I'm Ky, and I'm a cuck-oholic

[txrockdog]

I won’t write another long missive this time, but simply remind Ky that there is an ignore feature available here if there are posters crossing over the line from being helpful to being overbearingly demanding and insulting of he and his wife. I for one look forward to more posts from Ky about what is happening with he and Jaimee/Lexi and fewer where he feels the need to defend himself and Jaimee against somebody else’s imagination of what is happening.

[Cgi69]

Txrockdog - Amen.

[FamilyCuckold]

I won’t write another long missive this time, but simply remind Ky that there is an ignore feature available here if there are posters crossing over the line from being helpful to being overbearingly demanding and insulting of he and his wife. I for one look forward to more posts from Ky about what is happening with he and Jaimee/Lexi and fewer where he feels the need to defend himself and Jaimee against somebody else’s imagination of what is happening.

What he said.

[scdiver]

Insulting or truthful?

[scdiver]

I don't mean to be harsh or cruel. Just truthful. I don't want Ky to go through what I did

[MustBeDenied2]

I don't mean to be harsh or cruel. Just truthful. I don't want Ky to go through what I did

He’s repeatedly told you there is no need to worry. He has been polite and respectful in his replies to your concerns.

Perhaps it is time to drop it. Take a minute. Give it a couple of months and if you still have these concerns, express them again. And, if Ky once again says there’s no need to worry, then give it a couple more months.

MBD

[sabya167]

Scdiver, most respectfully , may I draw your attention to a fact, a fundamental basic difference between your first marriage ( and I'm sorry to learn about that) and that of KY and Jaimee. And that is the communication part. The preparedness of the wife, the grooming of the wife by the husband by making her read books, articles, stories about this lifestyle. Ky has meticulously groomed Jaimee. There must have been hundreds of pillow talks between them about the Perils and the Dangers of this arrangement. I remember a post of KY about a pillow talk mentioning "" riding the cock carousel" and the " futility of starting all over with a new guy" among other things. So here is a very battle ready, informed, aware, strong willed and intelligent wife in the form of Jaimee, fully aware of the possible potential but very real derailments and accidents. So much so, that I think Jaimee could be more watchful than KY. Because she is the rock of KY at home and the anchor of the household.

You haven't told us that you had the same situation, dynamics,
communication, etc. with your wife in your first marriage (again, I'm very sorry to hear about that).

[all4fun]

It's human nature to project one's own thoughts and feelings to fill in the gaps when dealing with highly interesting and intense situations like that of Jaimee and Ky.

Classic, "This is what you should do man, or this is what'd I'd do bro."

Again, we probably know less than 1% of what happens in Ky and Jaimee's life. There are 8,736 hours in one year. If Ky has conveyed more than 87 hours of how they have spent their time in the last year I'd be surprised.

We don't know what transpires in the majority of their lives, and only what Ky is generous enough to share with us. We can only project.

From his writings it sounds like they spend a lot of their time together as a family, and are completely solid there. For that, we must take his word.

Still, this is 100% behavior modification on Sipho's part, but Jaimee and Ky talked this over almost a year ago and agreed to go down this path. The thing is, they knew exactly what they were potentially getting into. Somehow, people are surprised that they are doing this? It was discussed and agreed upon with Jaimee even commenting on how extreme it was. It was spelled out for them. Giving Sipho control over Jaimee was a conscious and voluntary decision by both of them.

This is not unheard of. There are many accounts of women, and wives, giving complete control to a dominant bull. Hell, my own wife and I have discussed what this may look like and dabbled with a tiny bit, with a bull sending her messages, videos, stories, and suggesting certain behaviors, which have truthfully had quite an impact on her. So, I know this shit works.

Also, what can be done with behavior can also be undone, not always easily though. The body modifications may stay behind. Some memento's I suppose. Just stay safe along the crazy adventure.

Ky, this is yours and Jaimee's life, live it the way you want. Fly the wingsuit, race the motorcycle, climb the mountain, base jump from the bridge, ski the canyon. Only you know your risk tolerance.

