I'm Ky, and I'm a cuck-oholic

[DarrenZ]

Hey Ky,

I’ve been re-reading your recent posts and was reflecting on your friends being aware of Jamiee’s relationship with Matthew.
Thinking about how it makes you feel being “outed” and how it’s altered your interaction with them. Also interested in what questions George and Josh are asking, especially from Josh if you think he has an interest. Are the questions mostly logistical (how you two make it work) or emotional.
Is it freeing to be around folks who know or does it add to some levels of humiliation that they know?
NYE sounded intense. Matt being there openly as her date while you were there. And, despite all that, she ended up with Sipho that night. Major head trip. Can’t recall if you’ve said, but is Matt aware she hooked up with another guy? If so, does that bother him? It sounded at one point like things might be winding down with him, but now it seems like he’s still in there. Was this a conscious choice by Jaimee or did it work out that way because of convenience?

Sorry for all the questions. As someone very interested in the reality of such a relationship and a writer, these questions very much intrigue me.

[Ky_Da]

Fuck, that is insanely hot. The submissiveness of helping to facilitate it and distract the kids. The mild threat of being caught by the kids. I’ve seen some discussions about integrating boyfriends into family life and how to potentially have it work successfully. Any thought about setting it up so that mom’s friend could stay for visits more frequently and less surreptiously?

No, not really. It's an erotic thought to be sure, but we play it ultrasafe with the kid - okay, we're obviously not homeschooling crunchy parents, but we try to keep our extracurricular activities away from them. Involving Matt that way feels like more risk than reward. I'm not sure how we would make that work. The last thing I want is some years down the road for one of my kids to say, "Dad, whatever happened to that friend who used to come check mum's plumbing?"

Speaking of the kids, the boys are around 5 now. Have you given thought to when, how, you will tell them that you are not their biological father? I only ask because, in my experience with adopted children, it was easier on the kids when they knew early, rather than when puberty hits, that they were adopted. Those that learned late felt they had been lied to for years and have long term resentments, especially when they learn the truth from someone else.

I read your comment the day you posted it, and it has lingered in my mind. This isn't the first time I've considered such matters. My wife and I have spent years reflecting on this, engaging in endless discussions, trying to discern the right path. It's a genuine struggle, and honestly, I haven't found the answer yet.

I'll start with this: we both agree that at some point, the boys have to know the truth – I'm not their biological father. We think they should be at least eight, maybe closer to ten, before we sit down for that talk. We want to do it sooner rather than later, but they need to be old enough to really get what we're saying. It's definitely not going to be an easy chat.

The bigger worry, though, is how the in-laws will take this news. It's hard to picture a situation where this doesn't eventually get to my mother-in-law, and from there, to everyone else. Sooner or later, one of the boys is going to say something, and then it's out there. My wife's relationship with her mom has gotten better since we moved closer, but it's still not great. Dropping this bombshell would definitely set them back a bit.

A few months ago, my mother-in-law cornered Jaimee with a question. She hinted, noting how the boys resembled Jaimee but bore no likeness to me. If she ever laid eyes on a photo of Wade, the real father, the truth would be unmistakable. Sooner or later, it's bound to come out.

Jaimee and I have hashed out a dozen ways to break it to her folks. We could play it off like it's none of their business, dodge their questions. But that just leaves them free to cook up their own stories. Then again, maybe that's not the worst outcome. The real story would probably hit them harder than anything they might dream up. They'd likely jump to infidelity, but they'd never guess the true story behind the boys' conception.

While Jaimee leans towards letting them speculate, I'm not a fan of that approach. It casts her in a bad light, making me look like the victim, just trying to make the best of a tough situation. But the truth is, I was deeply involved in everything that happened. So, whenever this idea comes up, I've been quick to shoot it down.

