Young Wife May Start Again

[TheHammer]

That is awesome, hope you can get home soon and have some of that well used pussy.

Have her bleach her hair in the meantime while you are working on the new boobs.

[gwwkjt]

Brandi manages to up a notch again. The most certain thing is that you will never get bored with her. Many thanks and have good trip home. More frequent updates would be appreciated

[afagehi7]

Brandi manages to up a notch again. The most certain thing is that you will never get bored with her. Many thanks and have good trip home. More frequent updates would be appreciated

And some faceless pics of Brandi. She'll let random men fuck and cum in her ass bareback while others dp her and watch her play slut porn star but she's not ok with some de-identified pics for your wannabe ohw friends?

I'd love to see her with Martin's big cock.

[Serrand]

First of all, probably the most important thing currently, I wish you a quick and safe return back home.

Well, you obviously love Brandi being your slutwife, and Brandi obviously also enjoys this very much, of course there is nothing wrong with this. Nonetheless, and correct me if I'm wrong, I still would assume, above this and above all, you want that Brandi still desires you as a person physically and sexually, that sex with you is still satisfying and exciting for Brandi. You have expressed some concerns in this regard.

I think to increase Brandi's lust and desire for you it wouldn't be bad idea, if you would do exactly the opposite to what you did the last time when you return from your extented business-trip, back last November. By the way, in my opinion what you did back then, just the days before and at the day of your return triggered, at least to a degree, the following events of Brandi lying and deceiving you in the next month, which led to a small crisis in your marriage. But that's of course only my opinion.

However, like I already said to increase Brandi's lust and sexual desire explicitly for you, I think it would be a good idea that this time around Brandi maybe would stop having sex with any other guys about 4-5 days or even longer before you return. Maybe this time you both should give this a try?
Generally, don't you and Brandi think, that when you both have sex with each other for the first time after more than 10 weeks being apart, that this "event" should be more important and more meaningful for you both, than you being the second or maybe even the fourth or fifth guy, who has Brandi on this day? At least, I would think this should be more significant than this. But that's of course only your decision.

[XYAlpha]

First of all, probably the most important thing currently, I wish you a quick and safe return back home.

Well, you obviously love Brandi being your slutwife, and Brandi obviously also enjoys this very much, of course there is nothing wrong with this. Nonetheless, and correct me if I'm wrong, I still would assume, above this and above all, you want that Brandi still desires you as a person physically and sexually, that sex with you is still satifying and exciting for Brandi. You have expressed some concerns in this regard.

I think to increase Brandi's lust and desire for you it wouldn't be bad idea, if you would do exactly the opposite to what you did the last time when you return from your extented business-trip, back last November. By the way, in my opinion what you did back, just the days before then at the day of your return triggered, at least to a degree, the following events of Brandi lying and deceiving you in the following time, which led to a small crisis in your marriage. But that's of course only my opinion.

However, like I already said to increase Brandi's lust and sexual desire explicitly for you, I think it would be a good idea that this time around Brandi maybe would stop having sex with any other guys about 4-5 days or even longer before you return. Maybe this time you both should give this a try?
Generally, don't you and Brandi think, that when you both have sex with each other for the first time after more than 10 weeks being apart, that this "event" should be more important and more meaningful for you both, than you being the second or maybe even the fourth or fifth guy, who has Brandi on this day? At least, I would think this should be more significant than this. But that's of course only your decision.

Agree. So that she is not "too sore" and all fucked out when he gets home like last time where he had one shot and then had to masturbate the rest of the night!

Everything else in your post is in my thoughts also.
Hopefully, she still enjoys and WANTS to have sex with OP.

XY

[realcucklife]

Have you made it home yet?

[path22]

OH can you arrived to your home in USA?

[Triggershy]

Wake up every morning to check on my favorite couple. Hope your home and enjoying your Wife!!

You deserve the best.

[funcpl477]

Worried about you two...

[Terrycart79]

Long Dong Silver probably moved in and locked hubby up in a closet

[brandiandme]

I need to get this off my chest.  I can't believe I'm writing this let alone it is happening to me.  I feel a outlet when I tell people though.  It's like a therapy session and I am releasing my bad juju.  As if this could not get any more fucked up my entire world is upside down right now.  Along with the end of the world feeling from the spread of the Coronavirus, I somehow feel this is not real, and just a dream.    

