Maria & Tom recalling from the beginning

[mrs_hotwifecplsa]

This first post is also in another post called Early Experiences That Paved The Way in the Hotwife forum. I thought it would be a good place to start.

I was a virgin when I married my husband, Tom. He was an American in Italy, I loved him, but I didn't know if it was really going to work out, so when we were dating, like most young Italian girls, I "kept my options open" by still secretly dating other potential men. No sex though, although I did regularly give head to one of my side-boyfriends in his car (in Italy it's normal to have car sex as parents are always home and we live at home usually until we get married and move out). He had a big dick, and I liked how he just pulled it out and expected me to perform my girlfriend duties. The first time he did that, I touched it, and he reached his hand over to my head and gently but firmly pulled my head down to his very hard cock. I loved the feeling of the choice of doing the act being "taken" from me. After that first time, my side-boyfriend and I did that every time we went out. It didnt take me long to realize that all my dates with this side-boyfriend consisted of me sucking his dick in his car, and that's all it would ever be. It wasn't going anywhere, and I was ok with that because things were growing with Tom, but I liked the tingly feeling I had as we did the act. It was completely opposite of being with Tom. Tom was sweet, gentle and he took a lot of time to please me physically and emotionally. Tom was definitely my serious boyfriend and soon to be fiance, but my side-boyfriend held a certain power over me I didnt understand yet. On several occasions, my date times were back to back, Tom would be walking up the front gate of my apartment as I was getting out of my side-boyfriend's car. I told Tom he was dropping me off from my college study group (I had stopped attending college months prior!). I would get in Tom's car, and we'd immediately kiss, deeply, and I could still smell and taste the cum from my side-boyfriend on my lips and in my mouth. This excited me but I didn't know why. I knew "good girls" didn't do this, and I put an end to it once our engagement was official. But, the craving for a dominant man pulling my head down to his waiting dick to use my mouth never went away. I understood he was using me, but I didnt understand why I kept going back to him for it. I have to admit that 2 times during my almost 3 year engagement with Tom, when we had arguments and broke up, I went straight to being that man's suck toy again. I refused to have sex with him, but he was happy to use my mouth. Tom and I got married, and I successfully suppressed those feelings until one day a few years into our marriage my dear husband had the brilliant idea of me fucking other men.

[Pecannut]

So hot story! Thank you for sharing it with us. Thank you also for your beautiful and hot Avatar pic.

[AZPainter]

Very interesting and I somewhat understand the pull of going back to the side boyfriend. Then Tom eventually bring up the idea of doing other guys. Is Tom a little submissive to you or is he just interested in the lifestyle and the pleasures it brings to both partners. I can't wait to hear more!

[mrs_hotwifecplsa]

Very interesting and I somewhat understand the pull of going back to the side boyfriend. Then Tom eventually bring up the idea of doing other guys. Is Tom a little submissive to you or is he just interested in the lifestyle and the pleasures it brings to both partners. I can't wait to hear more!

Hi AZ, we are both submissive sexually, but I am dominant over him until I give that over to a dominant Bull to take over and tell us both what to do. We didnt understand this really until we started cuckolding. As we progressed, our eyes were open to things about ourselves we wouldn't have known if we had stayed in a vanilla life.

[mrs_hotwifecplsa]

Very interesting and I somewhat understand the pull of going back to the side boyfriend. Then Tom eventually bring up the idea of doing other guys.

That was my first experience at being used. I didnt understand what it was at the time, but I knew I liked the way it made me feel. When he pulled my head down to his hard cock I was able to blame him (for lack of a better description) for being a slut, because I couldn't handle being responsible for acting like that myself and liking it. But the fact that I kept going back to him was proof that it was me making that choice. Giving control to him and doing what i was told was addicting. Now I understand that it was my submissive nature craving that.

Then when Tom revealed his cuckold fantasy and suggested I fuck other men, I acted shocked, but in reality I immediately thought back to sucking that man's dick in his car, and I felt a tingly butterflies feeling inside me .

