Cuckold, gay, submissive, my story

[cuckoldreal80]

I am currently 56 years old, my wife is 52, this is my story...

My wife had 3 boyfriends before me, she was deflowered by a boy from her high school when she was 17, I was her fourth boyfriend.
Our cohabitation was normal throughout, a classic heterosexual marriage with two children. Our children are now grown and independent and live in another city. For several years I have lived alone with my wife.

When I was 53, several things happened that changed everything: I became impotent (erectile dysfunction), I found out that my wife was cheating on me with coworkers, and I had bottom gay experiences.

That year everything was a roller coaster, the doctor prescribed me Viagra but with the high blood pressure I had it didn't work properly, and I also made friends for homosexual sex.

For several months everything was crazy, there was a moment when I had to speak honestly with my wife, I told her that I knew she had sexual relations with her coworkers but that I admitted it. Besides, I already had severe erectile dysfunction and I was increasingly attracted to sex with men. I didn't tell her anything about my gay relationships.

I talked a friend into trying to seduce my wife and be her lover, on the condition that all three of us knew the deal: it worked!! My friend and my wife had sex and I could watch it, although not participate, they also allowed me to clean them both. We've been doing this for 10 months, everything's fine, I don't know what the future will be like.

In this relationship, it is my wife who leads, although her friend is the one who gives ideas, for example, the idea that I should clean them was his. They are discreet relationships, her lover comes to our house, has sex and leaves. Nobody knows about our sexual relations.

They have normal sex, kissing, touching, mutual blowjobs and fucking, everything hygienic and clean, they don't use condoms, I don't think they have anal sex. Her lover had anal sex with me several times before having sex with my wife. My wife never wanted anal sex with me, I don't know if her lover will convince her to have anal sex.

They usually do it about once a week, so far I've always been present, but sometimes they ask me to leave the bedroom so they can do it alone.

Sometimes my wife asks me to have sex with her, in these cases I perform oral sex and use sex toys. She also masturbates alone sometimes.

For 4 months I've been taking some paroxetine pills, it's an antidepressant that also suppresses sexual desire, so far so good. Currently I don't have gay relationships, although I do have oral sex with my wife and I'm present during sexual relations with her lover when they want, I also clean them when they tell me to.

That's my story, I don't know how all this will evolve in the future, for now we're in a stable stage and I like that.

[cuckoldreal80]

A few months ago I had an idea or a fantasy, it was about having my testicles removed (orchiotomy), I was turned on and excited by this idea, I looked for information, I watched videos on this subject, I even went to a surgeon's office to get his opinion, he told me it was an easy operation, it lasted an hour and only needed local anesthesia, he also told me that he usually does 4 or 5 operations of this type a month (for cancer, transsexuals,...) it costs about $3000 and the side effects could be gynecomastia, overweight, decreased sexual desire...
I currently have no sexual desire since I am taking some tranquilizers that cancel that desire, I am fine like this. I usually watch my wife and her lover having sex, I even clean them when they ask me.

I spoke to a doctor friend for a second opinion, he convinced me not to do it, he told me I could have hormonal problems, I might even need a pill to balance my testosterone. So it all ended up as a morbid fantasy.

I currently have a chastity cage, I wear it voluntarily, that is, I have the key and every day I take it off to clean it and put it back on, I always have it on. When I see my wife with her lover I also wear it. I am a pussy free and I feel comfortable like that.

[JR1966]

So you hate having balls or just see no reason to have them? Some of these posts on this site just blow my mind with their abnormality.

I don’t know how anyone could go without sex! If I was taking g something that took away my sex drive I take that away to get it back. I love to fuck my wife! She loves for me to fuck her too!

[SpicySaltnPepper]

I don’t know how anyone could go without sex! If I was taking g something that took away my sex drive I take that away to get it back. I love to fuck my wife! She loves for me to fuck her too!

It's almost as if people have different sexual preferences and kinks.

The vast majority of men would think you're crazy for wanting your wife to fuck someone else. In the grand scheme, by being here talking about your fantasy, you have far more in common with a gay, submissive, cuckold who doesn't want to have sex with his wife than the average married guy, so it might be better not to dump on his kink lest you dump on your own.