Yes, I made it home. Last Thursday, barely. My company came through and went the extra mile.

Might as well go back to last week.

Brandi had been cooped up at home for a few days.  She was worn out and sore after the sex party on Saturday, and with the closing of the bar and everything else, she was a homebody and had not really seen anyone except her friend Kate.  Needless to say she got bored by Tuesday.  She had been texting with Chris (she does this a lot as she likes him and thinks he's funny).  She had not seen him in a few weeks.  He was just hanging at his place with some friends and he invited her over.   She had never been to his place before but wanted to get out and socialize.

This is the information I have and my best attempt to put it into a readable story format.  

Chris lives in a large apartment building in a not so great part of the city.  She got there and there were 4 other guys hanging out with Chris, including his 2 roommates and 2 other guys.  Chris introduced her as she had never met any of the guys before.  They were smoking and before long Brandi pulled Chris away and told him to show her his bedroom.  She was horny and feeling super naughty and didn't care who was there and who knew.  So, soon she was in Chris's room fucking him.  Pretty soon she had an audience and the door was open as one of the guys was peeking in.  He was bold and had his dick out stroking it.  He approached her and asked Chris if he minded.  Chris said "it's up to her".  Soon she was sucking this guy as Chris fucked her from behind.  

Chris said he was gonna cum and pulled out to put it in her mouth.  When he did the other guy asked if he could go next.  She was still horny and let him.  Chris left the room and then one of the other guys came in and she started sucking him, and then fucked him as well.  This repeated itself until she fucked all of 5 of the guys.  She said everyone had used condoms.

It was never more than one or two guys in the room with her but she let these guys run a train on her.  She said the only guy she kissed was Chris and they were just using her for sex.  Most guys just fucked her long enough to get off before they were replaced by another one.  She said it felt like one of the dirtiest things she has ever done, but she was caught up in the frenzy and loving it at the time.  There she is in a strange bedroom in the middle of the hood letting random strangers use her mouth and pussy.  She said she did not mean to fuck everyone, as her true intention was to only fuck Chris, but once she got started there was no turning back.  She spent most of the time on her knees or back while guys took turns fucking her.  After the last guy was done she did not stick around as she felt a little awkward.

She has just put herself in a lot of risk.  She basically let anyone who was around fuck her.  I don't doubt if there were more guys she would have just kept going.  She has also potentially exposed herself to diseases including the Coronavirus.  Just in time for my return, things have really escalated.  It amazes me how easy she has become.  She does not seem to tell guys no anymore and is pretty much down to fuck whoever asks. In the 10 day span dating back to the gangbang with Tre and Marvin, that made 14 new cocks in her pussy.

Upon her relaying the informaiton of her just having run a train with a bunch of random guys, I've had enough and told her we need to shut down the hotwife thing and take a break to regroup. 

The realization had set in that I am coming back to a different wife and a complete slut.  It's kind of been like a game until now, but it has gotten very real.  We went way to extreme too quickly.  In the 10 weeks I was gone she fucked 36 different men, including 28 black cocks, and played with one woman.  I've continued to read about sex addiction and I'm now sure Brandi has one.  

Then I made it home.  

Remember how someone asked if I really knew Brandi.  I did not, at all.  She's been a great actress over the years, I give her that.  Hold on tight because this is much more than anyone even myself could have predicted.  With my mediocre writing it will read like a bad porn story, but my Brandi is/was an actual whore.  

Brandi had been acting very funny and nervous since I got home. I first thought it was because of the reality of what she had done had set in and she was feeling guilty.  Think about it, she had just basically turned into a slut in the last 5 months, much at my request, fucking 47 men in that time, and in the nastiest of ways on occasion.  I will admit when I first brought it up almost 5 months ago, I had hoped maybe Brandi would have taken a few fuckbuddies, but never thought she would she be such a slut.  At this point she had put herself out there so much I had to support her.  I cannot resolve myself from blame though.  Well I flipped flopped at the beginning, after I caught her cheating and getting gangbanged it's like a switched flipped in me.  I started encouraging her to do all kind of slutty things for me.  She always checked and asked if I was sure.  I never once pumped the brakes.  I repeated told her things like "I wanted her to be the biggest slut around" and talked about her fucking hundreds of men, "for me".  

