Hopeless Cuckold in Texas

[HopelessCuckold]

Hopeless Cuckold for over twenty years. I discovered with my first wife that I desired to see her with other men. Though at the time she was against it she did however cheat on me later in our marriage with a hung older man. I'll never forget one early morning when she woke me up to tell me she had been going and seeing him to fuck for a few months and I knew nothing about it. She was a stay at home mom and would go see him during the day when kids were in school. After the first day of being upset I confessed to her that I thought it was hot. We would go to bed and she would tell me the details and our sex would be amazing. I never did get to watch her in person and we divorced a few years later.

Now I'm on my second marriage of 13 years. While dating seriously our sex life was hot and heavy and we shared fantasies. Among many I told her about the main one was me desiring to watch my lady be with another man. She asked me what kind of man and I replied a hung older black man. She had never been with a black man and she was brought up that it was wrong. Not her fault but it was true. So I asked her if I could show her some interracial porn and she said yes. We started viewing things together. She was saying she doubted she could do it but was fine watching it and seeing pics. After a week or two I asked her if I could use a BBC dildo on her while she watched some BBC porn and she said yes. I purchased an 8 inch with nice girth realistic BBC dildo. I used it on her while I played a DVD. She came very hard and admitted she was imagining a black man fucking her hard. After this experience I asked her if I could take pics of her in some hot lingerie and make us a profile on a swinger site and show other men her pics. She said yes. One day while being snowed in which isn't that common in Texas she putting on a nice set of garters with stockings and high heels. All black with a black teddy and thong. My wife is extremely voluptuous and she looked amazing. We made the profile that said I was a cuckold and wanted to see my wife fucked by other men. We loaded the hot pics and within a few days she was getting a lot of attention. Many hung men were hitting the inbox. She was hit on by several attractive and not so attractive men. I asked her to go through the messages and see if anything peaked her interest. Remember she's saying it's just fantasy and we won't do this for real. So she shows me some white guys with big dicks and we look at the pics and send responses. That was for a week or so then one day she says hey look at this one he likes to pull hair doggy style and smack your ass. When I went to look it was a black man in Houston. He was fucking a hot blonde from behind and had a hand full of hair. I could tell the pic made her hot. His dick pics were amazing. Probably 10 inches long and thick. I encouraged her to respond to his messages. She chatted with him for a week or so and turns out he was very educated and that attracted my wife. She enjoyed the way he talked to her and I was thinking this is it. This is gonna happen. My angst and nerves were crazy. So we started talking about going to Houston for a weekend and just maybe meeting him for drinks to see what it would be like. Well guess what? I came home one day and she said she wanted me to delete everything and that it was fun but we went far enough and needed to chill for a bit. So I deleted everything and we quit watching IR porn. It went away as fast as it came.

So fast forward and we get engaged then finally marry. We were married almost a year and something happened. I was on the couch one day watching football and a restricted number kept calling my phone. After numerous attempts and me swiping it away I finally answered it. It was a man telling me he had been seeing my wife for months behind my back and I needed to give her up. I was so shocked and taken off guard. I hung up and went to the bedroom and asked my wife about it and she started crying and came clean. She has been seeing this man for 6 months of the first year of our marriage lol. I asked why and she said I accidentally fell for a man at work. I was so blasted but within minutes I started asking her was the sex good and was his cock bigger than mine. She just looked down for a bit and wouldn't look at me but finally said yes. I was so confused. I was hurt but that very day I masturbated to the thoughts of her having sex with him. Needless to say the next few days were insane. She was begging me to stay with her and promising me how much she loved me. So after a week while me and her were texting I told her that I had decided to make this work but in exchange she had to give me details of their sex life. She asked me if I was sure and I said yes. For the next few days I asked and she gave me answers. The feeling is indescribable. How I was hurt by being lied to but yet so damn horny with the details of the sex they had. She obviously enjoyed fucking him and she admitted it to me. I would cum so hard from the things she told me. She actually lied to me two different weekends and went out of town to stay in hotels with him were they fucked continuously.
Fast forward. Our sex life is great. A few years ago she asked if I still had the same fantasies as years ago and I said yes. She said which one and I said you fucking a man in front of me. She just laughed. That led to new pics and us making a profile again. After weeks of fun she went cold again. So I hope this wasn't to much to read and I would love to here from anyone with advice. I am 50 and she is 42. She goes out of state for work 3 or 4 times a year and I always joke about her finding a handsome man.