The long and the short of it is that I agree, the kids need to know sooner than later. With today’s technology and DNA testing, the last thing I want is for them to find out through some other means and then have that break in their trust. When it comes to cuckold erotica and sharing experiences, the pregnancy fetish is often teased, but no one ever writes about what happens after the child is born. At least not in a meaningful way, or at least not that I’ve ever read. It’s not exactly a fun, sexy topic.

[veub]

Thanks for the response - I understand that it's not easy. What are Wade's feelings on this? Your parents?

[ddriver86]

Ky,

You are right. The discovery of DNA and the new online companies that track your heritage is very eye opening. I am surprised this has not been a bigger deal in the world.

Just as an example, my grandmother was married to my dad's father and he died in his early 50s. We (kids) all thought this was our grandfather and had a certain medical history.

Well come to find out through this app that he was not my father's father. My grandmother has passed so we could not ask her about it. But it is correct. Now we have a another view of where we came from.

We saw a picture of the man and he looks just like my father. VERY WEIRD! My dad took it worse than anybody else.

A new world we are living in.

Thanks for your story,
D

[Ky_Da]

Thanks for the response - I understand that it's not easy. What are Wade's feelings on this? Your parents?

I group my parents with the in-laws regarding this disclosure. Whichever path we choose, we'll handle both sets of parents equally, sharing the same details.

Then there's Wade. Our contact with him is sporadic. Jaimee occasionally sends him a photo, but beyond that, our interactions are minimal. Wade, in my eyes, is the unpredictable factor. Jaimee's connection with him has been deeper than with anyone else. I'm somewhat relieved we don't live near him now. Proximity would likely reignite old flames, drawing him back into our lives. I'm aware Jaimee misses what she shared with him, the intimacy included. Yet, as for what we'll tell the boys about him, we're still undecided. Yes, we might be procrastinating, but the way forward isn't clear. Perhaps it never will be.

[veub]

Thanks for the response - I understand that it's not easy. What are Wade's feelings on this? Your parents?

I group my parents with the in-laws regarding this disclosure. Whichever path we choose, we'll handle both sets of parents equally, sharing the same details.

Then there's Wade. Our contact with him is sporadic. Jaimee occasionally sends him a photo, but beyond that, our interactions are minimal. Wade, in my eyes, is the unpredictable factor. Jaimee's connection with him has been deeper than with anyone else. I'm somewhat relieved we don't live near him now. Proximity would likely reignite old flames, drawing him back into our lives. I'm aware Jaimee misses what she shared with him, the intimacy included. Yet, as for what we'll tell the boys about him, we're still undecided. Yes, we might be procrastinating, but the way forward isn't clear. Perhaps it never will be.

The concern would be with your parents suddenly learning that the boys are not their grandchildren. I'm sure that will lead to a lot of internal conflict for them no matter how the situation came about.

[vmb69]

Could just go with the "we had problems conceiving" and tried alternate methods. A lot of women have had to do that and once they had kids that way ended pregnant on their own. It's not that uncommon. You don't have to go all in details

[Lucky Dog]

Fuck, that is insanely hot. The submissiveness of helping to facilitate it and distract the kids. The mild threat of being caught by the kids. I’ve seen some discussions about integrating boyfriends into family life and how to potentially have it work successfully. Any thought about setting it up so that mom’s friend could stay for visits more frequently and less surreptiously?

No, not really. It's an erotic thought to be sure, but we play it ultrasafe with the kid - okay, we're obviously not homeschooling crunchy parents, but we try to keep our extracurricular activities away from them. Involving Matt that way feels like more risk than reward. I'm not sure how we would make that work. The last thing I want is some years down the road for one of my kids to say, "Dad, whatever happened to that friend who used to come check mum's plumbing?"

Speaking of the kids, the boys are around 5 now. Have you given thought to when, how, you will tell them that you are not their biological father? I only ask because, in my experience with adopted children, it was easier on the kids when they knew early, rather than when puberty hits, that they were adopted. Those that learned late felt they had been lied to for years and have long term resentments, especially when they learn the truth from someone else.