I would be sad if one of my friends passed in a back country avalanche, but that does not mean I am going to tell them don't do it. They know the risk, they enjoy the rush. It's their decision.

[rascalnvixen]

With all due respect to all the articulate posters here on Ky's thread, I find it somewhat amusing to see so many men debating what will happen to Ky and Jaimee how they should do it all. Debate is good, but they will do what they will. The posts that offer real concerns to Ky and suggestions and observations are all useful in my eye and I think in Ky's as well. But the debates between readers about what they should do is amusing. Just my thoughts.

Rascal

[coastalkid]

I really appreciate your post regarding the lack of background on Sipho. I see your point too. A lot of us followers of your story have "filled in" the void with our preconceptions of Sipho. It's easy to fall into the belief that Sipho's intentions are without any regard to your marriage. I can also imagine that it will be difficult to change that perception for your readers without a better understanding of Sipho. It has been easy for us to demonize Sipho to varying degrees much as anyone would any adversary from an action movie.

[Cgi69]

Hello Ky. Just writing to offer a heartfelt thanks for all the hard work keeping us updated on your adventures with Jaimee. I have followed your story for years and it is one of the main reasons I frequently return to this site.

There are times in my life when I feel that I connect with an author in some unexpected way. I feel connected to various elements of your story. I was once a crazy Crossfit fanatic in the same way Jaimee was. I swear there were a couple of women in my Crossfit classes that had something going on with a few of the coaches on the side. Your writing about Jaimee and Wade drove me crazy. There was something about those Crossfit folks, me included, that wanted to feel intensity. Felt like I connected with that aspect of Jaimees personality.

At some point, I think you mentioned having a Boxer dog. We have had Boxers for years. Love them.

I am a male from the US Midwest. I have a female British friend. When she rolls-out her southwest UK, slightly posh accent – she can twist me around her finger. She could probably get me to do just about anything. I think you have remarked a time-or-two about Jaimee using the accent on you. I feel you.

In a few posts from 2018(?), you mention Jaimee sitting on the couch with Wade and playing with his cock right in front of you. Maybe even sucking it and then fucking him as part of a casual, normal activity while talking about the days’ events or watching TV. This absolutely blew my mind. A long running fantasy for me. Something I would love to see my wife doing.

These little details have drawn me further into your story.

Your latest adventure with Sipho is so hot. The idea of another man taking control of your wife for a while and making her a cock slut - amazing!!
I am just a wannabe cuck at this point, but I might be fairly close to actually jumping in. Wife does not seem to be opposed. Reading your stories all these years has given me some way to live vicariously through you and Jaimee’s adventures while wrestling with my own kinks. Stay strong and enjoy the ride. Thanks again and I am looking forward to more posts.

[mick_flow]

The sky is not falling. If you’ve read my previous comments you will see that I had been concerned, but after reading Ky’s reply, I believe him when he says everything is good.

The psychology approach, and the training of Jaimee to associate pleasure with Sipho, I’d forgotten those posts. I know Ky finds it hot, so do I… I’m guessing many of us share a similar fantasy…

But it does make you think, if I were Sipho, and using this technique… then the name Lexi is a great way to get Jaimee into the right frame of mind.

And… that double date with Joanna & Ky, Lexi & Sipho… I’m viewing that in a different light to when I first read it. Sipho made a comment about Ky & Joanna looking like a great couple. If I’m Sipho, I’m an opportunist, and I’m not directing the comment at Ky, I’m directing that comment at Lexi… and I’m using that as continued brain washing, something like - “look how your husband is turned on and is directing his desire at Joanna… just like your desire is mine”… it was laying the mental ground work for what was to come after the double date.

I’d be awesome to hear more about Sipho, and what he and Jaimee get up together. I know it’s mentioned that he might share that, and it would be awesome.

