I had the opposite reaction during the cumulative 12 months that I was completely cut off. Even though I found it extremely hot that she was having more sex than ever while I was completely cut off sex with her, I still hated that I wasn't getting laid.
The thing is that at 21 years old I was not mature or cuckold enough to appreciate being cut off. I felt like I should have been getting laid with my girlfriend but instead she completely cut me off sex and went exclusive with her boyfriend. She cut me off without prior discussion and without prior notice. I just found out one night when after a long steamy and passionate foreplay session in an attempt to reclaim her, she made me aware that I was officially cut off and her pussy would be strictly reserved for the boyfriend and when he was not available, then her pussy reserved for other men.
The second time, I was both a tad more mature and much deeper into the cuckold spectrum. We were 23ish, and by this point we were starting to live together again after her previous boyfriend had taken her away to live with him and she was gone for 18 months so being cut off 4 entire months plus not having easy access to my own girlfriend for 18 months just really put me in the cuckold mindset.
She really trained me to be a cuckold when she made herself unavailable to me and she decided to cut me off sex, move out for 18 months, and put me on hold while prioritizing over a dozen other men in her apartment. So at 23ish she had already broken me down and trained me with what she did when we were 21. She really had trained me and broken me down so to speak and when she decided to abruptly cut me off the second time, it was as tough as the 1st time but I was more willing to accept it than the first time.
I still bitched and whined and moaned about her having sex every single day with her boyfriend and not even letting me get a 5 minute quickie and even after her BF moved out, she prioritizd all of her other FwBs that visited her daily. The second time around she starved me of pussy for 8 entire months and it was very difficult being edged by her every single night dealing with her getting ready and super sexy after work and leaving to her boyfriends place and coming late in the early morning hours.
I know she was preparing to do a phase 3 where she was going to cut me off entirely again and likely for a longer period the 3rd time, especially because her relationship with her boyfriend was really getting serious and they had a very healthy and active sex life together but I walked away before I could get any further cuckold training.
Now that I am in my 30s, looking back, I can appreciate what she did for me and how she further trained me to become a cuckold despite that not being the goal of what I was trying to be or wanting to be. She made sure to make me one anyway.
I hated being cut off and not getting laid for one entire year of my life in my 20s. However, because of her and her mentally breaking me down and making me accept that she chose sex with other men while training me to wait for as long as she wanted, I learned to embrace it, expect it, and be prepared for it as both times occurred without prior notice or warning. I am almost at the border line where I would very much be okay with my current girlfriend just finding herself a handful of lovers and cutting me off. Imagine that, I went from hating it to almost wanting it.
The second time
