Wife shocks me with BBC...Ch.2.Admits to more

[PaNic]

Exciting development!

Great to hear you both having fun with the idea, and the open way you’re communicating and testing yourself and each other bodes well for your relationship however the story unfolds. I’m really enjoying reading this!

[BBCfan]

Exciting development!

Great to hear you both having fun with the idea, and the open way you’re communicating and testing yourself and each other bodes well for your relationship however the story unfolds. I’m really enjoying reading this!

Thank you for the kind words and support. So pleased to know you enjoy my "dear wannabe hotwife diary" posts.

[BBCfan]

Unfortunately not much new to report on.
Family responsibility has really taken up a lot of time for both of us, times we do connect passionately, which hasn't been often, I'm certainly not gonna push anything unless she initiates.

I did tell her I really enjoy using the sleeve on her and seeing how much the size gets her off.
She was okay with me doing that but had asked that I do it after I had finished and recovered as she worried she might not feel tight enough for me after using the sleeve as she might be stretched and so wet from the arousal.

I assured her that going in after the big dick sleeve was so arousing for me that if she was any tighter I wouldn't be able to last a minute.

Seemed to lessen her trepidation about it and she seeemed more open the experience more often.  Unfortunately with our busy schedules I have not been able to put it into practice.

On a surprising note she mentioned a few weeks ago that she was in touch with Jeffrey and he had reached out, But more just on a business matter.

She said when he reached out to her she replied by saying "how's Mr.footlong"?
He laughed and she asked "isn't that how big you are?"
He didn't give her a definitive answer but she said she was doing it to try to tease me. Which of course it indeed did, but she was hoping an answer would excite me by knowing his exact size. She is right but just her flirting  is still insanely  arousing to think about.

She also teased me yesterday as I was away on business and she said she was heading over to his place.
I' of course didn't buy it and she was teasing, but it was still hot that she brought it up and thought to tease me.

She then asked me "what if she really was going there, what would I do?"
I responded I wouldn't be able to stop stroking all night in my hotel room imagining what was happening.

The ball is in her court so who knows as the possibility is there I think if he did make a strong play For Her .

[elina]

Thanks for the update,

At least your Wife is toying with the idea .....

Please keep us posted...

Sincerely
elina

[Shiphead]

Posts that follow that storyline or path, usually lead me to believe that the wife intends to go through with meeting the prospective gentleman on the date she/ they give and then are making one last check with her husband that he says go for it.
It often appears that she probably proceeded to meet up and then either doesn't share that with her husband. It is usually said that it is up to her and she can do with the information as she chooses.
It may be hard to share with husband right away. It's not easy to completely change the dynamics of a long time relationship and say "oh BTW, I fucked that guy the other night while you were gone". It's the same reason that most wives take so long to admit they want to try some new cock. We all have a preconceived idea of what the answer should be.

[BBCfan]

Posts that follow that storyline or path, usually lead me to believe that the wife intends to go through with meeting the prospective gentleman on the date she/ they give and then are making one last check with her husband that he says go for it.
It often appears that she probably proceeded to meet up and then either doesn't share that with her husband. It is usually said that it is up to her and she can do with the information as she chooses.
It may be hard to share with husband right away. It's not easy to completely change the dynamics of a long time relationship and say "oh BTW, I fucked that guy the other night while you were gone". It's the same reason that most wives take so long to admit they want to try some new cock. We all have a preconceived idea of what the answer should be.

That is a very exciting theory.
The last time we were intimate I thought she felt a little stretched out and was actually pondering that fantasy while we were having intercourse.

I do know how busy she is with family and work so seems very unlikely that she would have had time.
If he did invite her out for dinner and woo her a bit, I'm pretty sure it would  happen.

If it has happened and she's getting some secret pleasure, I would be totally supportive and thrilled for her.  I can't be there as much as I'd like so I would be very glad she's having some great intense pleasure and release at this stressful time.

I agree with what you say though, as I could totally see her doing that. As much as she always says she would be honest and tell me I could  see it being just a safe secret thing for a while for her to thoroughly enjoy without having to worry about my input.

Although a low percentage probability very exciting to consider.

[BBCfan]

Thanks for the update,

At least your Wife is toying with the idea .....

Please keep us posted...

Sincerely
elina

Thank you!