I’m actually beginning to really like Sipho. In a devious kinda way. The older posts about him being a brainwashing cock-hypnotist (sorry evening typing that made me giggle) got me thinking. If you were Sipho what would you do? - I mean, he’s got a husband and wife who are both super turned on at the idea of the wife being sexually focused on him. And he’s slowly working on both of them. Getting Jaimee sexually focused on him, and to see his desires as a way for her to receive pleasure. To thrill them both with the idea of making Jaimee feel this way permanently. Getting Jaimee to crave not just him, but to take on his desires. To make Jaimee feel owned by him, protected by him, to see sexual release, and safety in him. To see ky as home, as safety, as the comfort of routine, of family of kids, kitchen, and the house. But not as a sexual desire.

Then limit ky and Jaimee’s sexual intercourse. Focus on making Jaimee only see Sipho for sexual pleasure. To do the brainwashing bit you’d want to make sure she only achieves a O with Sipho. The next stage would be to work on getting Jaimee and Ky to slowly reduce all sexual interactions. Ky has desires as any man does and as a cuck he knows kys excited about the changes in his wife, so he needs to get ky focused on another, and get Jaimee focused completely on him. Sipho will be aiming for that point when Jaimee completely disassociates sex and Ky. To the point where she just doesn’t see ky that way at all. At that stage he can remove the limitations on sexual intercourse. But will Jaimee want Ky at that point? - or will the only way she can be aroused by Ky be when Sipho tells her she should be? - or when she thinks of Sipho when she’s with Ky?

Ahh, interesting mental experiment… I’ve no freaking clue, but my imagination is running away with me…

Looking forward to the next update Ky!

[fgare]

But it does make you think, if I were Sipho, and using this technique… then the name Lexi is a great way to get Jaimee into the right frame of mind.

And… that double date with Joanna & Ky, Lexi & Sipho… I’m viewing that in a different light to when I first read it. Sipho made a comment about Ky & Joanna looking like a great couple. If I’m Sipho, I’m an opportunist, and I’m not directing the comment at Ky, I’m directing that comment at Lexi… and I’m using that as continued brain washing, something like - “look how your husband is turned on and is directing his desire at Joanna… just like your desire is mine”… it was laying the mental ground work for what was to come after the double date.

I’d be awesome to hear more about Sipho, and what he and Jaimee get up together. I know it’s mentioned that he might share that, and it would be awesome.

I’m actually beginning to really like Sipho. In a devious kinda way. The older posts about him being a brainwashing cock-hypnotist (sorry evening typing that made me giggle) got me thinking. If you were Sipho what would you do? - I mean, he’s got a husband and wife who are both super turned on at the idea of the wife being sexually focused on him. And he’s slowly working on both of them. Getting Jaimee sexually focused on him, and to see his desires as a way for her to receive pleasure. To thrill them both with the idea of making Jaimee feel this way permanently. Getting Jaimee to crave not just him, but to take on his desires. To make Jaimee feel owned by him, protected by him, to see sexual release, and safety in him. To see ky as home, as safety, as the comfort of routine, of family of kids, kitchen, and the house. But not as a sexual desire.

Then limit ky and Jaimee’s sexual intercourse. Focus on making Jaimee only see Sipho for sexual pleasure. To do the brainwashing bit you’d want to make sure she only achieves a O with Sipho. The next stage would be to work on getting Jaimee and Ky to slowly reduce all sexual interactions. Ky has desires as any man does and as a cuck he knows kys excited about the changes in his wife, so he needs to get ky focused on another, and get Jaimee focused completely on him. Sipho will be aiming for that point when Jaimee completely disassociates sex and Ky. To the point where she just doesn’t see ky that way at all. At that stage he can remove the limitations on sexual intercourse. But will Jaimee want Ky at that point? - or will the only way she can be aroused by Ky be when Sipho tells her she should be? - or when she thinks of Sipho when she’s with Ky?

Years ago I found this website as a member of a BDSM community, and followed threads in order to better understand a person's mentality when in particular frames of mind. Arousal, sub-space, essentially putting the lizard brain in charge while the higher brain is simply an audience to things. But this post here - the one I quoted - probably is why I will never fully understand.