[Dream Weaver]

I don’t know how anyone could go without sex! If I was taking g something that took away my sex drive I take that away to get it back. I love to fuck my wife! She loves for me to fuck her too!

It's almost as if people have different sexual preferences and kinks.

The vast majority of men would think you're crazy for wanting your wife to fuck someone else. In the grand scheme, by being here talking about your fantasy, you have far more in common with a gay, submissive, cuckold who doesn't want to have sex with his wife than the average married guy, so it might be better not to dump on his kink lest you dump on your own.

Don't cut your nuts off. Your problems might very well be temporary.

[mrs_hotwifecplsa]

Try this: With a doctor's supervision of course.. Go on an all meat (carnivore diet) with intermittent fasting. My husband lost a lot of weight fast, and ALL of his physical issues disappeared. It's miraculous. Sleep apnea, high blood pressure, diabetes.. all gone.

[ugcp]

I'm all for pursuing one's kinks and fantasies, but I recommend caution when intending to proceed with any permanent change like this.

If one were truly considering such a thing, I would recommend doing a chemical test run first to see how you feel. You could be great, but given the loss of testosterone from such an action, you could become chronically depressed and suicidal. Point is, you don't know, and it would probably be wise to test things out as realistically as possible first.

I would also recommend thorough consultations with medical professionals, including a mental health professional, before proceeding with anything permanent procedure like this. I guess anything permanently affecting hormones/neurochemistry.

[cuckoldreal80]

I wrote...

"I spoke to a doctor friend for a second opinion, he convinced me not to do it, he told me I could have hormonal problems, I might even need a pill to balance my testosterone. So it all ended up as a morbid fantasy."

Removing both ears is not the same as removing the testicles, the latter are involved in hormone production: "Do not touch"

However, from what I have read, orchiotomy can reduce the likelihood of prostate cancer by reducing the amount of testosterone (the adrenal glands in the kidneys will still produce some testosterone). In addition, androgenetic alopecia can also be avoided due to the decrease in DHT.

I currently have no sexual interest, I like to watch my wife having sex with her lover, sometimes I give her massages, oral sex or sex toys when she asks me to.

Mentally I feel very balanced and satisfied and I am not going to experience anything dangerous.

I appreciate the advice given by the users of this post.

[cuckoldreal80]

I've seen in some posts on this forum that some women have had 30, 40, 50... sexual partners, that seems like a lot to me. My wife has told me that she had sex with 9 men: 3 boyfriends, me, 4 coworkers (cheating) and her current lover.

I have had sex with 4 women: 3 girlfriends and my wife, also with 5 men in my gay stage (bottom).

I currently watch my wife and her lover have sex and I clean them up. They usually have sex about once a week, some days my wife is horny and asks me to give her sexual massages, oral sex and sex toys. I haven't penetrated her for a couple of years, I'm impotent, I wear a chastity cage and I have no sexual desires.

At first when we met I had a dominant position, my wife was more submissive, let's say I was the leader of the house, now everything has changed, my wife is the dominant one and I do what she tells me, we are like friends, we go to the movies, to dinner, to walk, I almost always cook and do the laundry. Now she is the leader of the house. When we were younger I was jealous with my wife, it bothered me when men looked at her and I would not have consented to her having sex with another man, now it is the opposite, I like men to look at her and desire her and I gladly accept her having a lover.

With her lover they have sex in our house, sometimes they also go out for a few days but to somewhat distant cities, we do not want the neighbors to know that she has a lover and that I consent to it.

[trecital]

I have no sexual desires.

This quote jumped out at me.....

If you've "no sexual desires", then what is your motive for joining a forum like this, and posting about your wife's sex life?

Genuinely curious.

[cuckoldreal80]

1. I'm curious about this lifestyle.
2. I want to share part of my story.

Is it necessary to have sexual desires to join this forum? I haven't seen that condition in the forum Rules.

[cuckoldreal80]

My wife never let me have anal sex with her, she told me it was dirty and painful. Now I know that she has anal sex with her lover, they go to a hotel in another city on some weekends and they have done it several times there, I think that one of the characteristics of the cuckold husband is confirmed: not letting your husband have anal sex but yes to your lover.