I read your comment the day you posted it, and it has lingered in my mind. This isn't the first time I've considered such matters. My wife and I have spent years reflecting on this, engaging in endless discussions, trying to discern the right path. It's a genuine struggle, and honestly, I haven't found the answer yet.

I'll start with this: we both agree that at some point, the boys have to know the truth – I'm not their biological father. We think they should be at least eight, maybe closer to ten, before we sit down for that talk. We want to do it sooner rather than later, but they need to be old enough to really get what we're saying. It's definitely not going to be an easy chat.

The bigger worry, though, is how the in-laws will take this news. It's hard to picture a situation where this doesn't eventually get to my mother-in-law, and from there, to everyone else. Sooner or later, one of the boys is going to say something, and then it's out there. My wife's relationship with her mom has gotten better since we moved closer, but it's still not great. Dropping this bombshell would definitely set them back a bit.

A few months ago, my mother-in-law cornered Jaimee with a question. She hinted, noting how the boys resembled Jaimee but bore no likeness to me. If she ever laid eyes on a photo of Wade, the real father, the truth would be unmistakable. Sooner or later, it's bound to come out.

Jaimee and I have hashed out a dozen ways to break it to her folks. We could play it off like it's none of their business, dodge their questions. But that just leaves them free to cook up their own stories. Then again, maybe that's not the worst outcome. The real story would probably hit them harder than anything they might dream up. They'd likely jump to infidelity, but they'd never guess the true story behind the boys' conception.

While Jaimee leans towards letting them speculate, I'm not a fan of that approach. It casts her in a bad light, making me look like the victim, just trying to make the best of a tough situation. But the truth is, I was deeply involved in everything that happened. So, whenever this idea comes up, I've been quick to shoot it down.

The long and the short of it is that I agree, the kids need to know sooner than later. With today’s technology and DNA testing, the last thing I want is for them to find out through some other means and then have that break in their trust. When it comes to cuckold erotica and sharing experiences, the pregnancy fetish is often teased, but no one ever writes about what happens after the child is born. At least not in a meaningful way, or at least not that I’ve ever read. It’s not exactly a fun, sexy topic.

Hi Ky,

I always read what you post but don't often write. My suggestion is that you plan this is the best way for your family. That means first making sure there is no legal question that you are their father given that they are yours in every way but biologically. Hopefully, your wife's status as their mom has already resolved your legal status.

After that, I think you should start talking with them sooner rather than later. Many of the adopted children I know learned that they were wanted by their parents and brought into the family through adoption. You can substitute any terminology that better fits than "adoption" in your case, given that your wife is their biological parent, as well as their actual mother, and you've been their dad since birth. I've found that children don't always ask further questions until they're ready to do so, and the simplest (truthful!) answers often satisfy them until later, when they ask for more.

In any event, they need to know before others in the family know. I know, it's potentially annoying if other family members hear it from the children, but it's potentially devastating if the children hear it from other family members (or friends of family members, etc.). Given that your mother in law is an adult, she should be helped to allow her love for you and your wife AND for your children to help her overcome any surprise or even concerns she has about the arrangement. After all, parents love their (adult) children after their children get divorced, which is a more difficult situation, as divorce can alter grandparents' schedule of time with the children.

In any event, you have so much to be grateful for (wonderful family and love) and so much to be proud of that you should present this information to select family members after the kids have been brought on board. If one of those family members is not initially comfortable with learning about this, they can avoid telling others and minimize their exposure to difficult conversations.

I wish you all the best with your family and with your (hopefully) continued exciting cuckold life.

[MustBeDenied2]

Ky,

You’ve got a few years to decide how you’re going to do it. I’ve seen the full spectrum of children finding out and it seems that the older they are, the worse they take it. One of ours is adopted and she’s always known. She’s in her thirties now and is as well-adjusted as anyone I know.

Might I suggest that you get professional help with this? You’ve got some time, so you can vet them properly.