Seems very likely she is toying with the idea but I wish she would share more if she is.

I also understand why she'd not want to encourage me and likely do it without me knowing initially as the other reply suggested.

So maybe she already has!

[BBCfan]

As I previously mentioned. We've been apart a lot due to family circumstances.
I know she talks to Jeffrey pretty regularly now, but she says no flirting lately.

The last few weeks we've had more time together.
We had talked about having some roleplay/hot talk fun, but I was waiting for her to initiate.

She did a few days ago after setting the mood and relaxing with some wine she started sharing while I was fucking her.
The scenario was me being in her then Jeffrey enters and and we do and DVP session on her.
She added some hot details with him Nutting inside and me feeling him explode and his large load coats my shaft inside her as he floods her pussy.
Hearing her say it made me have to stop pumping for a few moments as the excitement made me quickly close to emptying my load.

Anything is exciting to hear her say but I realize she is trying to think of things I might find exciting for my arousal and sensations on my dick.

When talking the next day I explained the concept of compersion that I learned from posters out here. Although her playfulness was awesome, I mentioned I was most interested in hearing how she'd feel if he was really entering her again for the first time in years.
What the sensation would be like being filled deeply again. What would her honest emotions and sensations might be. What she might want to share with me in the moment or even if I wasn't there and she was alone with him.

I mentioned although what she shared was insanely hot, me interacting directly was less interesting to me as I want it all to be about her pleasure with my activity secondary to her getting to experience being filled again in a way I just can't.

She shared she honestly would initially be a bit scared as she knows it likely would be  uncomfortable to take his massive size again for first time in years until she got used to it.

I said what about all the pleasurable moments. He was a FWB for 15+ years so there must have been lots of exciting bits to share.
I think this idea seems harder for her as she is likely unsure how I'll react so perhaps nervous to open up.

Needless to say after the fantasy door being opened again by her I'm aroused almost constantly.
I'm gonna work to set the right mood again and see what she'll be inspired to share.

I know not a super exciting update but at this point I'll take what I can as a wannabe.

[Long Lurker 34]

As I previously mentioned. We've been apart a lot due to family circumstances.
I know she talks to Jeffrey pretty regularly now, but she says no flirting lately.

The last few weeks we've had more time together.
We had talked about having some roleplay/hot talk fun, but I was waiting for her to initiate.

She did a few days ago after setting the mood and relaxing with some wine she started sharing while I was fucking her.
The scenario was me being in her then Jeffrey enters and and we do and DVP session on her.
She added some hot details with him Nutting inside and me feeling him explode and his large load coats my shaft inside her as he floods her pussy.
Hearing her say it made me have to stop pumping for a few moments as the excitement made me quickly close to emptying my load.

Anything is exciting to hear her say but I realize she is trying to think of things I might find exciting for my arousal and sensations on my dick.

When talking the next day I explained the concept of compersion that I learned from posters out here. Although her playfulness was awesome, I mentioned I was most interested in hearing how she'd feel if he was really entering her again for the first time in years.
What the sensation would be like being filled deeply again. What would her honest emotions and sensations might be. What she might want to share with me in the moment or even if I wasn't there and she was alone with him.

I mentioned although what she shared was insanely hot, me interacting directly was less interesting to me as I want it all to be about her pleasure with my activity secondary to her getting to experience being filled again in a way I just can't.

She shared she honestly would initially be a bit scared as she knows it likely would be  uncomfortable to take his massive size again for first time in years until she got used to it.

I said what about all the pleasurable moments. He was a FWB for 15+ years so there must have been lots of exciting bits to share.
I think this idea seems harder for her as she is likely unsure how I'll react so perhaps nervous to open up.

Needless to say after the fantasy door being opened again by her I'm aroused almost constantly.
I'm gonna work to set the right mood again and see what she'll be inspired to share.

I know not a super exciting update but at this point I'll take what I can as a wannabe.

BBCF - I would that's quite nice step on your journey and who knows how fast events might turn.

[BBCfan]

Thanks for your feedback!
Haha...it seems I'm stuck in wannabe purgatory but it's not so bad when she teases me and roleplays.

I have lost a lot of weight this year trying to inspire her to do the same, as I know it will make her feel more sexy and perhaps open to Jeffrey's advances should they arise again.

She has somewhat started so hopefully she continues to move that direction.

