Almost there, again, maybe..

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by elina » Thu Sep 12, 2024 4:29 am

Dear Mattyg

Thanks for sharing everything.
To me, witholding the details of Your Goddess spraying Her golden nectar over you, and your acceptance and emotions in receiving it is a highly significant milestone in how the Two of You are growing together.

I for one also truly appreciates the significance of Your Cuckoldress having communicated Her decision to gradually prolong your lock-up periods. I have myself been locked up (most of the time) and chaste (all of the time) for more than three months. I am currently 3 weeks into a new lockup and suspect this one will be much longer than the previous one.

It is well known in the communities of Dominant Ladies that keeping a male locked up makes him much more submissive and eager to serve and obey. If the male is released and allowed to cum, the process needs to start all over again and She will have to deal with a much more obstinate submissive for quite some time. So why allow him to cum if you can keep him locked up for longer.

Going back to Elise Sutton's famous website Female Superiority, which unfortunately is no longer available. She described a similar process where the Dominant Lady would gradually ween Her submissive off the desires to cum. In this process, the length between each release were gradually extended, but in a way making it impossible for the male to predict when he would be released next.... I guess the point was that not only would the submissive be released more and more rarely, he was also learning that his release was entirely based at his Dominants discretion.

Please keep us updated.
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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by avid fan » Thu Sep 12, 2024 5:11 am

mattyg_2671 wrote:
Wed Sep 11, 2024 2:34 pm

She pushed me back with her heel on my chest until I was lying face up, flat on my back in our walk in shower. With a high heel either side of my chest, she squatted down with her knees apart and told me to open my mouth. Of course I did. She then let out a huge stream of urine and pissed all over my face, in my mouth and all over my chest as I gazed at her open pussy. I can’t explain it but at that moment I felt really close to her. I told her later with no irony that I was very happy to have experienced something intimate with her that she has never done with anyone else. Yes, he has fucked and cum in her ass, and she’s been mouth fucked by him and swallowed his cum. But I have been pissed on by her. Sounds weird but I meant it.
I know where you're coming from... I've told my wife about my cuckold fantasies, and as a tangent to that the discussion has veered onto pee play...

I've told her how much I love the idea of her peeing on me; thus far it's only extended to her coming back from the toilet and wiping herself against my body (at my urging) but I'd love to slide down there and use my tongue instead... something about it feels extremely intimate, with elements of ownership (rubbing her scent on me)... and of course nasty in the best possible way!!

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by Aureus » Thu Sep 12, 2024 5:39 am

mattyg_2671 wrote:
Wed Sep 11, 2024 2:34 pm

She apparently told him that she thought it would be hot (and funny) to see me suck his cock, which was new to me. It seems they discussed all sorts of other stuff they want to do with me which she wouldn’t share with me.
Would you suck him? Spinning this further, would you be sissy trained / lose your anal virginity?

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by mattyg_2671 » Thu Sep 12, 2024 6:29 am

Aureus wrote:
Thu Sep 12, 2024 5:39 am
mattyg_2671 wrote:
Wed Sep 11, 2024 2:34 pm

She apparently told him that she thought it would be hot (and funny) to see me suck his cock, which was new to me. It seems they discussed all sorts of other stuff they want to do with me which she wouldn’t share with me.
Would you suck him? Spinning this further, would you be sissy trained / lose your anal virginity?
Would I suck him? Most likely if she ordered me too. In a submissive way, only for her/ them, I don’t have any desire to suck cocks generally! I don’t think he would ever want that though.

Would I be sissy trained? Not in a million years.

Lose my anal virginity? She has pegged me with a strap on, and probably will again. To a real cock, not in a million years!

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by trecital » Thu Sep 12, 2024 6:32 am

elina wrote:
Thu Sep 12, 2024 4:29 am


It is well known in the communities of Dominant Ladies......

........Going back to Elise Sutton's famous website Female Superiority......
You do know that Elise Sutton's writings are fiction..... don't you?

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by entropia » Wed Sep 25, 2024 7:34 am

Hi Mattyg!
How is the chastity going? we expect hot new stories from you!