Perhaps explaining that there were some infertility issues with you and you used a family friend as the donor. No one has a right to know who it is. As for your daughter, lots of people have infertility issues that clear up. It legit happened to us.

Best of luck.

MBD

[DarrenZ]

“Something happened, but it’s between us and we’re okay with it. Sorry if we felt uncomfortable sharing it before but the kids should know and we wanted you prepared also as we deal with explaining it to them. [Ky] is their father in every sense of the word except biological and that doesn’t change any bit about [his] devotion to them.”

I’ll just add I have experience in a similar, but not exact situation.

[Ky_Da]

Hey Ky,

I’ve been re-reading your recent posts and was reflecting on your friends being aware of Jamiee’s relationship with Matthew.
Thinking about how it makes you feel being “outed” and how it’s altered your interaction with them. Also interested in what questions George and Josh are asking, especially from Josh if you think he has an interest. Are the questions mostly logistical (how you two make it work) or emotional.
Is it freeing to be around folks who know or does it add to some levels of humiliation that they know?
NYE sounded intense. Matt being there openly as her date while you were there. And, despite all that, she ended up with Sipho that night. Major head trip. Can’t recall if you’ve said, but is Matt aware she hooked up with another guy? If so, does that bother him? It sounded at one point like things might be winding down with him, but now it seems like he’s still in there. Was this a conscious choice by Jaimee or did it work out that way because of convenience?

Sorry for all the questions. As someone very interested in the reality of such a relationship and a writer, these questions very much intrigue me.

I think I want to move on from the kid’s discussion. I appreciate the points made, it gave me more to consider, so thanks. DarrenZ sent me some questions and it spurred some things I want to share.

Firstly, my thoughts on being 'outed' to our neighbors, particularly George and Lauren, and Josh and Hanna. Had I been at the flat more often, it might have been a more significant ordeal, emotionally challenging to navigate. However, my frequent travels meant I wasn't present when Jaimee shared our story. For me, the revelation turned out to be rather anticlimactic. In some ways, it's been liberating not having to harbor a secret. I thought it would be more humiliating to have neighbors know about our ‘other’ activities, but our neighbors accept us as we are, and everything’s worked out well.

George and Josh love to pepper me with questions, both logistical and emotional. I think they were both surprised to learn how difficult the logistical part of the relationship can be. Honestly, my wife and I spend a lot of time scheduling. That’s not sexy to write about, so I tend to skim over it, or skip it altogether, but we do spend a lot of time and effort coordinating schedules.

Out of the two, Josh is the one who’s more curious. He’ll ask me every question under the sun he can think of. I don’t think he has a desire to be a cuckold, but more to get his wife to try swinging with him. His wife, Hanna, however, doesn’t seem to like the idea at all, and it’s been a source of contention between them. Josh is a bit of a perv, likes porn, and wants to try a lot of the things he sees and reads. His wife on the other hand, has no interest in going outside of her marriage. It’s funny because one time I actually had the thought, “why does Josh want to fuck around on Hanna? He has a beautiful wife and everything going for him. Why take a chance and screw that up?” Believe me, I know how hypocritical that thought was.

But let’s shift gears a little and talk about Sipho. I’ve wanted to update more on this topic, but I haven’t been able to make the time until today. Sipho, Sipho, Sipho… where do I start…

Matt remains in the dark about Jaimee's encounter with Sipho. His reaction would likely be one of anger if he were to find out. Jaimee didn't intend to 'cheat' on her boyfriend, yet she isn't deeply troubled by the incident. The reality is, her relationship with Matt has been losing its warmth. He's been a part of our lives for nearly a year, but he lacks the drive and passion Jaimee seems to crave. He doesn't possess the same intensity she experienced with Wade. Wade had a knack for challenging her, standing his ground, yet making her feel valued. In contrast, Matt tends to shrink under Jaimee's pressure, diminishing her respect for him. She’s looking for someone like Wade who would have just picked her up and fucked her in the ass for her petulance.