There is so much flowery prose around being "a rock", or "anchor", or "person holding a kite string." What mickflow has described is essentially becoming, in common parlance, a BFF. Marriage in name/legal contract only, with absolutely no other connection except what would be had with a BFF. So, my question becomes, why stay married? If Jillian/Jaimee/Lexi is so enamored or fixated on Sipho for physical intimacy, emotional fulfillment of her role as a slut via satisfying her desires via all of the men he brings to her, and she only relies on her current husband for so-called "anchor" or spousal support (i.e. the BFF), why stay married?

You enjoy the fact that a third party, Sipho, is actively separating a married couple, Jaimee and Ky, from being, wholly and completely, a married couple. Separated completely from needing, and wanting, physical intimacy with each other. You celebrate that disconnection? Again, I've never been a sadist, nor do I think I'll ever fully understand why someone wouldn't just divorce and let someone be free in these circumstances. But to wholeheartedly wish such a complete disconnection? Justification via flowery prose the likes of "he's her rock, her anchor" is, in vulgar terms, bullshit.

But that's just me, and as I said, I don't know much so don't mind me.

[Goodboy66]

I'm admittedly not in the lifestyle but follow the forum for mild titillation. My curiosity is why wouldn't Jaimee fuck Ky's brains out daily and just not tell sipho.

[wannabecUKold]

I'm admittedly not in the lifestyle but follow the forum for mild titillation. My curiosity is why wouldn't Jaimee fuck Ky's brains out daily and just not tell sipho.

The buzz of the rules is that they are obeyed. Especially by the wife in the face of all the husband’s pleading. Otherwise the balloon bursts. And the husband won’t get the angst he craves.

[txrockdog]

Years ago I found this website as a member of a BDSM community, and followed threads in order to better understand a person's mentality when in particular frames of mind. Arousal, sub-space, essentially putting the lizard brain in charge while the higher brain is simply an audience to things. But this post here - the one I quoted - probably is why I will never fully understand.

There is so much flowery prose around being "a rock", or "anchor", or "person holding a kite string." What mundyman has described is essentially becoming, in common parlance, a BFF. Marriage in name/legal contract only, with absolutely no other connection except what would be had with a BFF. So, my question becomes, why stay married? If Jillian/Jaimee/Lexi is so enamored or fixated on Sipho for physical intimacy, emotional fulfillment of her role as a slut via satisfying her desires via all of the men he brings to her, and she only relies on her current husband for so-called "anchor" or spousal support (i.e. the BFF), why stay married?

You enjoy the fact that a third party, Sipho, is actively separating a married couple, Jaimee and Ky, from being, wholly and completely, a married couple. Separated completely from needing, and wanting, physical intimacy with each other. You celebrate that disconnection? Again, I've never been a sadist, nor do I think I'll ever fully understand why someone wouldn't just divorce and let someone be free in these circumstances. But to wholeheartedly wish such a complete disconnection? Justification via flowery prose the likes of "he's her rock, her anchor" is, in vulgar terms, bullshit.

But that's just me, and as I said, I don't know much so don't mind me.

For sure there are parts of the whole cuckold lifestyle that don’t make any sense if you don’t share the somewhat masochistic kink for the lifestyle. I am not in the lifestyle and I am not sure I could survive the insecurity of watching my wife with another man who fucked her better than I could. What keeps me coming here is a fascination with the women of the lifestyle who embrace their sexuality way beyond the typical. Along the way, I have seen various well written accounts from cucks trying to explain what they get out of the kink. One of the best was from Subguy80 who explained how he got a thrill from that gut wrenching sensation of being humiliated by his wife with another man.

It is a sensation that makes me rock hard to read somebody else describe their experiences with, but one that I would never want to experience for myself. In Ky’s case, he gets off on that sensation of his wife turning to another man. So if Jaimee goes out and gets sexually destroyed by Sipho, it is a sexual experience for Ky when she comes home and tells him all about it while he jacks off hearing about it. He is not having penetrative sex with her, but the moments they share together are undeniably intimate in sharing the kink. I personally don’t see the benefit of long term denial as Ky is currently enduring, but if part of their kink together is denial then it is sexual by its nature.