And I thought if only he knew when we were dating he was kissing me with another man's cum still in my mouth and on my face. Once we were parked at my apartment in a partially hidden spot. I was sucking his cock and I realized Tom would arrive any moment. I tried to lift my head but he pushed it back down and fucked my face faster. He finished and I immediately got out of the car, still licking my lips, as my future husband was pulling up to the gate. I got in his car and we kissed. I saw my side-boyfriend drove off looking at us smiling. But NOW.. I'd be able to do this with no remorse.. I was intrigued.. but said "How could you say such a thing? don't you care about me??" It was all an act

[venus-can99]

Thanks for your posts about the start of your hw journey

[DoctorLuv]

Very interesting and I somewhat understand the pull of going back to the side boyfriend. Then Tom eventually bring up the idea of doing other guys.

That was my first experience at being used. I didnt understand what it was at the time, but I knew I liked the way it made me feel. When he pulled my head down to his hard cock I was able to blame him (for lack of a better description) for being a slut, because I couldn't handle being responsible for acting like that myself and liking it. But the fact that I kept going back to him was proof that it was me making that choice. Giving control to him and doing what i was told was addicting. Now I understand that it was my submissive nature craving that.

Then when Tom revealed his cuckold fantasy and suggested I fuck other men, I acted shocked, but in reality I immediately thought back to sucking that man's dick in his car, and I felt a tingly butterflies feeling inside me .

And I thought if only he knew when we were dating he was kissing me with another man's cum still in my mouth and on my face. Once we were parked at my apartment in a partially hidden spot. I was sucking his cock and I realized Tom would arrive any moment. I tried to lift my head but he pushed it back down and fucked my face faster. He finished and I immediately got out of the car, still licking my lips, as my future husband was pulling up to the gate. I got in his car and we kissed. I saw my side-boyfriend drove off looking at us smiling. But NOW.. I'd be able to do this with no remorse.. I was intrigued.. but said "How could you say such a thing? don't you care about me??" It was all an act

I can hardly wait to read more about your entry into the cuckold lifestyle and how your relationship with Tom evolved. In particular I’d love to read more about your initial hookups with Marcus about whom you have alluded on a different thread.

[mrs_hotwifecplsa]

Between getting married and Tom's revelation 3 years later, there was zero talk, hints, incidences about extramarital anything. I suppressed completely anything I had felt or experienced prior. My focus was 100% my husband. One thing I did notice from the beginning, but I didn't realize there was any difference in practice, so I forgot about it, was the really big difference in size between my husband's dick and the dick of the guy I'd suck off in his car. I equated it to being like differences in tit size for girls, and thought it mean to judge him based on that. Tom was 5.5" on a good day, we even measured it, which he was very self conscious about doing. Obviously I never measured it, but my sid-boyfriend had been at least 8" and a LOT thicker around. One thing I did like was my husband's smaller dick was a lot easier to suck and give pleasure to. He was amazed at my oral abilities especially being a virgin My husband won my love and took my virginity, so he won that "battle" -I thought forever.

[Amayzed]

More please.

[Angsty Cuck]

More please.

This!

[54321]

Dear Maria,

Please do continue!

54321

[mrs_hotwifecplsa]