Matt has suggested taking Jaimee to a sex party, envisioning it as a unique experience. However, despite its potential novelty, this idea doesn't particularly entice my wife. She likes to

I believe I briefly mentioned Sipho in an earlier post, but here's a quick recap. He stands around 6' 2", weighs about 200 pounds, yet appears quite slender. His skin is extremely dark, and he keeps his hair cut very close to the scalp. Articulate and evidently intelligent, he claims to be an art dealer. However, I sense he's involved in a variety of ventures – I just hope they're all legal. Our interaction on New Year's Eve was intriguing. When he delved into art, I found myself at a loss for words. As an engineer, my world is defined by numbers and tangible concepts, I’m a lost cause when it comes to the art world.

Regardless, I couldn’t help but like the guy, and it seems my wife does too. They’ve been texting back and forth since NYE. It started off slow, but has gradually picked up as the weeks have passed. Sipho is 180 degrees different than Matt, and I think that intrigues Jaimee. No subject is taboo, no topic off limits, nor is there much he hasn’t tried or done in the past. He’s an experienced bull and is very interested in pursing some type of relationship with my wife.

We've never ventured into the classic 'bull' scenario before. Our journey through various experiences has been more about carving our own path. Yet, Jaimee seems open to at least considering it. Since New Year's Eve, nothing further has transpired between them, but that could change. In my next post, I'll fill you in on the conversation I had with Jaimee the other night about Sipho.

[txrockdog]

Great! Now you will have me checking in more often than I already do hoping to see another post.

Ky, I think you mentioned it before, but am I correct in remembering that one of Jaimee’s desires was to dominate you a bit or at least to “be in charge” because it balances how submissive she feels when treated that way by the right guy? Sounds like she wants to be a valued “toy” for a strong and demanding guy, while being the valued treasure to somebody like you who would “do anything” for her. If she starts up with somebody like Sipho, don’t be surprised if her urges to lead you where she wants you to go get stronger to match.

[venus-can99]

Thanks for finding the to provide some updates Ky. Even though you are not travelling right now you must be busy with the kids and logistics and scheduling. So thank you and looking forward to your posts

[veub]

Matt remains in the dark about Jaimee's encounter with Sipho. His reaction would likely be one of anger if he were to find out. Jaimee didn't intend to 'cheat' on her boyfriend, yet she isn't deeply troubled by the incident. The reality is, her relationship with Matt has been losing its warmth. He's been a part of our lives for nearly a year, but he lacks the drive and passion Jaimee seems to crave. He doesn't possess the same intensity she experienced with Wade. Wade had a knack for challenging her, standing his ground, yet making her feel valued. In contrast, Matt tends to shrink under Jaimee's pressure, diminishing her respect for him. She’s looking for someone like Wade who would have just picked her up and fucked her in the ass for her petulance.

Matt has suggested taking Jaimee to a sex party, envisioning it as a unique experience. However, despite its potential novelty, this idea doesn't particularly entice my wife. She likes to

I believe I briefly mentioned Sipho in an earlier post, but here's a quick recap. He stands around 6' 2", weighs about 200 pounds, yet appears quite slender. His skin is extremely dark, and he keeps his hair cut very close to the scalp. Articulate and evidently intelligent, he claims to be an art dealer. However, I sense he's involved in a variety of ventures – I just hope they're all legal. Our interaction on New Year's Eve was intriguing. When he delved into art, I found myself at a loss for words. As an engineer, my world is defined by numbers and tangible concepts, I’m a lost cause when it comes to the art world.

Regardless, I couldn’t help but like the guy, and it seems my wife does too. They’ve been texting back and forth since NYE. It started off slow, but has gradually picked up as the weeks have passed. Sipho is 180 degrees different than Matt, and I think that intrigues Jaimee. No subject is taboo, no topic off limits, nor is there much he hasn’t tried or done in the past. He’s an experienced bull and is very interested in pursing some type of relationship with my wife.