For me, the threads that just seem sad are the ones like that of deepdownwannabe and his wife. He apparently approached her about the lifestyle and she gave him the ultimatum of “If I do this, I will do it my way and there is no stopping once we start.” And she took it all the way to permanent chastity for her husband, her boyfriend has moved into their house and now lives in the master bedroom while the husband lives in the basement forbidden from even seeing his wife naked. Along the way, when questioned about if he was enjoying it, all he would ever communicate was that he had agreed to let his wife go down this path so now he couldn’t stop it. His posts became shorter and less informative with time and eventually his wife took over the thread pretty much entirely. It was clear that there was no opportunity for him to get any sexual gratification from what his wife was doing. It was not a “enhancement to their own marriage and love life, it just destroyed their sex life and replaced it with a different one for her.

I don’t see the same thing occurring with Ky and Jaimee. They have safe words and can stop each other at any time. They do still interact sexually even when Ky is denied penetration with her. I personally think 6 months is too long for the long term health of their relationship, and doubt either of them will agree to let it extend or reoccur to that degree after June. But they do still have a intimate sexual connection and what they do together and with others is aimed at giving both of them sexual pleasure to one degree or another. If it ever becomes entirely one sided to the degree that one of them is getting nothing out of it, then I fully expect them both to stop. Jaimee’s enjoyment of Lexi is possible because she knows Ky enjoys the idea of her as Lexi and the focus of her sexuality on somebody else. If she felt he was sitting at home gloomy and brooding all day and was no longer interested in hearing what she got up to, she would lose interest in being Lexi. Because it would only be for her. They are in this together and constantly communicate about each other’s happiness. I don’t see any relationship based on that as destined for doom.

[fgare]

For sure there are parts of the whole cuckold lifestyle that don’t make any sense if you don’t share the somewhat masochistic kink for the lifestyle. I am not in the lifestyle and I am not sure I could survive the insecurity of watching my wife with another man who fucked her better than I could. What keeps me coming here is a fascination with the women of the lifestyle who embrace their sexuality way beyond the typical. Along the way, I have seen various well written accounts from cucks trying to explain what they get out of the kink. One of the best was from Subguy80 who explained how he got a thrill from that gut wrenching sensation of being humiliated by his wife with another man.

It is a sensation that makes me rock hard to read somebody else describe their experiences with, but one that I would never want to experience for myself. In Ky’s case, he gets off on that sensation of his wife turning to another man. So if Jaimee goes out and gets sexually destroyed by Sipho, it is a sexual experience for Ky when she comes home and tells him all about it while he jacks off hearing about it. He is not having penetrative sex with her, but the moments they share together are undeniably intimate in sharing the kink. I personally don’t see the benefit of long term denial as Ky is currently enduring, but if part of their kink together is denial then it is sexual by its nature.

For me, the threads that just seem sad are the ones like that of deepdownwannabe and his wife. He apparently approached her about the lifestyle and she gave him the ultimatum of “If I do this, I will do it my way and there is no stopping once we start.” And she took it all the way to permanent chastity for her husband, her boyfriend has moved into their house and now lives in the master bedroom while the husband lives in the basement forbidden from even seeing his wife naked. Along the way, when questioned about if he was enjoying it, all he would ever communicate was that he had agreed to let his wife go down this path so now he couldn’t stop it. His posts became shorter and less informative with time and eventually his wife took over the thread pretty much entirely. It was clear that there was no opportunity for him to get any sexual gratification from what his wife was doing. It was not a “enhancement to their own marriage and love life, it just destroyed their sex life and replaced it with a different one for her.

