre and his roommate. She knew it was wrong and Tre convinced her to talk it over a few days later. He ended up bringing his roommate with him to our apartment and they both fucked her again.
The next night he convinced her to come to his place after her shift to hang and smoke, only to find him there with another friend (gym friend), and he talked her into fucking them both. He introduced her in a similar fashion to another friend days later. Tre then told her of his desire for her to fuck Billy first and she did the next day. That very day after she fucked Billy Tre brought his roommate over with him again.
Next is what I call her slut week.
Things completely snowballed from there and the crazy party at my friends house was only part of it. Apparently, 12/23 the day before we left for the Holidays, Tre had told her to fuck Billy then brought his roommate and gym friend over later in the day. It was the first time she had every had sex with 3 guys at once. She had sex with 5 guys that day. Billy, Tre, his roommate, his gym friend, and me later.
Also, apparently New Years Eve when she disappeared to Tre's place it was not just her and Tre, but 3 other friend she had never met before. She let two fuck her and gave the other one a blowjob.
She had been a big slut and had been doing what Tre requested. She can't fully explain it but said it's a huge rush for her to be able to get multiple men off throughout the day, and the thought of being a cheating little slut makes her horny.
That explains why sometimes she'd be so tired and her pussy so loose at night, not to mention her use of the big dildo. Her I was thinking I was getting her sloppy seconds pussy from the dildo and I was actually getting sloppy seconds, 3rds, 4ths, or 5ths. She even admitted to faking orgasm at night so I would not go on to long and to make me feel better. She was sometimes feeling very worn out at night.
This also explains her willingness to get dirty with multiple guys and do a DVP at the party. She said it was exciting being so slutty and it made her horny thinking about these men willingly sharing her and still wanting her. Well, at least Tre, his friends, and myself know about all of us. Billy still thinks it's only him and I fucking her.
One of the things that pissed me off the most was her cheating with my parents neighbor's son. It was so stupid and risky. I can't imagine what the fuck would happen if my Mom had caught my wife fucking her neighbors son. Here is how that went down. It was the night before the crazy house party where she fucked my friends from home, and we were staying at my parents house. My parents recently (well, almost a year ago) had new neighbors move in. They are roughly the same age and have become friends. My parents always have a small Christmas party right before or after Christmas, depending on the year, and it includes us, my brother, his wife, and any Aunts, Uncles, or other cousins around, and usually a neighbor or two. My parents new neighbors came over with their kids, a 20 year old college student, and a slightly older daughter.
I thought nothing of it. Everyone was drinking but my brother, dad, and uncle drank quite a bit of bourbon and I went off to bed as everyone left. The wife of my parents new neighbors along with her 20 year old were still there to help my Mom clean up, along with my wife. Apparently, earlier in the night my wife was leaving the bathroom when the neighbors son cornered her and told her she was hot. She gave him a quick kiss. She said there had been a lot of eyes and flirting between them when they could get away with it. Now that the house was mostly emptied out, the son made his move on my wife. She said he had cornered her in a hallway and they started making out. She then asked him if he wanted to fuck. He had to go home to get a comdom and my wife let him back in through the basement door.
My parents have a finished basement with a walk out including a guest suite that no one was using. My wife ended up sneaking him into my parents basement and them fucking him in the guest room. She admitted she was super horny, knew I was passed out, and the excitement and dirtiness of what she was doing and the possibility of getting caught turned her on. She admitted the sex was not great and was more of a quickie with him pulling down her pants and fucking her doggy style until he came. She did not have an orgasm and admitted this had added to her being really horny and the way she acted at the party the next night.
I explained how hurt I was by her deception and she can never hide anything again from me. She apologized and knew she was wrong and was convinced I was going to divorce her. She was confused. She never meant it to happen each time and it just got out of her control with Tre quickly. She was so deep in she was afraid to tell me. She was a little reluctant to let go at first, finally did, found she enjoyed it, and then one day I was telling her to be a slut and do all kinds of nasty things, and then next day I was telling her to stop. Just as she was enjoying becoming a slut I wanted her to stop, but somehow Tre with his dominant presence persuaded her to continue. I can see how it'd be confusing to her. She also admitted that she is much more of a sub than she every imagined and She promised never to lie to me again and would be open and honest about everything she did, no matter how slutty and if she thinks it will upset me.