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by mattyg_2671 » Fri Oct 18, 2024 2:26 pm

I haven’t posted in a while. Busy at work, life and she’s had a short break from seeing her BF. Things peaked big time this week.

She’s just come back from an intense 2 night, 3 day overseas trip with him that has completely blown her mind. She’s clearly now in a very deep sexual (no emotional) relationship with him that is beyond anything she’s ever experienced before.

Over their time away they had sex 9 times. That’s probably more than I’ve had with her in the last 5 years! They can’t get enough of each other.

They visited a swingers club, this is how she described the experience to me: she initially found it intimating but after a couple of glasses of wine they went to explore. They left their outer clothes in a locker, leaving her in a red/ black bustier, thong panties, black holdups and black fuck me heels. They went down to the basement area where they found a gynae chair. She lay back, put her feet in the stirrups and he rubbed her clit and fingered her with her legs held wide apart. People were milling around and there was a bit of action, some people watching but this seemed to give her confidence.

They found a semi open room with a bed and she knelt down to suck his cock while others watched. When he was hard, he lay her back and they fucked with her legs wrapped around him.

“There were people around, watching, some having sex, one woman was sucking a guy as she was fucked from behind. I felt so sexual, so wanton. I just wanted to be fucked hard. I grabbed his hand and put it to my neck, I wanted him to choke me, he didn’t do it hard enough so I pushed his hand harder around my throat. He pulled my top down and sucked on my nipples really hard, fuck it felt good. I told him I wanted him to fuck my ass but we forgot to bring lube. That’s one of my regrets, I REALLY wanted him in my ass. The other regret is that I wanted to suck another cock while he fucked me but there was no other candidates. I was so fucking horny with all those eyes on me, fucking in public, that I came SO hard. It was the best cum ever, multiple orgasms that seemed to last forever. I was so loud that everyone in the club saw and heard! I think in that moment, I would have fucked every guy in there given the chance. I’ve never felt so horny. When we got back to the hotel we were still so turned on that we fucked again and again.”

I’m having trouble reconciling the “good girl wife” I’ve known for 31 years with the woman she describes having sex in full view of an entire swingers club. It doesn’t make sense to me. She havIng a massive sexual awakening.

“It was the best sex of my life, possibly the best experience of my life. It was unbelievable. When we’re together there is a carnal need between us. I just need him inside me at all times. Mouth, pussy, ass. I don’t care as long as he’s inside me. I’ve never had that feeling before with anyone, even you.”

I asked if she wanted me inside her.

“No. Not even a little bit, not at all. Sorry but that’s the truth. When I think about sex, I think about him, no one else. It’s not an emotional thing. I love you more than I’ll ever love anyone. But for sex, I don’t want you inside me at all. Not going to happen. I can’t imagine it, don’t want it. I can’t conceive of ever going back to having sex with you again. I need you to see me with him, then you’ll understand the animal attraction between us, see the carnal desire between us and the fucking mind blowing sex we have. It’s WAY beyond anything anything I have ever imagined is possible.”

We spoke about how that might happen. I’ll join them in a hotel room and watch them together or he would come to our house. Either way she said I need to be very mentally prepared to see her like never before and for how she intends to treat me like the sexual submissive that I am. If it’s at our house she would make me cook them steaks for dinner and serve them while eating salad from a dog bowl on the floor. Whether at home or at a hotel I should expect to be in my chastity cage, be silent, follow orders and basically be ignored while they devour each other. She’ll simply say “go” and that will be my signal to leave, close the door behind me and give them their personal time together. I’ll have to wait until later to remove my cage and hump her leg or jerk-off on her feet. But absolutely no chance of putting my dick inside any of her holes ever again, she said, laughing as she rubbed my very hard dick through my jeans.

I know she says some things to tease me without really meaning it, so I asked her if this is one of those times. She got serious, still rubbing my dick. “Let’s get this straight. I love you very much. But now I know what incredible sex it, I don’t want you inside me ever again. I need you to understand that and accept it. You’re not a good fuck and I don’t enjoy it with you. It’s never happening again. We’ll lock up your little dick most of the time, and occasionally, when you’ve been a good boy, I might unlock you and give you a reward. But you know I just love to see you horny and frustrated so your orgasms will be very rare! Are we clear?” I was humping against her hand as I nodded acceptance, mind numbed with arousal.