I don’t see the same thing occurring with Ky and Jaimee. They have safe words and can stop each other at any time. They do still interact sexually even when Ky is denied penetration with her. I personally think 6 months is too long for the long term health of their relationship, and doubt either of them will agree to let it extend or reoccur to that degree after June. But they do still have a intimate sexual connection and what they do together and with others is aimed at giving both of them sexual pleasure to one degree or another. If it ever becomes entirely one sided to the degree that one of them is getting nothing out of it, then I fully expect them both to stop. Jaimee’s enjoyment of Lexi is possible because she knows Ky enjoys the idea of her as Lexi and the focus of her sexuality on somebody else. If she felt he was sitting at home gloomy and brooding all day and was no longer interested in hearing what she got up to, she would lose interest in being Lexi. Because it would only be for her. They are in this together and constantly communicate about each other’s happiness. I don’t see any relationship based on that as destined for doom.

txrockdog, I understand your perspective. I'm also familiar with Subguy80's story, and he's now happily living a poly lifestyle in a northern state. What I do not understand is the cheerleading of what would effectively be an ending of a marriage, in favor of what is essentially a friendship without benefits. I've known sadists. I've seen them bring masochists to the edge of pleasure in which they can see beyond the edges of the Universe. Being "sexually destroyed" by a third party does not preclude the marital partner from either having any say in, or, being allowed to offer input. If she wants to be sexually destroyed and dominated, ok, fine. If she wants to do that and no longer views her husband as a husband - isn't that bad for the reasons they chose to be married?

I personally know a woman well known around town for being open to virtually anything. She has no safe word. She loves all attention and accepts all attention. She does not meet with single men anymore because they are simply not enough. Her husband now only arranges group meetings. But while "Foxy" pushes all sorts of limits, she'd never agree to most of what is happening with Jaimee. Group sex? Not a problem. Denial to her husband? Normal because her husband prefers it on a limited basis. But, piercings without telling her husband, tattoos without saying what they will be, taking her away during a get together with friends? Hard stop. Those would require husband's input. That's a marriage. That's not a BFF relationship because a BFF would be more for advice, and not necessarily a hard safe word.

So, while I understand your excitement of the lifestyle, I'm viewing what is currently occurring in this thread through the lens of knowing a woman who is absolutely to open to all kinds of sex - with her husband's approval - but even she draws the line at what is going on here. I just don't understand why others would celebrate or hope for a complete breakdown in the marital bond in favor of some third party. Again, I am in the perspective of someone with no proclivities towards this, and I only read these stories to better understand individuals I meet. So, what I say may be complete horseshit and my view entirely myopic.

[Ky_Da]

I thought I'd write down a few random thoughts before I start on my update...

My wife Jaimee and I have been living our cuckold fantasy for ten years now. It's taken me ages to come to terms with this part of who I am, and candidly, I still battle with it from time to time. It's an extreme game, isn't it? Pushing your wife into the arms of another man, hoping he'll ring her bell in ways you can't; I grapple with the morality of it all, the raw lust that courses through me knowing she's with someone else, and the fear that my encouragement might push others into a lifestyle they're not prepared for.

Being completely honest is tough; I've shared a lot here, but there's still so much I keep buried, afraid of judgment, of letting some of you down. The truth is, while I'm perpetually on edge about where this is all heading, I fucking love it at the same time. I've read your comments, some twice, some thrice, many urging me to throw in the towel, to use the safe word and end the game. I know those comments come from a place of care, and I respect that, but I'm not ready to stop. I've made a commitment to Jaimee to see this through, and I'm determined to stick by that.

Jaimee and I, we have these deep talks. Our intimacy is unique, shaped by this dynamic. The thought that her body now belongs to her lover, her Daddy, is so fucking arousing, it gets me hard just thinking about it. The tattoos, they were more than I was prepared for. I knew she'd get some, but not the extent. She's adorned with more ink than I've let on, each one a testament to her submission, but I've held back because the comments sometimes get too much for me.

I've been mulling over what I want from this platform. It used to be a release, a way to sort through my thoughts, but now I feel I need to censor myself, worried about judgment, about shame. I'm enjoying this current phase of our game just as much as Jaimee, though the health of our marriage always lingers in my mind like a shadow. The thought of losing her to Sipho or another man fills me with dread, even turns my stomach.