3 years into our marriage, my husband hit me with the idea of other men fucking me. I had been perfectly happy being a mostly innocent wife, apart from my experience when we were dating I described above. And that was the first memory that exploded into my mind as he was telling me, the image of my side-boyfriend’s cock in my face, and those feelings of being dominated came rushing back. I quickly shut them off, and said “No. Honey how can you say that? Dont you care about me?” I could not imagine being married and also doing that, even though I crave it, something I was denying. He backtracked a bit saying of course he cares about me and THAT is why he’s suggesting it, and how he can sense that something is there that he can’t quite explain.. something about how I suck his dick or pull my legs back when we make love.. the eagerness of my actions. Once he heard me say “harder” when we were making love. How I moan when he eats me.. Lots of little things that he saw as clues that I want something else, or something different or something more. He couldn’t articulate it well because the idea and the clues he pointed to were amorphous. In hindsight, in reality he was trying to say, in the most non-offensive way possible, that given the right conditions, he sees the possibility of me not being truly satisfied with my current sex life and being an insatiable slut. He asked if I’d ever had feelings like that. I was proud that I was a virgin when I married him. I didn’t want to lie. “Every woman has fleeting thoughts about things we would never do. I was a virgin when we married.” He said yes and he loves me for that, but have I ever had an experience that wasn’t exactly traditional. The euphemisms he was using were funny and cute in his extreme effort to not offend me. I thought how can I answer this.. I thought for a second and said, “Well..” He quickly said, “Yes?” His excitement was obvious and cute. I continued, “while we were dating, and I was far from sure it would work out, I was still dating other men.” He was shocked, “Really?” I said,”yes, what do you think?” I saw him deep in thought for a moment, his eyes got wide and he said, “That guy that always dropped you off!” He was connecting the dots. I replied, “Yes, and others.” “Others?” he blurted out. “What, are you jealous??”, I teased. It's SO CUTE that reality made him jealous, even as he was asking me to fuck other men!! That was my first introduction to the contradictions and conflicting emotions of the cuckold. “Why do you think I didnt want you hanging out with my friends in the beginning or coming to see me at the college? There were guys I was still dating until I was sure about you.” I gave him a lot to mull over without actually admitting that I crave being used and having my face held down onto a horny cock. I told him the answer is NO, but let me think about what all this means. I could see his dick was hard, so we went to the bedroom. First thing he said was, “ah ha! Your pussy is WET!” I just kissed him in response. I got on top of him, and he sucked my tits as he made love to me. I said suck them harder! He turned it up, almost biting them, and instead of caressing my nipples, he pinched them, and I started to orgasm! It kind of shocked me to be honest! That is the first time I realized I like my nipples pinched, even triggering an orgasm. Still making love to me, he said, “see what I mean.” To play into his fantasy I made a yes sound and kissed him deeper. Then I went down the list of every woman’s concerns: I replied, “youre so horny.. How do I know your goal isn’t to be with another woman.“ He said no, he would never want that. I said. “You’ll leave me when another man fucks me.” He said he will love me even more. I was slowly grinding on his dick inside me (I couldn't go fast or it would plop out!), and he was steadily pinching my nipples now that we both discovered that I like it so much. He knows my horny face, thinking I'm in a weak state of mind, he asked, "What else have you done? Did you fuck anyone?" "No, I was a virgin." He continued, "Did you suck cock?" I kissed him deeper. "So you did suck cock!" I moaned a "Yes." as I kissed him deeper. "Who? When?” I added soft moans to my kissing, and whispered, “That’s all you’re getting -for now. I see not knowing something makes you very horny.. I’m going to remember that” Finally it was Test Time: I took on a serious sultry slutty voice, “Baby, you REALLY want to see another man fuck the woman you love? You going to still love me and make love to me after?” He immediately started cumming inside me and pinching my nipples harder. Seeing him cumming so good like that and feeling my nipples being pinched I started cumming too. As I was cumming I whispered, “Be careful what you wish for.” I guess I had my answer. We had good sex I know there were probably some things he wanted to say during the sex, but he was a good loving husband so refrained from it. We ended it there. He was wise enough not to say anything more about it. He made his wishes known, and he was going to let me make the next move.

[Amayzed]

Awesome to read.

[mrs_hotwifecplsa]

Awesome to read.

Recalling it like that made me horny! and reminded me how much I love my sweet perverted kinky hubby <3

[Watchinu69]

Any hot pics like your avatar to share Maria?

[Rogueuser1]

Love it! Please keep sharing!!

[Fearlesspain]

Damn that was a good read! Thanks for sharing! Ive subscribed for the next installment !!!

[mrs_hotwifecplsa]