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by venus-can99 » Fri Oct 18, 2024 8:28 pm

Thanks for this update where she made it clear what she wants sexually and is determined to get it. IMO your relationship is secure otherwise I don’t believe she would be so clear about her wants and needs sexually

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by mattyg_2671 » Fri Oct 18, 2024 8:53 pm

I agree, she made it very clear that she loves what we have, the deep emotional connection and the love. But what she has with him (she recognises) is just a mutual raw, animalistic, sexual attraction or infatuation that has a finite timescale because it is so hot that it will burn out at some point. She sees it in his eyes when he looks at her, a sexual hunger for her that makes her feel very desired. When they’re out together it’s like they’re desperate to get back to the hotel to fuck again. They agree that they’re having the best sex of their lives with each other.

It’s very frustrating because I want to fuck her so much, I’d love to feel my cock inside her pussy and her legs around my waist while I suck on her nipples but it’s not going to happen.

Forgot to mention that the other new thing this week was that she licked his asshole and put a finger in there. He’s always been a “definite no” to that, but she said he seemed to like it!

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by trecital » Sat Oct 19, 2024 1:23 am

mattyg_2671 wrote:
Fri Oct 18, 2024 8:53 pm
It’s very frustrating because I want to fuck her so much, I’d love to feel my cock inside her pussy and her legs around my waist while I suck on her nipples but it’s not going to happen.
You could try a male masturbator toy, like a Fleshlight or equivalent.

They can provide a surprisingly good substitute for real pussy.

Well, that's what I've read elsewhere...... :oops:

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by elina » Sat Oct 19, 2024 1:38 am

mattyg_2671 wrote:
Fri Oct 18, 2024 8:53 pm
.......

It’s very frustrating because I want to fuck her so much, I’d love to feel my cock inside her pussy and her legs around my waist while I suck on her nipples but it’s not going to happen.

.......
I think one of the key insights for a Dominant Lady who wants to keep stringing Her submissive around Her little finger is that "Men want what they cannot have".

The fact that you have been denied by your Wife/Mistress/Cuckoldress for so long makes you more and more desperate; and eager to please HER.

Wonderful isn`t it?

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by entropia » Sun Oct 20, 2024 11:02 am

Still the hottest thread in this site. Thanks for the update Mattyg, hope to have next update soon, and I hope that your path goes even further.

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by Tambourlaine » Mon Oct 21, 2024 8:48 am

Thats it, Champ,
…you got miles to go before you sleep..
Longfellow

Keep going man

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by Tambourlaine » Mon Oct 21, 2024 8:48 am

Thats it, Champ,
…you got miles to go before you sleep..
Longfellow

Keep going man

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by avid fan » Tue Oct 22, 2024 2:42 am

We spoke about how that might happen. I’ll join them in a hotel room and watch them together or he would come to our house. Either way she said I need to be very mentally prepared to see her like never before and for how she intends to treat me like the sexual submissive that I am

Fun times ahead!!! I imagine he might feel more comfortable at a hotel, but think of the much greater scope for fun at home!!!

Either way, hope you've reiterated that you'd do anything she asks for the pleasure of witnessing them.

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by trecital » Tue Oct 22, 2024 3:05 am

mattyg_2671 wrote:
Fri Oct 18, 2024 2:26 pm
or he would come to our house.
The 'at your house' option is the more powerful one.
The hotel option is more about you being on neutral ground.
At your house, when she fucks him/he fucks her, on your side of the bed, that's when it will truly hit home that he has replaced you.
Then, when she dismisses you, and tells you to go sleep elsewhere, with your tail between your legs, and him watching you leave the room...... That will really reinforce the message.

Tell her that you want her to bring him home and got them to fuck in your marital bed.