As for the marijuana thing, she said that she had been smoking something called Jillybean, (she called in Jellybean, but I looked it up), when she had sex with Tre the first few times. She loved the way it made her feel and it really enhanced sex. Since, Tre had given her some and she liked it so much she even bought her own and had been smoking it most days, especially those days when she would have sex. If you can tell, Tre is a bit of a pothead and really knows his weed. I did some research and it appears to be strain where it lowers inhibitions and is known to be used with sex.
She also admitted that she is enjoying her new found freedom and experimenting with what she enjoys sexually. She said she really enjoys the thickness of Tre and Billy, and size definitely matters to her. I told her about my feeling of being inadequate compared to Billy and Tre. She asked why I have been telling her I like her pussy so much after she has been with them. I'm telling her I like it and then worried about how I measure up. If we are both getting what we need out of sex, what does it matter. She did admit that it's easier for her to cum on their thick cocks than it has ever been with me. She said it was the same thing with Mike, that's why she fucked him for 3 years, he made her cum multiple times and easily. This hurt my ego and I told her but she said I am still the best at making her orgasm with my tongue, fingers, and hands.
I admitted to her that her lovers being larger than me and potentially fucking her better than I can turns me on. I also enjoy it when she tells me how good they are and how much bigger they are. I also wouldn't mind her telling me that I'm smaller and a little humiliation. I also like calling her dirty names and making her tell me how much she likes big cock. I am really turned on by the fact that Tre has shared her with 5 friends, all black dudes by the way.
She also enjoys the way Tre is dominating and treats her like a sex toy and there is nothing loving or tender about it. She also loves the rush of the times when four or five of us have had sex with her in one day and has admitted she wants to have more threesomes and foursome, and even try a gangbang (these are all fantasies I had introduced). She has been on a sexual high the last few weeks with all of the sex and is super excited about the different men she had just barely met and then had sex with.
She said I cannot just stomp my feet one day and say it's over. We need to have a discussion about it and come to a mutual decision. I asked her what if I needed to have her stop. She said she always would but is not going to make a quick decision on starting or stopping, especially since I've seemed to change my tune a few times already. It's her decision too. She loves me and will never leave me for any sexual adventure, but she needs to be free to experiment at this time.
It looks like the box has been opened and I've lost the control I thought I had. I wanted a slut for a wife and it appears I have one. I love my wife more than anything and want to keep her. The worst part is that I fell like if I demand her to stop she will go on cheating and just not tell me.
I believe the only course of action is to let her go ahead and do what she wants as long as she is 100% open and honest with me, no matter what. I feel like restrictions will lead to dishonesty. Plus, I'm kind of curious to see if I give her free reign, how big of a slut will she become. It's like some fucked up experiment. Take a relatively good girl, introduce her slowly to some slutty things that she enjoys, and then remove the guard rails.
I cannot explain how turned on I am by what she has done recently. Full slut mode is an understatement. In the week between Christmas and New Years, a span of 8 days, she had sex with 11 total guys, and blew 2 more. 8 of those men were new guys.
We narrowed it down to a few basis rules that cannot be broken. I told her our entire relationship going forward depends on these, especially #1. 1) Honesty. She tells me everything no matter how bad, dirty, or naughty she thinks it is. 2) Safety First. Do not have risky sex and condoms are a must unless they have a recent test and she also trusts them. 3) Do not put herself in a situation where she may be abused or raped. 4) If she feels like she is developing feelings for someone she needs to tell me ASAP (she assures me this will not happen but I know nothing is guaranteed).
It was a strange feeling leaving her this time knowing that I have given her the green light to do whatever she wants. I honestly have no idea what will happen in the few months when I'm gone. She already has plans to hang with Tre tonight. It's been a week and a half since they've been together and I know she could not wait.