[armyguyot1]

Welcome to the forum HopelessCuckold.

[brettintexas]

Hi from Austin!

[armyguyot1]

Welcome to the forum brettintexas.

[Restarting]

snowed in which isn't that common in Texas

lol. It's all white outside now!
My guess is she'll be back in the mood soon.

Keep us posted!

[snoogaloo82]

I'm looking forward to hearing some of your adventures!!!

[avid fan]

Thanks for the summary Hopeful.

I'm curious about the situation with your current wife..I assume she was still seeing that other guy when he contacted you?? What happened between them after that??

Interested to know where things are for you now.

[Aussiem]

The cycling from desire and back to going cold is a familiar theme. We swapped and stag,vixen for over 40 years. My wife would do that cycling thing. Go for months not doing it. I think this is due to feeling guilty because of upbringing and society saying it's wrong. Then raw natural sexual urges take over and another guy gets lucky. Sometimes it goes cold because the guy starts to get too clingy and wants exclusivity. I am never quite sure. I just go with it and enjoy the ride. Her having fun without telling is something that happens. I think I find out most times. Once a guys wife caught them fucking and came to see me to tell LOL,but that's a whole story in itself,.Again I just go with it. We are all complex, sexual being.

[HopelessCuckold]

Thanks for the summary Hopeful.

I'm curious about the situation with your current wife..I assume she was still seeing that other guy when he contacted you?? What happened between them after that??

Interested to know where things are for you now.

My post is long and I wanna say thanks for reading and taking time to know more. Those are great questions. Short Story. She has been going to therapy to aid in stopping the affair. She had been trying to break it off for a 4-6 weeks. He took it hard and became weird. I found out later he had parked on our street a few times and also showed in public where we were together. However I had no idea who he was and never even payed him attention. So by the point he called me he was at his last ditch effort and his ego was killing him because she chose me ultimately. He was her superior at work. Seventeen years older than her. Big house. Mercedes. A real GQ type of guy. But what he didn't know was me and her are truly in love. Thirteen years after a blind date as much now as then. He wound up being a real douche bag in the long run and very toxic. He's been married twice since then. It was a very tough time for me. Something I wanted but yet it was done behind my back and that made it hurtful. Being that degree of hurt but aroused because of the same truth.

As for us we are strong as ever. And our sex life has became dirty again. That's why I joined this forum. I reinitiated my dirty desires to her and I'm not gonna let go for a minute. I have to believe she's in her own head morally. But she also knows she loves good sex. And I can see it in her face sometimes while looking at pics or videos of other men with big dicks. I can see the curiosity in her eyes. I think if we ever get there our marriage will become stronger. Only time will tell and like I said before " this time it's a slow burn waiting on opportunity to knock "

[HopelessCuckold]

The cycling from desire and back to going cold is a familiar theme. We swapped and stag,vixen for over 40 years. My wife would do that cycling thing. Go for months not doing it. I think this is due to feeling guilty because of upbringing and society saying it's wrong. Then raw natural sexual urges take over and another guy gets lucky. Sometimes it goes cold because the guy starts to get too clingy and wants exclusivity. I am never quite sure. I just go with it and enjoy the ride. Her having fun without telling is something that happens. I think I find out most times. Once a guys wife caught them fucking and came to see me to tell LOL,but that's a whole story in itself,.Again I just go with it. We are all complex, sexual being.

Yes we all are for sure. She is a very sensual and sexy gal. It's in her but I have to find the code. Right now we have dirty talk while having dirty sex and I love it. I'm definitely keeping my eyes peeled for an opportunity to notch it up. She has lost 25 pounds and I need to get pics so bad. She was a hard no the other night but I know if we go out of town on a date and she had some wine that she would be more open. Once I get pics I have to convince her to let me show her off. I was there 2 years ago and because of her cold shoulder deleted her profiles and stopped talking about it. If I get that back again I'm not letting go. It's a major victory to even get that far. I'm thinking of having pillow talk this weekend and trying to get her to understand that we can go a long ways without going all the way. I will let y'all know if we talk how it goes.