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by mattyg_2671 » Thu Oct 24, 2024 3:03 pm

I have been invited to join them at a hotel on Tuesday. Well, it wasn’t really an invitation, it was an instruction from him via WhatsApp to provide a chauffeur service for them to the hotel (from the train station), and to remain in the adjoining room of the hotel suite to be their concierge when required, with a list of duties attached.

Duties include;

Silently listening and watching my wife get the fucking of her life
Providing refreshments on demand.
Bringing lube, sex toys, butt plug, bondage gear etc into the room when required
Licking sex toys clean after he has used them with my wife
When they have finished, clean the bedsheets of cum and pussy juice with my tongue
Leaving promptly when my services are no longer required

I am required to provide a bell for them to ring when my services are required so they don’t have to call my name!

He has warned that if I am not exemplary in performing my duties, there will be consequences (don’t know what these would be!).

My wife thought the message was hilarious, especially the bell idea. Apparently they have been sharing with each other how surprised they are that this scenario is turning them on, she told him it would be hot to see him dominating me, and me submitting and being humiliated by him.

“I hope you’re ready to see it. I think you’ll be shocked at the sex between us. You’ll understand your place when you see how much I love his cock and what it does to me. Your little dick is going to look tiny in comparison, especially in the cage. I might get you to show him so we can compare.”

He’s told her he wants her to wear her sexy French maid outfit with stockings, heels and the collar and leash, because he knows it’s my favourite. She wants me in the chastity cage at least 2 days before and at least 2 days after, until I will be released (if I’ve been good) to jerk off on her feet.

I’m looking forward to it, it’s going to be quite an experience, but at the same time I’m nervous and anxious. She’s warned me that they’ll enjoy pushing my limits and humiliating me, there might be a few surprises when they get together and encourage each other to raise the stakes. It’s something I have been fantasising about for years…

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by Tambourlaine » Thu Oct 24, 2024 5:15 pm

Dear Mattyg, very hot. I remember you told us your amazing Wife wants to make love to your best friend. My wife has seduced my best friend and they made love each time they Met for years, for me it’s the experience of my marriaged life. I would very much love to see you make this Happen, too, …hope it might be a climax for all of you
All the best

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by elina » Thu Oct 24, 2024 10:39 pm

Dear Mattyg

This looks very exiting,
In particular since you have been fantasizing about this for years.
I suspect that Your Mistress knows this and that this will also make it easier for Her to truly relax and enjoy the combined effects of being fully satisfied by Her Lover while experiencing you accepting an even more submissive position in the relationship.

I hope all of your dreams will come through.

Sincere regards
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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by wannabecUKold » Fri Oct 25, 2024 12:54 am

mattyg_2671 wrote:
Thu Sep 12, 2024 6:29 am

Would I be sissy trained? Not in a million years.

Lose my anal virginity? She has pegged me with a strap on, and probably will again. To a real cock, not in a million years!
Looks like you’re being sissy trained now. A million years gone in a few weeks.

Now for your bum. Start practising. You’ll love it. Especially in front of your wife.

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by mattyg_2671 » Fri Oct 25, 2024 4:23 am

wannabecUKold wrote:
Fri Oct 25, 2024 12:54 am
mattyg_2671 wrote:
Thu Sep 12, 2024 6:29 am

Would I be sissy trained? Not in a million years.

Lose my anal virginity? She has pegged me with a strap on, and probably will again. To a real cock, not in a million years!
Looks like you’re being sissy trained now. A million years gone in a few weeks.

Now for your bum. Start practising. You’ll love it. Especially in front of your wife.
Sorry to disappoint, but that’s not going to happen.

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by coastalkid » Fri Oct 25, 2024 9:52 am

mattyg_2671 wrote:
Fri Oct 18, 2024 2:26 pm
..... That’s probably more than I’ve had with her in the last 5 years! They can’t get enough of each other.......

..... I’m having trouble reconciling the “good girl wife” I’ve known for 31 years with the woman she describes having sex in full view of an entire swingers club. It doesn’t make sense to me. She havIng a massive sexual awakening. ........

......I asked if she wanted me inside her.