She finally told me that she had to get everything off her chest.  She had cheated before I caught her, and on her other boyfriends, and done a lot of very whorish things before and while we were together.  She lied to me about the number of partners she had when we met.  It was not 5 like she had always told me, but that it was actually 24.  She also admitted that she cheated on me, a lot, with about 20 guys (I later made her recap and it was actually 22) while we were dating and engaged, worked as a stripper, and even took money for sex a few times with older men.  She swears she did not at first, but after she started fucking my friend Mike she got the urge and soon was fucking other guys behind my back.  While she did not lie about having several steady boyfriends before we met, but she fucked around on them constantly.  When she met me her freshman year in college it was a fresh start. She had wanted to be faithful and put her slut days behind her.  

Her very first boyfriend was 4 years older than her when she was 15.  Her parents were divorced and she spent time between her alcoholic Dads house and her Mom who was remarried and never home.  She could do whatever she wanted, so she partied.  Her first boyfriend shared her with one friend, then another, then another.  She did her first gangbang with 3 guys that year.  Her Dad found out she was dating a 19 year old and put her on lock down.  By that time her 19 year old boyfriend had shared her with 4 of friends and she'd done several threesomes and a few small gangbangs.  Her next boyfriend was not for almost a year later.  He was her age and her parents approved.  She started fucking him but found she wanted other guys too.  She started cheating by fucking his brother who was older by 5 years.  She started going out and fucking other guys behind his back, mostly guys a few years older.  She did this with her next 3 boyfriends.  So, she had tallied up 24 guys by the time she was 19 and met me.  

Below all took place when we were dating.  She remained faithful until I started sharing her with Mike. Soon after that, she was cheating on me back at college.  Some of these turned into regular fuck buddies.  She said many were one and done with others were ongoing at one time or another.  She had at one point started hooking up with two roommates and having threesomes with them.  

She worked at a few bars and restaurants in college as a waitress.  When she was 21 one of her friends convinced her to take a job as a drink girl at a strip club.  She soon saw how much money the dancers were making and decided to do it.  This place was close to an hour from college to limit her chances of being discovered.  She ended up meeting up with and fucking 9 guys she met while stripping.  A select few of the girls would get to know some regulars well and take money for sex with them.  This was done on the down low and not at the club.  She started by giving guys blow jobs and sucked off a total of 5 men for extra money.  She ended up going to the next level and had full on sex with 3 guys, who were regulars she got to know well, and had sex with each a handful of times.  They were all middle aged guys and she said the sex was okay, but it was the excitement that got her off.  She did it as much for the excitement as for the money.  It drove her crazy to be fucking these guys for money knowing she had a loving boyfriend back at home.  It was one of her friends from this period in time that made a homemade porn and it ended up all over the Internet with her name attached to it.  It fucked up her life quite a bit which is why Brandi is so anti pictures and video.  If you can't show any proof of it happening it's pretty easy to deny.  

One guy she used to dance for regularly was an older black man.  She said she used to do private dances for him and he had the biggest cock she had ever felt on anyone.  She was fascinated by his cock and decided she wanted to have sex with him.  This was not for money but solely because she wanted to.  She could not.  At that point she was still too tight for him to fit his cock in her.  She tried but he was just too big.  She said he tried to warn her in advance that a lot of women were too small for him, especially young ones.  This made her want him more but she could not fit him inside.  She left the strip club shortly after the encounter with the giant black cock.  She left because we got engaged, even though she tried to fuck the horse cock guy after we'd gotten engaged, and she knew she had to get away from that place and lifestyle.  She dialed it back at that time and stopped fucking almost everyone else, except Mike and I.  She loved sex with Mike and his big cock but tried to down play it for me. She did have a few one night stands during that time bur her opportunities were limited.