[BBCfan]

So I have mentioned before that when my wife orgasms she likes to go into a blissful sleep.

I often will be very horny and she'll let me finish and then go off to sleep but Yesterday before leaving on a business trip for a bit, She had a really deep orgasm and When she said do you want to finish, I just said no I have to go pee and gently excused myself and off to sleep she went.

Didn't even mention needing an orgasm and let her sleep while I did a few chores around the house.
After I arrived at my hotel last night, I sent her a message saying how exciting it was to have her orgasm and go into a peaceful sleep and that it was so satisfying and fulfilling for me.

The other part is I am super horny and edged myself last night for an hour and will do so again soon.
I guess it is a form of orgasm denial but for me it's more just feeling satisfied by the compersion of her pleasure.

[BBCfan]

Still residing in wannabe purgatory forever it seems.
We are going to a party tonight for one of her friends and there's a chance horse hung Jeffrey could be there.
I was hoping she would say I don't have to attend so I could stay home and wonder if he might be there and might make a play on her.
It would be interesting to meet him. Wonder how I'll feel if I do.
In a fantasy scenario we talk and I let him know that I was aware when he reached out to her last year and encouraged her to reconnect, and that he should have pursued it more as I think she'd be very tempted, especially having my support.

Ahhh.. to dream a wannabe dream!

[elina]

Thanks,

Please don't keep us hanging.

How did the party go?
Did you meet any interesting people?

BR
elina

[BBCfan]

Thanks,

Please don't keep us hanging.

How did the party go?
Did you meet any interesting people?

BR
elina

Well actually I didn't go. It's all her friends so I said I'd drop her off and pick her up after and she agreed. After dropping her off I got quite arousing thinking she might say I don't need a ride home, Jeffrey said he'll give me a ride.

He wasn't there, and she didn't tell me anything about any other guys flirting, so unfortunately nothing exciting to share.

I did tell her how aroused I got thinking he might be there and offer to give her a ride.
She said next time she'll tease me about that if she gets a chance.

[BBCfan]

So I have continued to not bring things up and let her initiate. A couple weeks ago during an intimate session, I was in particularly good form and lasting pretty long.
She surprised me and all of a sudden brought up me watching her take a BBC again and if I really wanted to see it and perhaps she would surprise me for my birthday.

Of course it made me nut quite quickly. I made a joke after saying she knows exactly what to say when she is ready to finish things and go to sleep.
We had a shared laugh and I knew she was just talking. It wasn't reality based hot talk.

Last night we were both a bit loose and I asked if she ever fantasized about taking a big dick again when she masturbates or if it aroused her and makes her more curious to entertain the idea when she teases me, especially knowing she has a green light from me.

She said she really only fantasized about me and that she enjoys how it turns me on and seeing how she can affect me but that is all. She only desires monogamy.

She's a good sport but I realize that I will likely always be a wannabe.
I told her that I'm okay with that, As I'd never want her to do it if she wasn't a 100% on board... and that the fantasy is fun and Perhaps it's just as well, As who knows how such a reality would go.

Of course there's a sense of disappointment but also I think it's great that I can at least Have fun fantasy play.
I know this is never what anybody on here wants to hear, but it looks like Me thinking it was possible was just wishful thinking.

[PaNic]

Yes it’s great she’s up for sharing your fantasy and teasing you with it. And remember, however sure she is of being monogamous, you have planted the seeds of possibility in her mind. You never know what might change in the future…

[BBCfan]

Yes it’s great she’s up for sharing your fantasy and teasing you with it. And remember, however sure she is of being monogamous, you have planted the seeds of possibility in her mind. You never know what might change in the future…

Yes, that's true of course. I guess it felt very real and close a year or so ago.
Truly thought she likely fantasized about it on some level once in a while.

I did stress to her that I'll likely never change and always have this kink, so I do need some outlet at times.

She agreed, so at least nice to know she is willing to work with it somewhat.

[BBCfan]

So it was my birthday recently and she asked if there was anything I wanted.
I replied" just you and Jeffrey surprising me with a front row seat to the action". It was an opportunity  for me to bring it up in a playful way I couldn't resist, especially after she had teased me about that a bit before.

On my b day she joked he was upstairs waiting.