“No. Not even a little bit, not at all. Sorry but that’s the truth. When I think about sex, I think about him, no one else. It’s not an emotional thing. I love you more than I’ll ever love anyone. But for sex, I don’t want you inside me at all. Not going to happen. I can’t imagine it, don’t want it. I can’t conceive of ever going back to having sex with you again. I need you to see me with him, then you’ll understand the animal attraction between us, see the carnal desire between us and the fucking mind blowing sex we have. It’s WAY beyond anything anything I have ever imagined is possible.”

...... But absolutely no chance of putting my dick inside any of her holes ever again, she said, laughing as she rubbed my very hard dick through my jeans.

I know she says some things to tease me without really meaning it, so I asked her if this is one of those times. She got serious, still rubbing my dick. “Let’s get this straight. I love you very much. But now I know what incredible sex it, I don’t want you inside me ever again. I need you to understand that and accept it. You’re not a good fuck and I don’t enjoy it with you. It’s never happening again. We’ll lock up your little dick most of the time, and occasionally, when you’ve been a good boy, I might unlock you and give you a reward. But you know I just love to see you horny and frustrated so your orgasms will be very rare! Are we clear?” I was humping against her hand as I nodded acceptance, mind numbed with arousal.
I'd like to know what your deepest personal feelings are about "NEVER AGAIN"?

This concept of permanent denial has always been a stumbling block for me. I get that people get their thrills in all kinds of ways. I'm biased because of my own feelings of not ever having enough sex my entire life. I've never said to myself, "Yeah, I'm good on sex for now. I don't need it." Please don't assume I am judging you and your desire(s), I'm not.

My lack of understanding is the issue, not you. I'm hoping you can give me more insight as to how you are satisfied and how you are affected by the entirety of your situation (ie does it change you outside of sex, or if you see yourself differently).

One of the many things I struggle to understand about denial is what happens when you are denied for so long that you have accepted that? Is it still a thrill? Is it that potent of a restriction? Once it becomes an accepted fact and you no longer even think to request it doesn't that kind of kill the buzz? Once your wife knows she will not have to consider any request for sex from you and your denial is uncontested is that something she can build from? Will she move on from there to a "new" restriction and start the cycle over again? At some point the process seems like it becomes the "new routine", but nonetheless still a routine that becomes predictable, expected, and lacking a sense of "newness". Do you see yourself possibly becoming ambivalent about your position because of the routine?

I truly am being sincere in my curiosity. If you were to come up with your own perfect scenario what would that be?
Hope is not a strategy but it's still good to have! Especially if you don't have a strategy!
I get my denial the old fashion way, I married vanilla!

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by mattyg_2671 » Fri Oct 25, 2024 4:18 pm

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I truly am being sincere in my curiosity. If you were to come up with your own perfect scenario what would that be?
Hi Coastalkid. Thanks for the questions. I totally get where you’re coming from and why you’re asking, I guess it seems strange.

But I’m probably like most cucks maybe, an emotional masochist. I don’t want to want it, but I want it nevertheless. Crave it in fact, it’s like a drug to me.

Firstly I want to explain that since we started this adventure and she had sex with someone else for the first time in January, we’ve had more sexual contact with each other than in the previous 20 years. OK it’s not been penetrative sex, but it’s still sexual contact. So the first thing to understand is that she has totally rediscovered sex, and i am a beneficiary of that. She is much more body confident, MUCH more adventurous and open to trying almost anything sexually. She has said that if it wasn’t for STDs she would be a complete slut! I can’t overstate what a change this has been in her over the last few months.

Secondly, neither of us want a sexless marriage where we have no interest in sexual contact with each other. Even if that’s limited to hand jobs, using toys, pussy licking, teasing or me jerking off with her. Again, none of this happened before, but now we are very affectionate and physical with each other. For example, when we are watching TV she will often suddenly come and straddle me and start to tease me by rubbing her pussy on my groin or stroke my dick. That never happened before.

I would certainly feel differently if there was none of this to go along with the PIV denial, but the denial combined with the teasing it is incredibly intense and a massive turn on. That’s the key thing.