The failed attempt with the giant cocked black guy was her only sexual encounter with a black man before she had sex with Tre.  She admitted that she developed a fascination with black guys after this and has had an attraction to black men ever since.  It makes total sense now that her second fuck buddy since commencing hotwifing was a black guy, and she has now gone on to fuck 29 black guys in the last 5 months.  All of the guys she had sex with before were average to slightly above average.  This was the first and only black guy she tried to have sex with until Tre came along.  Out of the 47 men she had sex with before Billy, she said there were a handful around Mike's size, and those were her regular fuck buddies.  She realized that she loved big cocks.  She liked being a little sore after.  Billy was the first really really big cock she had come across. 

She was on the verge of tears telling me all of this.  She had tried to be a good girl and faithful, and said she loved me more than anything, but her impulses, especially when she drank or smoked, took over.  I asked if I knew any of the guys from before and I did.  She only had sex with 2 guys that I knew as she was trying not to get caught.  One sticks out in my mind because he was a friend (not a close one) who had asked me one night while we were at a college party if I minded him dancing with her and asked if it was okay.  I remember telling him I did not care.  I didn't think that meant she would go fuck him.  The other one was worse though. It was back when I lived in an apartment with 3 other roommates. One was my close friend Nate, but the other 2 guys were just acquaintances from college. One of the guys, Jim, was a bit of a dick, and he also bragged about his fairly large dick. He had figured out that she had fucked Mike and guessed right she was a slut. She fucked him on several occasions. It was not a real regular thing, since there was not a lot of opportunity, but my roommate fucked her behind my back.

She had wanted to tell me when we had our breakthrough when I caught her cheating, but felt the blow of finding out was bad enough.  She also thought about telling me on the way home after she had fucked Ron and then my friend Jason and the neighbor.  She said she finally needed to tell me everything and also how she feels about us now.  She absolutely loves me but does not think she can remain monogamous.  She loves sex too much.  She swears she did not cheat on me after we got married and had made a commitment to be monogamous and faithful.  It was really confusing to her when I told her I thought she should take lovers in my absence.  It got really confusing to her when I started to confess my fantasies about her being a total slut.  Especially when she was starting to embrace it and I would change my mind.  Once I had finally convinced her it was what I wanted she let herself go.  

Part of her awakening has made her realize has to have well endowed lovers like Martin and Tre to be fully satisfied, and she does not want to give up the thrill of group sex.  It's no coincidence that the 4 guys with the biggest dicks, Billy, Tre, Chris, and the roommate are the ones she's fucked the most.  She also admitted that she was also serious about only have sex with black men from now on.  She said the sex she has been getting from her black bulls over the last several months has changed her outlook on not just sex in general, but race.  She has found herself only getting turned on by black men recently.  

Especially since meeting Martin and the lifestyle parties she's been too.  She said the sex she has gotten from not all, but many of her black bulls has trumped anything even her best white lovers have given her.  She did bring up that fact that Martin has known happily married white women who only have sex with black men.  She understands if I do not want this and want a divorce.  She assured me she does not want that and wants me to be part of everything and with her.  She said this is who she is and although she tried to deny it, she can't.  She said she would also understand if I was to take a lover myself.  She said it would deeply hurt her, but she would understand.  She said she would be worried about me falling in love with a "normal girl" that she has tried to be.  

Then it turned to sex.  Brandi pulled me to her and kissed me.  She said, "You've told me you wanted me to be a slut, while I am baby, are you really sure you still want that?"  

I couldn't deny it.  I wanted to abuse her slutty pussy where so many men had been before.  Not only had she just fucked 14 men in the last few weeks, she'd had 41 more cocks in her pussy than I had previously known.  Her number was not 47, but actually 88.  88 fucking men had been in her 24 year old whore pussy already.  Not only that, she just told me that she only wants to fuck black men now.  It drove me insane with angst.  I wanted to treat her like the dirtiest whore I'd ever met.  I did.  

I threw her down on her back and spread her legs.  I grabbed her giant black dildo (yes, she now has a giant black dildo, and it's massive, more on that later) and pummeled her with it hard and relentlessly, making her orgasm twice, until my arms were tired.  I called her a whore, a slut, told her she had a loose pussy, slapped her ass, pulled her hair, and slapped her tits.  I made her bed for "huge black cock". She loved it.  I was not done.  She told me to fuck her with a real cock.  I then stuck my cock in next to the huge dildo and double fucked her pussy as hard as I could.  I was not done.  When the dildo slid out I told her her pussy was too loose (it was very lose at this point) and fucked her ass.  I fucked her ass until I came and made her clean my dick with her mouth. 