We had a quickie today  and she went quickly to asking me if I thought she was wet enough to take him. She certainly was.
She then asked me to guide him in for her and added something I hadn't heard before.
She asked if I would hold her hand while she takes him again.

That was actually very hot to hear. She also said she wants his big dick again, which she usually resists saying. When I heard that it was over. I nutted immediately and she giggled.

[elina]

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That was actually very hot to hear. She also said she wants his big dick again, which she usually resists saying. When I heard that it was over. I nutted immediately and she giggled.

So I guess that giggle sent you deep down into submissive wonderland with a desire to love and please your wonderful Cuckoldress even more?

Sincerely
elina

[coastalkid]

Wow! I just read this start to finish and just wow!

First off, your wife is really, really smart! That whole fake cuck event and all the tests along the way shows she's well aware of every aspect of your kinky mind, your insecurities, your tendencies and your emotions. I think she knows first hand how this could change things and I don't think she wants the risk of making a mistake or that despite your best efforts are ready for the reality of her having easy access to porn quality fucking as often as she wants.

She knows how good it was once. She has true experience to draw from. She knows what his cock did to her and how it made her behave. It may be that she doesn't trust herself to not get carried away with her freedom. She knows that would fuck things up if she did. You have the blessing and burden of having a super smart wife. She has her experience to fuel your cuckold kink and feed it to you in safe little bits. She knows it works with you.

The part when you came to the realization with the sleeve is the kind of stuff that builds my insecurity. When you witnessed that she responds significantly different with the sleeve on and that you alone can't get her to respond like that, that shot right through my heart. That just reinforces that Jeffrey was the best fuck of her life. He's literally touched places in your wife that you physically can't. It would be hard to not dwell on the fact that you've always been second best at best.

I get the feeling your wife is aware of all the dynamics swirling around, the potential consequences and drawing from her own experience to protect you. I give your wife a whole lot of credit. She could be right back at it if she wanted to. I'm sure she has really good reasons for resisting the idea.

[BBCfan]

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That was actually very hot to hear. She also said she wants his big dick again, which she usually resists saying. When I heard that it was over. I nutted immediately and she giggled.

So I guess that giggle sent you deep down into submissive wonderland with a desire to love and please your wonderful Cuckoldress even more?

Sincerely
elina

Yes!
She has shared before that she really enjoys being able to make a guy finish quickly from her feeling too good to last.
Supposedly most of these big boys have a problem in the past with some women being able to handle them so they could enjoy a good hard pounding. The fact she could accommodate them and induce them to finish quickly was a source of pride.

I can see she gets the same thrill from being able to make me come with just a few words.
Very hot.
Thanks for your supportive words.

[BBCfan]

Wow! I just read this start to finish and just wow!

First off, your wife is really, really smart! That whole fake cuck event and all the tests along the way shows she's well aware of every aspect of your kinky mind, your insecurities, your tendencies and your emotions. I think she knows first hand how this could change things and I don't think she wants the risk of making a mistake or that despite your best efforts are ready for the reality of her having easy access to porn quality fucking as often as she wants.

She knows how good it was once. She has true experience to draw from. She knows what his cock did to her and how it made her behave. It may be that she doesn't trust herself to not get carried away with her freedom. She knows that would fuck things up if she did. You have the blessing and burden of having a super smart wife. She has her experience to fuel your cuckold kink and feed it to you in safe little bits. She knows it works with you.

The part when you came to the realization with the sleeve is the kind of stuff that builds my insecurity. When you witnessed that she responds significantly different with the sleeve on and that you alone can't get her to respond like that, that shot right through my heart. That just reinforces that Jeffrey was the best fuck of her life. He's literally touched places in your wife that you physically can't. It would be hard to not dwell on the fact that you've always been second best at best.

I get the feeling your wife is aware of all the dynamics swirling around, the potential consequences and drawing from her own experience to protect you. I give your wife a whole lot of credit. She could be right back at it if she wanted to. I'm sure she has really good reasons for resisting the idea.

Amazing reply.
Thanks for the fun reaction about this thread, nice to see it enjoyed by a member.

Your synopsis is spot on and helpful to hear as well.
Appreciate the insights and kind words.

Gives me a bit more peace of mind to accept how things are in the moment and that we're on the right road for us.

Also just trust her wisdom to know when it's time for her to take things further if she is ever curious to.