Now, I’m not going to lie, there might be short periods where if I think too deeply or if I’m having a bad day I might get a bit sullen about it. That’s the only time it affects me outside of sex, and it’s only for short moments. She can snap me straight out of it with a few well chosen teasing words and a rub of my dick. I think it must be like a sex version of crack cocaine for me.

I don’t feel any different about myself at all.

As for the “never again” permanent denial, I would say I’m probably in denial about it, excuse the pun. She is very convincing with the talk, and maybe she means what she says right now. But at some point surely she’s going to let me have sex with her again right? Maybe that’s why I’m not ambivalent, and why it has not lost the potency for me, because I’ve not accepted it yet and I still have hope. Maybe I’ll say the same in 20 years when I’m still being denied, who knows!

Finally, I still find her sexy as hell even after 30 years together. I find myself gazing at her legs, ass, feet or her face when we’re together, so even if I get to watch her have sex, or jerk off at her feet, or live my sex life vicariously through her, it’s still massively, intensely erotic. And of course the fact that I’m living out my cuckold fantasy of many years with the woman of my dreams helps! I mean, she has totally embraced it and run with it, she’s incredible.

If I asked her to stop now, she definitely would do so, even though she would be disappointed. And we’d probably go back to an almost sexless marriage with no sexual contact between us. Surely the current situation has got to be better and is infinitely more exciting!

One of my favourite short pieces of writing is “Z’s Decision” (Literotica) by Z and Larson. It had a powerful effect on me the first time I read it and it still does. (I’d be interested to know what you think if you read it). In fact it’s a shame they only have a few stories because they’re all really good. The difference between Larson and my situation is that my wife told me well after the event that I was not going to be having sex with her again. I wish that I had known in advance. I would have truly savoured it and seared the memory into my mind. It would have been gut wrenching, scary, humiliating and so mind-blowingly intense that I probably would have lasted seconds!

Right now I’m close to my perfect scenario. Especially with that forthcoming events of Tuesday night, first time watching them together. That could take it to another level because her FB seems to be really getting into the idea of being dominant with me. The required bell arrived from Amazon today and my wife has been trying it our to summon me, much to her amusement.

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by trecital » Fri Oct 25, 2024 6:03 pm

Yes, the Larson and Z stories. Not that many of them, but all as hot as fuck!
I know where you're coming from.
And just because he's being denied sex with his wife, doesn't mean he's going to be sexless. Far from it.
It's just sex of a different flavour.

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Re: Almost there, again, maybe..

Unread post by coastalkid » Fri Oct 25, 2024 6:45 pm

mattyg_2671 wrote:
Fri Oct 25, 2024 4:18 pm
coastalkid wrote:
Fri Oct 25, 2024 9:52 am

I truly am being sincere in my curiosity. If you were to come up with your own perfect scenario what would that be?
Hi Coastalkid. Thanks for the questions. I totally get where you’re coming from and why you’re asking, I guess it seems strange.

But I’m probably like most cucks maybe, an emotional masochist. I don’t want to want it, but I want it nevertheless. Crave it in fact, it’s like a drug to me.

Firstly I want to explain that since we started this adventure and she had sex with someone else for the first time in January, we’ve had more sexual contact with each other than in the previous 20 years. OK it’s not been penetrative sex, but it’s still sexual contact. So the first thing to understand is that she has totally rediscovered sex, and i am a beneficiary of that. She is much more body confident, MUCH more adventurous and open to trying almost anything sexually. She has said that if it wasn’t for STDs she would be a complete slut! I can’t overstate what a change this has been in her over the last few months.

Secondly, neither of us want a sexless marriage where we have no interest in sexual contact with each other. Even if that’s limited to hand jobs, using toys, pussy licking, teasing or me jerking off with her. Again, none of this happened before, but now we are very affectionate and physical with each other. For example, when we are watching TV she will often suddenly come and straddle me and start to tease me by rubbing her pussy on my groin or stroke my dick. That never happened before.

I would certainly feel differently if there was none of this to go along with the PIV denial, but the denial combined with the teasing it is incredibly intense and a massive turn on. That’s the key thing.