I know it's fucked up but I'm in.  She's a dirty whore and she's my dirty whore.  I feel relief in some way now.  Life is certainly going to be interesting, but fuck it.  I am sure many will tell me to divorce her and run for the hills.  I love her though.  

In feel stupid and naive for missing the signs over the years.  Fucking on our first date, her always being a big flirt, especially when drinking, her willingness and eagerness to fuck my friends, her willingness and eagerness to start fucking random men, her noticeable loose pussy sometimes (she would say she was just really wet and horny but had obviously recently fucked someone large).  It's all there in front of me.  She was a slut all along.     

[brandiandme]

Oh yeah. My whores real stats.

Total all time 88 men 59 White and 29 Black
since starting hotwifing on 11/2/19 she's fucked 39 men 29 - Black  10 - White  
13 total gangbangs 
since I left on 1/13/20 - 36 men including 26 new

[mundyman]

Well that’s quite a welcome back!!!
Now faced with the reality that you are no longer in control it will take you two a while to figure out what the new normal is going to be.
The cheating sucks and will take a while to get over. It may take even longer to build your trust. But it only starts with honesty.
I would suggest she tone it down quite a bit until you two can come up with the understanding of how her/your behavior will fit into your relationship.
But holy fuck!!!
Good luck to both. Keep communicating, you both are going to need to do a lot of sharing, listening, compromising, and understanding.
Please keep us up to date on how your conversations are going and what agreements you’ve come to.

[mundyman]

The bottom line is, do you love and respect each other? Do you trust each other and the feelings the other professes for the other? Can she stop the cheating and going behind your back, or is that part of the thrill for her? Would she be willing and able to stop if you asked? Has she told you everything?
Good luck.

[Claireandcarl]

Brandiandme first of all, good you are back!

WOW! Well, we got some kind of "boom"! Not even me who applying a "critical approach" saw ALL of this coming. I'm "pretty" sure (I want to say Im sure, but you can never say that to 100%) there's more and that she hasn't told you everything. It doesn't matter if someone says "what does she have to lose to tell "everything" after she has already told so much". Sorry, I still pretty sure there is more, from which emotions were involved, number of people, with whom, number of times, timeline etc.

Still want to add that my concern for Brandi well-being that I mentioned in a previous post remains...actually more worried now than before.

Sure, it's twisted and a weird view of values ​​from a "norm perspective", but you seem to fit each other. If you two feel that you believe in you with all that this means (from your perspective), and that you enrich each other's lives ...good for you! You get what you want, and she gets what she wants.

I have a question. Is Brandi financially dependent on you? Or is it that she could have her current lifestyle and comfort without financial support from you? I understand she can whore herself out and make money, but I mean without having to do that.

[edit: lots of spelling]

[Serrand]

Well, that's a lot to take in. But yes like mundyman has asked would she be willing and able to stop, if you would asked?? Probably not, I fear. What does this mean for your future together? Now, maybe everything is exciting, but will it also be the case in the longterm, I have my doubts. I know you have just returned on thursday and probably haven't talk about all aspects, but I referring maybe to the most important you have mentioned, what about you and Brandi having a family? I know, you said this is still a few years away, given both of your age, but how do you imagine this with Brandi? I assume you want to have and raise your own biological children and not the offspring of one of her fuckbuddies. How can you ever be sure of this with Brandi, do you still think this is possible with her?
I know, these are tough questions and it's impossible for you to have all the answers now, but if you really want to have your own family one day with your own children and not someone else's (when she fucks only black guys this would be pretty obvious anways), then you should think long and hard about this, if you can have this with Brandi.

Maybe more urgent question for now, I'm aware it's a sensitive issue, but also an important if your relationship should have a longterm future, how is the sex between you and Brandi? You have mentioned this one encounter between you and her at the end of the text, but how has it been since then, Is it sex with you satisfying for Brandi with you? Does Brandi ever orgasm when you fuck her with your cock and you don't use a dildo as a substitute or help?