Another thing I have learned is that her first boyfriend, the one who deflowered her when they were 17, also had anal sex with her a couple of times, but they were young and inexperienced and the experience went wrong, that is why she never liked this type of sex.

I had gay experiences (bottom) for a couple of years, I had sex with 5 men, precisely my last sexual friend is my wife's current lover, he is a bisexual man (top), when he is horny he fucks men as well as women, although he has a preference for women.

My wife is unaware of my gay phase, although she has seen me clean her lover's cock with blowjobs, but they interpret it as a submissive gesture, not as gay sex. I also perform oral sex on my wife, but I don't get excited when doing it, I just do it because she asks me to.

I haven't penetrated my wife for more than two years, I wear a chastity cage voluntarily.

[cuckoldreal80]

My wife's lover has proposed to me to have anal sex in front of her. I have said no, first because I currently have no sexual desires and second because I am embarrassed that my wife sees me as gay. I spent 2 years having sex with men, she never knew.

I had sex with my wife's lover before he met her, he is a bisexual top and I acted as a bottom. I have told him that I would let him fuck me in private without my wife knowing, but he insists that he wants to do it in front of my wife. I don't know what to do.

[cpmici+]

Do it and enjoy that moment !!!

[elina]

Well,

If this guy is currently Your WIfe's lover, I think you should accept being taken by Her lover in front of your Wife.
You need to submit to your Wife and making this step should enable Your Wife to see you as you really are.
This will also help you I think to come to terms with who you are and that your Wife clearly deserves to take lovers and have you serve both Her and Her lovers as their submissive.

Sincerely
elina
(submissive wannabe sissy-slave)

[Flcuck4herand]

Id say do it. If you want it and she wants to see it? Bonus is her bf wants to do it in front of her. My opinion but I would.

[wannabecUKold]

My wife's lover has proposed to me to have anal sex in front of her. I have said no, first because I currently have no sexual desires and second because I am embarrassed that my wife sees me as gay. I spent 2 years having sex with men, she never knew.

I had sex with my wife's lover before he met her, he is a bisexual top and I acted as a bottom. I have told him that I would let him fuck me in private without my wife knowing, but he insists that he wants to do it in front of my wife. I don't know what to do.

I think you must do it in front of your wife. So she understands you.
I suggest that the lover should air this with her, telling her how he would like to take you as well. The risk of a reaction then is put more on him. Also she will understand better that her lover is bisexual and she will get attuned to that. In fact she will then understand that both you and he are bisexual, and maybe she’ll realise that many men are. Of course he not only wants the sex but also to dominate you in front of her, and that is fine too. You can tell her that you want to be alongside her, dominated by him. And that you would much appreciate him taking you in front of her.

[cuckoldreal80]

Months ago I had homosexual sex with my wife's lover. I was the one who suggested that he try to win my wife over and fuck her. I gave him two conditions: first, that it was a secret relationship, that no friends, family or neighbors knew about it, and second, that he never spoke to her about my gay past.

Now he wants to fuck me in front of her, which I think breaks the second condition. As wannabecUKold says, I don't think it's for sex since I've told him he can fuck me in private, but he wants to dominate me in front of her.

Until now the relationship had been stable. I'm trying to get him to forget his proposal, but it seems that he is very interested in doing it.

I'm chatting with other cuckolds about this topic, but what I would like to know is what women think when they see their husband fucked by another man.

[elina]

Well,

I am not a Woman but I have been involved in discussions with a number of Ladies who are cucking their husbands.
There is no way to predict how a specific Woman will react to this, they are different individuals and fully capable of forming their own opinions which should be respected.

However, I do think most Cuckoldresses would probably enjoy this given that it is done in the proper context.
Here, the context is that Her new Lover wants to demonstrate how he can also dominate Her husband and make the husband submit. If your Wife truly values Her fucking-relationship with Her new lover, my gut feeling for what it is worth is that She will probably see witnessing you being fucked by Her lover in front of Her that you are accepting your new place as Her submissive cuck.

I do think that Her new lover should not just go on and fuck you when your Wife is not expecting it. He should discuss this with Her prior to it happening, or you can suggest that you are the one to discuss it with your Wife first.