It's late, the kids are tucked away, and Joanna's at her parents'. Jaimee, nude, sits at our piano, playing a piece she adores by Ludovico Einaudi. I can see her from here, her back decorated with more than just the orchid tattoos on her hip that I've written about; there's intricate linework and shapes tracing up her sides. She's the epitome of contradiction—smart, sophisticated, yet completely enthralled by being Sipho's submissive, a woman who shares herself sexually more freely with each passing day.

The music resonates through the family room, each note struck with precision, beauty in timing. I watch her sway, her body moving with the melody she pulls from that black Yamaha piano she saved for over years. Soon, I'll carry her to bed, where I'll worship her with my tongue, tasting a pussy I don't get to claim anymore. I'll look at the marks on her breast, her lower calf, her inner wrist, each tattoo a reminder that I've given Sipho permission to own her in ways I never could.

That moment of agreement during an intense bout of passion still echoes in my mind—the look in her eyes when I consented to Sipho marking her, it was a leap into the abyss of this game. We've never ventured this deep before, and we both know it's more perilous than ever, yet the thrill, the intensity, is too intoxicating to abandon.

I'm fascinated by watching her pussy stretch around a larger cock, knowing she's grown accustomed to sizes beyond my own. I've long accepted that even if we ended this game, she might never find satisfaction with me again. This thought isn't new; it's been years in the making. I've somewhat resigned myself to the idea that we'll be playing some version of this game into our future. The look in her eyes as she's first taken, that initial penetration, the overwhelming intensity—it's something I crave to witness, to feel through her. Her body tensing, muscles contracting, the way she curls up into herself with the force of her orgasms—it's all part of this dark, thrilling ballet.

A couple of nights ago, after the kids were in bed, we were watching a film when Sipho texted. Lexi, as she's known to him, checked with me. I gave the go-ahead, and she replied, eager for play. Sipho came to our house, he was short on time. He had Jaimee stand, undress, and face the wall by the telly. I could see he was pent up; it had been days since Lexi was with him, and he needed this release.

He was quick; he pressed her against the wall, her breasts flattening against it. He rubbed his cock against her pussy for lubrication, and she started to moan immediately.

"You can use my pussy," Lexi murmured. "I miss your cock in my pussy."

Sipho only grunted, pulling back, aligning with her ass instead.

"Oh, please use my pussy, Daddy," Lexi whined, her voice thick with desire. "It's been so long."

But Sipho had other plans. "You still haven't learned to enjoy this as much in your arse as you do your cunt." He pushed the head of his cock into her, and I watched, my heart racing, ready to leap upstairs if I heard the slightest sound from the children's room.

He started slow, but soon was thrusting with vigor. Lexi bit her forearm to stifle her cries, her body shaking under his force. When squatting became cumbersome, Sipho lifted her off her feet, holding her against the wall, fucking her until she was almost screaming. The strain got to him, so he moved to the couch, dropping her into my lap, her back to my chest, her tattoos and piercings on full display. Sipho continued, taking her ass while I held her, nearly coming just from the sight.

Lexi went silent for a moment, her mouth open in a silent scream before her body began to shudder with an intense orgasm. Sipho announced his own climax, pulling out to spill over her breasts and stomach, some dripping to her bare pussy, disappearing between her thighs. With a satisfied sigh, he stepped back, leaving the last drops to fall.

"Good girl," he said, dressing quickly and leaving.

Fuck, it was intense, fast. Once he was gone, Lexi had me strip, and she rubbed Sipho's cum between us, sliding down to give me an unforgettable blow job. She was still buzzing from the encounter, needing more, which I gave her. Later, as we lay in bed, I felt it shake—she was pleasuring herself, no longer shy about her needs. If she wants to masturbate, she does it, even if she thinks I'm asleep, making sure I get the rest I need, but I know she'd keep going if I stayed awake, driven by her insatiable desire.