At last, since your return thursday are you the only one she has sex with, at least as far as you know? Don't you Brandi taking at least a little break from fucking around would be a good idea? Is she even able to concentrate only on you at least for a while and not have sex with other guy?

I know you probably have constantly the feeling I want to lecture you, believe me or not, I really wish you and Brandi to make it, but I simply don't know...I don't know if this is really a healthy relationship what you both have. I concerned that one day this all will become very hurtful for you.
Of course, I can't force you to answer any questions, but I must admit I'm really curious to hear your thoughts on this various issue.

[afagehi7]

As predicted: he's going to be a sissy cuck. Someone advise him on cages, panties, and cock sucking technique.

[realcucklife]

Great to hear your back home safe and having fun with Brandi.
By the sound of it your the exception to her black rule, or has she flagged cutting you off at some stage?

[XYAlpha]

I'm glad the OP has made it home. I have a colleague who is having a real tough time finding a way home from the UAE.

Not the update I was expecting!

I'm not sure how one works past the cheating, lying, and deceit. All marriages and even more so one in this LS rely heavily on trust. In this regard, if it were me, I would not be able to trust Brandi. This is very clear with her "addiction" causing her to make decisions that are not only unsafe for her but for the OP himself.

If the OP decides to continue with the marriage, he will definatley be subordinate to all of her other lovers. I'm not sure if he has an exception to the black cock rule or not. Certainly, her comment that she has never been so sexually satisfied than she has been with above average sized black cocks implies that he will no longer satisfy her. IMO, I could not be "that" guy. There are those that can love their wives and not have sex with them - I just don't understand it. There is nothing wrong with that - and there is nothing wrong with my position either. To each their own.

The OP had expressed he loves watching and participating with Brandi and others. It appears that this dynamic has changed significantly. He is now labeled - by Brandi - as inferior to her other lovers. This would be illustrated by his presence among all of her other lovers - the white guy. No way he can be her dominant husband now. I suspect he would be humiliated by them (and perhaps Brandi) in a group sex setting. I and others have considered that he would be watching while wearing panties.

It is not relevant whether she is financially independant. She is probably out of work now with COVID shutdowns...
The OP should not consider this in his thought process.

Going to the "hood" and having train sex with a bunch of unkown men is extraordinarily dangerous on so many levels. And if anyone here believes that they all used condoms...

To the OP:
A HW or HWH can make a decision or set of decisions that are incompatible with what the other wants or needs. Each knows the weight of their decisions - especially if they know the decision is contrary to the wants or needs of their spouse. At this point - something has to break.

It is OK to protect your heart and safety with a divorce. She knows that this is a possibility, and raised it as such. She has thrown down her conditions - accept that I will only fuck black cocks (the OP's status is unclear), you will never satisfy me, I will be a very risky sex partner to complete strangers and therefore you, lying, cheating, and deceit...
Take it or leave it.

If it were me, I would leave it.

XY

[Tryn]

Call me old fashioned but I believe a good spouse should be there for the other in a time of need. The idea that the OP should leave Brandi is ridiculous. All addicts break the trust of those they love and those that love them. It’s just a part of addiction... all addictions. Her father was an alcoholic so addictive tendencies run in her family.

OP- you love Brandi and now is when she needs you the most. She’s trying her hardest to be the wife you want her to be. Support her with that! Help her with that. Be cognizant that she might slip up but don’t shun her because she’s more than you wanted or knew. Work together and build the marriage you both desire. Help her find a trained mental health professional that can assist her with managing her desires more effectively and in a more healthy manner. Brandi deserves your support!!

[UtridOfAustin]

How frequently are you and she being tested for stds?

What type of birth control is she using?

I think that your wife's inability to say no means that she is unable to prioritize your safety nor her safety nor your emotional well being.

[XYAlpha]

Call me old fashioned but I believe a good spouse should be there for the other in a time of need. The idea that the OP should leave Brandi is ridiculous. All addicts break the trust of those they love and those that love them. It’s just a part of addiction... all addictions. Her father was an alcoholic so addictive tendencies run in her family.