We've never ventured into the classic 'bull' scenario before. Our journey through various experiences has been more about carving our own path. Yet, Jaimee seems open to at least considering it. Since New Year's Eve, nothing further has transpired between them, but that could change. In my next post, I'll fill you in on the conversation I had with Jaimee the other night about Sipho.

Putting these things together - Sipho a replacement for Wade in her heart? Matt, in many ways seems to be a the poor man's version of you - submissive and not challenging. Sipho comes across as a black Wade - demanding of her and of you.
You make it clear that you know that if you get into a relationship with Sipho you'll be on your knees and bending over a lot. It's what Jaimee wants and he is willing to do that for her.
I just wish you seemed happier about the whole situation.

[Goodboy66]

This could end up as a great conversation with the parents, the twins aren't mine and your daughters about to give birth to a mixed race which is unlikely mine.

[matador5511]

Great and amazing story.

[txrockdog]

Jaimee seems open to at least considering it. Since New Year's Eve, nothing further has transpired between them, but that could change. In my next post, I'll fill you in on the conversation I had with Jaimee the other night about Sipho.

Ok Ky, we are all trying to be patient, but you are killing us here! Seriously though, hope things are going well with work and the family. Please fill us in when you have time.

[David52]

Ky, I imagine you are off and away again, but hopefully home for the weekend. I've read your fiction. Have you thought about turning your story into a screenplay. You might need to tone down the cuck stuff and make you hero (yourself) a bit more reluctant but perhaps Hollywood is ready along the lines of 50 shades? You mentioned Jaimee's relationship with her mother is not the best. I hope the history is not as serious as Samantha's.

I understand that you started in the lifestyle with a difficult experience before Wade. Because that thread is lost, will you give us a summary of what went down? Thanks as always. Your posts are among the most honest.

[txrockdog]

Ky, I imagine you are off and away again, but hopefully home for the weekend. I've read your fiction. Have you thought about turning your story into a screenplay. You might need to tone down the cuck stuff and make you hero (yourself) a bit more reluctant but perhaps Hollywood is ready along the lines of 50 shades? You mentioned Jaimee's relationship with her mother is not the best. I hope the history is not as serious as Samantha's.

I understand that you started in the lifestyle with a difficult experience before Wade. Because that thread is lost, will you give us a summary of what went down? Thanks as always. Your posts are among the most honest.

If I am not mistaken, their first experience was with somebody named Derek and it was fairly traumatic for both Ky and Jaimee.

[mick_flow]

Hey Ky, home you and Jamiee have a fantastic Valentine’s Day. Hope the work travel has relaxed a bit too.

[Ky_Da]

Hey all,

I know, it's been a few weeks, but as it does, life happens. I have so much I want to write, but can't do much more than leave a note today. I fly out again Monday night, so maybe I'll have some time on the flight to catch everyone up.

Long story short, my wife hooked up with Sipho again last weekend, and he seems to have really gotten his hooks in deep. She's completely taken with him. Enough so that things between her and Matt have cooled substantially.

After Jaimee came home from Sipho's place, she was extremely sore for a couple of days, and complained that it was going to take her a while to get used to such a large cock again.

I only have time to drop this quick note, but I'll commit to a better post next time. So much to write about, so little time.

Thanks for all the well wished - much appreciated. Stay safe all.

Ky

[magnus]

I'm dying to hear about Jaimee's second go round with Sipho. Your description of their first partnering was epically hot.

[venus-can99]

Thanks for the update Ky. Look forward to updates when you the time and/or opportunity.

[David52]

Ky, Should we feel sorry for Matt? It seems he has invested in his relationship with Jaimee and included her in his life aside from sex. I guess he knew it would end and probably saw it coming,, but it must hurt. Thank you for including us in your story and looking forward to hearing from you, David

[wagonmaker1]

hey Ky, it seems like Jaimee has been having sex with Mat bareback, & with Sypho on New Years Eve also bareback, does she usually do them bareback, if so is she on bc?