Regardless, I think You should be nude on your knees in front of your Wife begging Her to allow Her new lover to take your ass in front of Her so that She can see your desire to please both Her and Her new bull.

Good luck.
Sincerely
elina

[wpbsucker]

My wife's lover has proposed to me to have anal sex in front of her. I have said no, first because I currently have no sexual desires and second because I am embarrassed that my wife sees me as gay. I spent 2 years having sex with men, she never knew.

I had sex with my wife's lover before he met her, he is a bisexual top and I acted as a bottom. I have told him that I would let him fuck me in private without my wife knowing, but he insists that he wants to do it in front of my wife. I don't know what to do.

Just do it.

[armyguyot1]

Welcome to the forum wpsucker. You can't unsee something once you see it.

[cuckoldreal80]

I already did it, the bull fucked me twice in front of my wife.

He proposed it to me about a month ago. I didn't know what to do. I was afraid of my wife's opinion. I was chatting with cuckolds and hotwives, all of them advised me to let fuck me. Some told me that wives get excited when they see their husband fucked by his lover.

The experience was much simpler, I already knew the protocol of anal sex, cleaning, lubricant, preparation... since I had had sex with men (bottom). My wife wasn't too surprised, rather she took it as something fun. She thought it was funny to see me fucked by her bull, but it didn't change anything in our relationship. I don't feel humiliated, rather I feel more submissive. The alpha male is her bull and I just feel like a spectator.

In sex sometimes we create fantasies and expectations and then in reality everything is simpler.

[elina]

Dear Cuckoldreal80

Great to hear that you got over your doubts and allowed this to happen.

Are you sure "nothing" happened in your relationship? I would guess you now feel some kind of relief that your Wife now knows that you enjoy being fucked by Her Bull. Your Wife must feel even more comfortable giving Herself completely to Her bull while you are watching.

Have you told your wife that you now feel more submissive?

I would think this clears the path for both Your Wife and Her bull to start demanding that you serve them both as a proper cuckold should do?

Please keep posting.

Sincerely
elina

[knight4princess]

Try this: With a doctor's supervision of course.. Go on an all meat (carnivore diet) with intermittent fasting. My husband lost a lot of weight fast, and ALL of his physical issues disappeared. It's miraculous. Sleep apnea, high blood pressure, diabetes.. all gone.

Glad that worked out for ya! But in our experience, smoking (#1) and a heavily meat diet (#2) are quick warning signs that a guy is gonna have ED when he gets in to the bedroom. Weight loss does solve a lot of problems. Glad it's working out for you so far.

[magnus]

Try this: With a doctor's supervision of course.. Go on an all meat (carnivore diet) with intermittent fasting. My husband lost a lot of weight fast, and ALL of his physical issues disappeared. It's miraculous. Sleep apnea, high blood pressure, diabetes.. all gone.

Glad that worked out for ya! But in our experience, smoking (#1) and a heavily meat diet (#2) are quick warning signs that a guy is gonna have ED when he gets in to the bedroom. Weight loss does solve a lot of problems. Glad it's working out for you so far.

I'm with mrs_hotwifecplsa on this.

I went full carnivore almost a year ago and at 57 I feel and look better than I have in 20 years. I've always been a workout guy and into strength and fitness, but middle age hormones, injuries and a higher carbohydrate diet slowly but steadily packed on the weight and minor health issues over the years with those minor issues starting to become more concerning and not so minor.

The results of the Carnivore diet have been simply astounding. I dropped 45 lbs, my testosterone almost doubled, my mental health and well being is so much better and I got off my BP meds and daily pantoprazole for indigestion. While I wasn't suffering severe ED, the quality of my erections had diminished and now I'm back to being rock hard and standing at attention when aroused. I also have so much less joint and muscle pain as inflammation has decreased dramatically to the point that I'm much more active. I also simply have far more energy that makes me want to be active. My most recent blood work shows every blood marker of health to be in perfect order.

The only thing the Carnivore diet hasn't thankfully cured is my cuckold tendencies, although I'm back to my old assertive ways in every other aspect of my life. Fortunately I still love seeing my wife pleasured by better endowed men and reclaiming her after with my more modest, average endowment.