OP- you love Brandi and now is when she needs you the most. She’s trying her hardest to be the wife you want her to be. Support her with that! Help her with that. Be cognizant that she might slip up but don’t shun her because she’s more than you wanted or knew. Work together and build the marriage you both desire. Help her find a trained mental health professional that can assist her with managing her desires more effectively and in a more healthy manner. Brandi deserves your support!!

I agree with you in pricipal.
However, this is not the run-of-the-mill addiction.

Addiction to such things as drugs, alcohol, gambling, and porn do not necessarily put their spouse at risk for a host of STD/STI and physical danger. In this case, Brandi has.

In your example, the addict wants to change and the spouse supports that effort. Brandi has no desire to change. In fact, as the OP stated, this is who she is and she wants to stay this way. She stated her conditions.

Applying that to your addict scenario - using drugs for example - the addict tells her husband, "I love doing drugs and I do not want to stop. You will never do for me what drugs do. In fact, I just want drugs that are not like you. I will not stop doing drugs and I want to do more. So, stay married to me and accept that I am going to do drugs or divorce me."

I am not sure where love and support changes that. The first step in "recovery" is admitting you have a problem followed by a desire to change. I doubt Brandi thinks she has a problem.

The OP, by his own admission, does not even know her...

The OP is absolutely encouraged to make the best decision for himself. The nature of these forums is to share perspectives. I was not recommending the OP divorce her. I carefully stated that if it were me, that I would.

I know exactly how difficult it is to have a marriage come to that breaking point - where the (LS) wants and needs of the HW and HWH are no longer compatible.

I was not willing to be subordinate. I was also not willing to wait around to see if things changed. As adults, we deliberate and make a decision. Others, taking your decision into consideration, deliberate, and make their decision.

I considered my HW's decision, deliberated, and made my decision.

XY

[afagehi7]

XY - I'm with you 100%. This isn't an alcoholic asking for help to change but one that says the booze is more important than the marriage

[brandiandme]

Once again, there is a lot of negativity coming from this forum.  Why is it that some members live in polyamorous relationships where the wife actually loves another man and this is okay?  There are wives that stop having sex with their husbands, wives that put their husbands in locked cages, wives that encourage their husbands to suck cock and dress them up in panties or women's clothes, and all of that is okay? 

Yet, none of the above has been even discussed or considered by us.  But my wife running around and fucking a bunch of other men is terrible?  There are also plenty of couples on here where the husband knows and supports his wife getting sex with her lovers/bulls that he cannot give her.  Hypocrisy.  


More from the last week.

I got back Thursday and was completely beat.   I slept.  The confession and everything else in my last post came Friday.  

We had sex again on Saturday.  

She got on top of me and her pussy was very slippery and loose.  We were kissing passionately at first.  She then spoke up.  "Do you like my slutty pussy baby?"


"Yes, I love it"

"How does my pussy feel, is it loose?"

"Yes, you're pussy is loose, you're such a slut."

"How does it feel for you?"

"I barely feel your cock baby.  All of my bulls have stretched me out.  Fuck me, fuck my slutty pussy."

"You such a dirty little slut.  Are you going to fuck lots of big cocks for me?

"Yes, I going to fuck as much big cock as you want.  I only fuck black cocks now though besides you.  Is that what you want?  You want me to be your little white slut?"

"Yes. I want you to be my little black cock whore."

We went on like this for a few minutes and even though she was loose and very slippery, it was fucking overload having her on top of me with her hot little body and knowing not only what she had done the last few months, but how what she had done over the years.  I came pretty quickly.  She egged me on to cum in her.    

"Fuck, I need to cum.  Grab my dildo from the nightstand baby."

I opened the nightstand drawer and there was the fucking massive black dildo.  It is 13 inches long (10 inches insertable, 13 total) and over 8 inches around (I measured it later).  So much had happened yesterday we never even discussed the giant dildo.  It is even slightly bigger than Martins monster cock.  "Where did you get this?"