Now, I’m not going to lie, there might be short periods where if I think too deeply or if I’m having a bad day I might get a bit sullen about it. That’s the only time it affects me outside of sex, and it’s only for short moments. She can snap me straight out of it with a few well chosen teasing words and a rub of my dick. I think it must be like a sex version of crack cocaine for me.

I don’t feel any different about myself at all.

As for the “never again” permanent denial, I would say I’m probably in denial about it, excuse the pun. She is very convincing with the talk, and maybe she means what she says right now. But at some point surely she’s going to let me have sex with her again right? Maybe that’s why I’m not ambivalent, and why it has not lost the potency for me, because I’ve not accepted it yet and I still have hope. Maybe I’ll say the same in 20 years when I’m still being denied, who knows!

Finally, I still find her sexy as hell even after 30 years together. I find myself gazing at her legs, ass, feet or her face when we’re together, so even if I get to watch her have sex, or jerk off at her feet, or live my sex life vicariously through her, it’s still massively, intensely erotic. And of course the fact that I’m living out my cuckold fantasy of many years with the woman of my dreams helps! I mean, she has totally embraced it and run with it, she’s incredible.

If I asked her to stop now, she definitely would do so, even though she would be disappointed. And we’d probably go back to an almost sexless marriage with no sexual contact between us. Surely the current situation has got to be better and is infinitely more exciting!

One of my favourite short pieces of writing is “Z’s Decision” (Literotica) by Z and Larson. It had a powerful effect on me the first time I read it and it still does. (I’d be interested to know what you think if you read it). In fact it’s a shame they only have a few stories because they’re all really good. The difference between Larson and my situation is that my wife told me well after the event that I was not going to be having sex with her again. I wish that I had known in advance. I would have truly savoured it and seared the memory into my mind. It would have been gut wrenching, scary, humiliating and so mind-blowingly intense that I probably would have lasted seconds!

Right now I’m close to my perfect scenario. Especially with that forthcoming events of Tuesday night, first time watching them together. That could take it to another level because her FB seems to be really getting into the idea of being dominant with me. The required bell arrived from Amazon today and my wife has been trying it our to summon me, much to her amusement.
Thanks for you reply. I am truly curious as to all the different shapes and forms of how couples do what they do. My questions are always from my heart and I try my best to set aside my personal bias(es). As open minded as I'd like to be I know that is an impossibility. Thank you for indulging my honest and naive curiosity.

From reading this post I glossed over the dates, been. together 30 years, had more sexual contact in the last 9 months than the previous 20 years. I'd say this is all still relatively new to you given the time span of your whole relationship. The way you describe your attraction makes me think that some husbands of hot wives and cuckolds have their own sort of NRE. You commonly associate NRE with wives and how they can attribute their infatuation to it. Since your getting more sexual attention than before (or possibly ever) this seems great to you, why mess it up, right? Hence your own form of NRE.

I just can't get my mind to grasp the "no PIV" and the implied (or not) threat of "never again". I know that's my issue for not understanding. I hear myself saying, "I could never do that, but what if was like this guy here? What if things were exciting again? What if I got freaked out and couldn't handle it?" That's me projecting my thoughts over your situation. I've been married 46 years and I still don't feel like I've had as much sex as I want. I can see how more or less trading one thing (the old days of little or no sex and certainly not exciting) for another (Ok, so no PIV but lots more activity and lots more excitement) would be welcome. I'd really like hear a wife that truly loves her husband say why he doesn't deserve an incredible experience like she's having?

My trouble with denial is I believe if both people don't get something out of it then I can't see it working. Now, maybe even with that one particular denial you still get enough to be satisfied. That still means you're getting something and not less. I've read here and other places plenty of times where everything got too one-sided and interests got lost on the other side. As long as you can say you're having fun and you're not in fear of losing your relationship, then you're fine! You'll know when your sullen days don't pass as easily or quickly.

No judgements here and nothing more than my naive impressions.
Hope is not a strategy but it's still good to have! Especially if you don't have a strategy!
I get my denial the old fashion way, I married vanilla!

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