[HopelessCuckold]

Update. We had a weekend alone for Valentine's and we engaged in cuckold fantasy while having sex. While out on a date Saturday night we were having wine with our food. After a few glasses the conversation turned to my fantasies of her being with another man. She actually asked me if I was sure I could handle another man that she's into fucking her good in front of me. Of course I answered yes. We discussed this and other sexual things for a few hours. When we got back to our rental she put on a slutty outfit that I had purchased for the weekend. We had great sex and while I was fucking her I asked her to tell me what she's thinking. She answered with a sultry look that " He's fucking me right now with his big dick and your watching from a chair " I started fucking her hard and she started saying " omg his dick feels so good" . I came so hard. I think we made it a step closer this last weekend. We discussed my fantasy more than once and with very little negativity. Of course she is still saying it ain't happening. I think it will eventually.

[Rip_isback]

Man, what a journey! The highs and the lows!
Keep up the good work that you're doing. It sounds like you're right on the precipice.
I'm rooting for you ... Be sure to keep enjoying the journey ... It will be so much sweeter.

[Rip_isback]

Man, what a journey! The highs and the lows!
Keep up the good work that you're doing. It sounds like you're right on the precipice.
I'm rooting for you ... Be sure to keep enjoying the journey ... It will be so much sweeter.

[HopelessCuckold]

We have been having a lot of nice pillow talk lately. Especially concerning her lover from the affair. She is starting to open up about the details more and it's such a turn on. She told me that when they made out he was constantly pulling her panties off and she would pull them back up. But eventually she would give in and fuck. She also is becoming more comfortable admitting the sex was good. I feel like this is a big development in our discussion of this lifestyle. We discussed the lifestyle quite a bit. She expressed her worries about it ending badly and how she was worried that it's outside the marriage. I told her with both of us involved that it wasn't outside our marriage. Also told her that we can play in this lifestyle on a broad spectrum without actually meeting someone in person. She seemed to get more comfortable discussing it as we work through her concerns. I can't tell you how horny our conversation made me. I'm looking forward to the next opportunity to discuss her sexual romps with her past lover

[HopelessCuckold]

( first posted Monday) Last night's pillow talk was very productive. We hadn't talked about my desire since the week before. I have been very patient as not to push it. She started the conversation last night. It started by her telling me she was willing to play in the realm of the Hotwife world without the commitment of the final act. She also asked if she could make her own profile and engage with bulls on her own. This floored me. I never expected her to ask something like that. She said last time we tried it that I (me) was in control of everything and didn't really let her do her thing. She also said she spent hours looking and talking to bulls last time without my knowledge. I was so shocked and never expected that!! When I told her how much it surprised me to hear this she replied " I wanted to really give it a chance and see if I could do this." I was so happy to hear her say that. But then she said..." Unfortunately 99% of the responses repulsed her." So then she went into detail and described exactly the man she would want. To sum it up it's Robert Redford from Indecent Proposal. My wife is very attracted to GQ type successful men. That's what she wants. And that's what she will get as far as I'm concerned. We broke down exactly how she wanted to build her profile and what it should say. She also agreed to do some new pics. She said we could start working on it during "sex night" this week. I may be away on business this week and she suggested she might do it while I'm gone. I asked her what if she met this man accidentally on a business trip since she travels some for work. I asked if she could see herself bringing him back to her room and calling me to listen while they fucked. She said yes I could do that. Oh my what a night. It took me by surprise. She asked me if there was a place that had a chat room for her to meet bulls. I told her I wasn't sure but she could always use AFF. We used Fet last time and she wasn't crazy about the hard-core aspect of that platform. She wants to do it her way with my guidance this time. She also reminded me how picky she is and that it may never happen. We ended the night with her watching me jack off while she talked about fucking a man in front of me. I shot a load half way up my chest. After we turned out the lights and kissed she said " Boy this really turns you on huh ?" . I said " What do you think ?". We chuckled and went to sleep.