"I just got it last week.  Isn't it huge.  Use a little lube baby"

I grabbed the massive dark shaft and lubed it up.  It was a lot bigger then her already big white dildo she had gotten months ago.  Her whole demeanor changed as the intruder opened her up and sank in.  She clearly loved having her pussy stretched wide apart.  Soon I was full on fucking her with it almost the entire 10 inches deep.  I pounded her with it as she screamed "I love that huge black cock, fuck me baby" along with a host of other things.  I was relentless again, actually seeing if I could fuck her hard enough for her to tap out.  I could not.  She took it like a champ.  Soon she was cursing her way to a very large orgasm.  I pushed until she took the entire 10 inches as she shook.  I could not believe her little body had that much cock inside of her. When she was done I pulled it out and her pussy stayed open leaking my cum, lube, and blood.  For a moment I thought I had torn her pussy with the assault, but it was the start of her period.  She admitted she was a little sore after that one.  

So this was my second reclaiming session.  I just fucked my wife again with a massive sized dildo that apparently resembled her newest prize fuck buddies cock, and she came buckets on it.  Not only that, all of the dirty talk was about her being my little slut again.  It was not loving and tender.  She wanted to be treated like a whore.  We have discussed that in depth as well. Being treated like this gets her off. I laid and snuggled her.  She cuddled in and said she missed me.  

The lies and deceit from the past can be forgiven but there are conditions.  I need to know all from her past and she can hide nothing.  She swears she has told me everything in detail from the last 3 months.  I believe her.  I will say I got some very dirty stories from her past.  Hot stuff, like fucking two guys from the strip club in their SUV after the club closed.  She's a dirty girl.  I need to also have the ability to decide who she can fuck and who she can't.  If she is going to be a slut, she is going to be my slut, and will fuck who and when I want, including me.  Cutting me off from sex is not an option.  Her desire to only have sex with black guys does not include leaving me out.  She just prefers her fuckbuddies, at least for now, to be black.  I asked her if something was to happen to our relationship or us, if she would go out with a white guy again, and she did not know for sure.  She said she would definitely not date someone unless they were well hung though.   The one thing we agreed on is that the playing as it had gone on with me away needs to stop.  Her getting together with random guys she barely knows and having group sex is too risky.  We talked about me being involved and helping recruit and organize gangbangs for her.  We thought that this is something Martin may be helpful with.  She said the sex party with Martin was amazing and the guys, mostly older, who were experienced in the lifestyle, were just different.  This could work, not young punks, but guys who know and understand the lifestyle.  On the topic of Martin, she wants to see him again soon and very much wants us to meet.  She is very much looking forward to a meeting with him again and thinks she wants him to be a steady regular lover.  As it stands, he is coming over for dinner on Saturday for us to meet and talk, and will likely be fucking my wife as well.  I absolutely love the fact that she donned Qos tattoos at the sex party and order some temp ones for her to wear for me.  They should be here before Saturday.  

She admitted that it had always been hard for her to orgasm with just my cock which is why I would often finish her with my mouth and tongue.  It has not hindered our sex life up to this point.  We talked about her pussy.  I told her I think she has a big pussy.  She agrees which is why she thinks she loves huge cocks.  I absolutely think her pussy feels different than it did 3 months ago.  I think it looks a little different too, like more worn looking (this is hot to me by the way).  She doesn't think she' s looser, but agrees she is more accommodating and it's easier to stretch.  I can tell you the feeling on my cock is noticeable though, whatever it is.  I asked her about playing with big toys and even fisting.  I know this is extreme for some, but I have always had an interest in this fetish.  I've always kept it kind of hidden as it is taboo, as I did my hotwife kink for a long time.   She is willing to try it and we plan to do so when her period is gone. We also talked about Sam, the giant cock guy that she tried to fuck a few years ago and her development for a fascination with huge cocks. I suggested me try to find him and finish what she started.

This is only a tiny bit of what we have talked about in the past week, but we are working it out, and want to agree on a life where both of us are happy and satisfied. We are both kinky as fuck, that's for sure. I still want her to be a giant slut, but in more of a controlled manner if that makes any sense. Circling back to the sex thing, I get off on the thought of her being such a slut and size queen that normal sized guys like myself cannot get her off.

[Supa Scoopa]

Make the most of it mate. Most of us would love to slide our cocks into a well used wife.