We went to a beach soon after. We had been doing a lot of sexy talk. Not like role playing and not him trying to convince me (he knew better than that), but more like me teasing him about what he told me. I’d tell him things like if he remembers I told him that guys cock I was sucking back when we were dating.. well it was a 9” cock, my hand couldn't even wrap around it.. I think I’d want a cock like that.. How big is yours again honey? I could see the look on his face. He was horny but also looking very insecure at the idea of how much smaller his dick was! Talking to him like that really got his attention. At the beach I applied sunblock on his back. There were 3 young men sitting about 30 feet from us. Typical beach blond fit semi-muscular probably college student types. I thought of the perfect test. I asked him so you want to see me with other guys? He didn’t respond. I grabbed the sunblock, and walked over to the 3 men. I had on a 2 piece thong bikini. They looked surprised to see me walk up to them, but also VERY curious about what I was doing. They looked back at my husband, then back at me. I walked between them and sat down on one of their towels. I said, “hey guys, my husband injured his hand and cant put lotion on me, can you help a girl out?” They looked at each other. One of them was obviously the more assertive, daring and dominant one and didnt need any more hints or encouragement. I think he understood what I was doing and immediately took action. He said, “yes ma’am just lay down right here, we got you.” I laid back, he took my lotion, squirted it on my chest, stomach, hips, thighs and began slow massaging with both hands. He told the other 2 to rub my legs. They got in position at my feet and massaged my thighs and shins and feet. The outgoing one carefully massaged the lotion around my tits, sweeping under the bikini top touching my nipples. I closed my eyes and I said yes that’s perfect I can’t thank you enough. He massaged down to my stomach, sweeping hs fingers under my bikini bottom, almost touching my pussy but not quite. I made no protest, just laying and enjoying the attention. No doubt he felt emboldened. His hands went back around my tits, slower this time, again sweeping under my top touching my nipples. The other 2 were not as bold. They were only massaging my legs. He ordered me to turn over. I flipped over, put my head on my hands and opened my legs a bit. He had the other 2 guys trade places with him so they massaged the lotion into my back, and he massaged my thighs and ass. He squirted the lotion all over, and slow massaged from my feet, calves and thighs. He was enjoying it, and so was I. I said, “wow you guys are great.” He was saving the best for last. The only part left to do was my ass. He grabbed a towel and laid it over my ass. I said, oh that's a good idea. The other 2 stopped what they were doing to watch the master at work. He told them to hold the towel up a bit but keep my ass covered from view. There was no more teasing. He massaged the lotion into my hips, squeezing them, and my ass cheeks, going completely under the thong, touching my ass hole and reaching his fingers down to my pussy. I said softly that's perfect. He took his time and massaged my outer pussy lips and ass hole. For a moment, I thought to myself What The Fuck Am I Doing?? But it was feeling very good, and I knew my husband was going crazy because this was super spontaneous and he'd be horny AF seeing this unfold before his eyes. Thankfully the guy knew not to go into my pussy with sunblock lotion. His touching was very relaxing. He continued massaging my pussy until he said to me, “well ma’am I think you're all covered.” I said yes that was amazing, thank you. I asked where are you staying if I need some more. He said they were leaving back for Houston tonight. He asked if I ever come to Houston. I said yes we do. He wrote down his number and gave it to me. He said he goes to the University of Houston, and he’d love the opportunity to apply more lotion. I put his number in my bikini top and said yes I’d like that. I thanked them again and walked back to my husband. I could see my husband had quite the hard on. I laid down on our towel, put my arm around him and said how was that. He replied that was the hottest thing he’d ever seen. I made sure to lay with my legs open to my new friend. A couple times when my husband went to get drinks for us, the college student came over to me and talked, hoping to get a firmer commitment to come see him. I told him he’d have to wait, but I will call him I promise. I could see a large bulge in his swimming shorts as he talked to me. He said he hopes I return the favor. I said yes I think that is where things are headed. He laid a towel over his lap and said show me. I reached into his shorts and felt a cock at least as big as the one I had sucked when I was dating my husband. It was full in my hand and so nice to touch. He said, “I know you want that.” He was right, but I wasn’t ready yet. I told him 100% for sure he will get a phone call. He saw my husband returning so he went back to his buddies. I put his number into my beach bag. We kept in touch and he would be the 3rd man I fucked after I became a hotwife.

One thing I realized doing this is that I LOVE the reaction I got from my husband. Teasing him was FUN, and it captivated his attention like nothing I had ever seen, I was the complete center of his world.. and of course it felt good for me too. I felt like an actress, like it wasn’t really me acting like a slut. I also realized that I don't have to pretend that I'm not attracted to a guy, I can act on it if I want, even if it's just playful flirtations for fun. This would totally change how I interact with other men. Each man who caught my eye could be a potential participant in a game of flirting, seducing and seeing how far I might want to take things, no need to look over my shoulder or worry about negative consequences if I'm "caught".. the very idea excited my husband and made him want me more.. it was a life changing revelation. With each positive experience, I was coming around to the idea of actually becoming an unfaithful wife.

[Cuckonthelook]

This is such a beautiful story

[AZPainter]

Cool way to open the door. Both with a new guy and possible lover but also to tease your husband a little treat and see how he reacted seeing other men touching you in a intimate and real intimate way with one of the three. Nice move! I can't wait to hear more from y'alls beginnings!

[mrs_hotwifecplsa]

Cool way to open the door. Both with a new guy and possible lover but also to tease your husband a little treat and see how he reacted seeing other men touching you in a intimate and real intimate way with one of the three. Nice move! I can't wait to hear more from y'alls beginnings!

Exactly the idea. It was so spontaneous yet perfect. In public too so nothing could go too far. Fortunately, not too many people were on the beach at the time, but enough to not do anything openly. A beach towel draped over was enough to hide any clandestine touching. Hubby wasn't expecting it! The fact that I didnt need any urging from him, i spontaneously found a willing participant and walked right up to him and engaged on that level really caught him by surprise. Really I had 2 separate "shows" going on at the same time: 1. testing, teasing and turning on my husband, and 2. seducing and manipulating a complete stranger to participate in my "game". The fun factor of the whole things was just off the scale, and I realized a certain "power" or influence I had over my husband and other men: pussy, but especially the prospect of a cheating wife, makes men lose their minds

[mrs_hotwifecplsa]

I was learning that I am enamored by an Alpha male asserting himself.. when i was dating the man who pushed my head onto his dick, who then drove away smiling as I re-joined my then fiance Tom, and above the man at the beach who took the initiative while his buddies looked on dumbfounded. I was seeing a clear difference in how certain men acted with a woman. I also was beginning to understand that I was drawn to that kind of man, almost like a weakness, and that the Alpha male is also drawn to a cheating wife. He can sense it, see it in a crowd, and he is the one with the balls to act on it when others are still debating if they should or not, and so he gets the prize. The very idea of that was turning me on.

[mrs_hotwifecplsa]

Apart from these teasings of my husband, i seriously wanted to know if my husband was sick in the head for wanting me to fuck other men, and if I'd made a mistake to marry him. I did some searches and found a lot to read about it. Mostly porn came up, but I found several serious sites talking about relationships, male psychology, single vs married, lifestyles, etc. Bottom line I discovered to my satisfaction that my husband wasn't crazy, and that his fantasy is the most common fantasy among married men.. not them cheating, but they get hottest at the idea of their WIFE cheating. This didn't match what I had known about men so far. Seems there a few "types" of men. Beyond dominant and submissive, there is the devoted provider who doesn't cheat. And the ones (single or married) who seek conquest. I was beginning to realize that sexually, my husband is one of the guys at the beach holding the towel for the Alpha male. But, he is a strong and devoted provider who has no interest in cheating. One night typical of our talks, I got on top of him. I wanted to know what he really felt inside, and I found our conversations were more spontaneous, open and honest when we were naked and horny. I told him that I love him forever, and he doesn't need to guard what he says to me. We had some talks about what happens "after". He said he has ZERO interest in cheating or being with other women. He said he got the woman of his dreams and he's good with that. i said but I feel that way too. He looked at me and said, Yes you love me forever, but we both know there is something that excites you, that you dream about when I'm eating your pussy. He was right. I said ok but what happens AFTER. He said what happens is I take you back with open arms and love you forever. i asked are you sure. He asked to tell him what I think about when he's eating me. I thought it's now or never.. I said remember the guy when we were dating. he said yes. I said i think about how he'd push my head down to his cock and keep it there till he cums in my mouth. Tom jumped in, "so he was using you for your mouth." I said yes, and I kept coming back for more, then I'd see you after because you were the man I really loved. He exploded into my pussy making those intense male sex grunting sounds, and struggling he said I love you. That took me to the edge too and I orgasmed until I fell on top of him.

[Bones]

This journey is absolutely fantastic!

[venus-can99]

What a wonderful narrative Maria. the way you took the initiative to test out hubby’s reaction and tolerance as well as your own power of seduction and enjoyment