I appreciate your comments, your engagement. I'm still figuring this out, but I think about your words often. Please bear with me as I navigate these complex emotions and desires.

[David52]

Thank you Kt. I think of you often.

[Cuckcuckgoose1]

Awesome update Ky. Thank you for continuing to share your story with the forum. I say...post away. Don't let the detractors dissuade you. This is your life and if you're comfortable with it, then share as much as you can/want. You have more people for you than against. We love your updates.

[cyw]

Thank you Ky for this update describing the hot scene between Sipho and Lexi.
You are the reason I came back to this forum almost everyday to check for your updates even when you went radio silent a couple of times. Your lifestyle is what I crave but can't fulfill in real life. So it remains a dark fantasy that only through your writing and sharing I feel a sense of involvement. For that I am eternally grateful.
I see that many readers have suggested some pictures of Lexi with her new rings and tattoos and I guess we probably wont see it due to privacy issue. So maybe we can ask you for some more descriptions of the previously non-mentioned tattoos?

[txrockdog]

I thought I'd write down a few random thoughts before I start on my update...

My wife Jaimee and I have been living our cuckold fantasy for ten years now. It's taken me ages to come to terms with this part of who I am, and candidly, I still battle with it from time to time. It's an extreme game, isn't it? Pushing your wife into the arms of another man, hoping he'll ring her bell in ways you can't; I grapple with the morality of it all, the raw lust that courses through me knowing she's with someone else, and the fear that my encouragement might push others into a lifestyle they're not prepared for.

Being completely honest is tough; I've shared a lot here, but there's still so much I keep buried, afraid of judgment, of letting some of you down. The truth is, while I'm perpetually on edge about where this is all heading, I fucking love it at the same time. I've read your comments, some twice, some thrice, many urging me to throw in the towel, to use the safe word and end the game. I know those comments come from a place of care, and I respect that, but I'm not ready to stop. I've made a commitment to Jaimee to see this through, and I'm determined to stick by that.

Jaimee and I, we have these deep talks. Our intimacy is unique, shaped by this dynamic. The thought that her body now belongs to her lover, her Daddy, is so fucking arousing, it gets me hard just thinking about it. The tattoos, they were more than I was prepared for. I knew she'd get some, but not the extent. She's adorned with more ink than I've let on, each one a testament to her submission, but I've held back because the comments sometimes get too much for me.

I've been mulling over what I want from this platform. It used to be a release, a way to sort through my thoughts, but now I feel I need to censor myself, worried about judgment, about shame. I'm enjoying this current phase of our game just as much as Jaimee, though the health of our marriage always lingers in my mind like a shadow. The thought of losing her to Sipho or another man fills me with dread, even turns my stomach.

It's late, the kids are tucked away, and Joanna's at her parents'. Jaimee, nude, sits at our piano, playing a piece she adores by Ludovico Einaudi. I can see her from here, her back decorated with more than just the orchid tattoos on her hip that I've written about; there's intricate linework and shapes tracing up her sides. She's the epitome of contradiction—smart, sophisticated, yet completely enthralled by being Sipho's submissive, a woman who shares herself sexually more freely with each passing day.

The music resonates through the family room, each note struck with precision, beauty in timing. I watch her sway, her body moving with the melody she pulls from that black Yamaha piano she saved for over years. Soon, I'll carry her to bed, where I'll worship her with my tongue, tasting a pussy I don't get to claim anymore. I'll look at the marks on her breast, her lower calf, her inner wrist, each tattoo a reminder that I've given Sipho permission to own her in ways I never could.

That moment of agreement during an intense bout of passion still echoes in my mind—the look in her eyes when I consented to Sipho marking her, it was a leap into the abyss of this game. We've never ventured this deep before, and we both know it's more perilous than ever, yet the thrill, the intensity, is too intoxicating to abandon.

I'm fascinated by watching her pussy stretch around a larger cock, knowing she's grown accustomed to sizes beyond my own. I've long accepted that even if we ended this game, she might never find satisfaction with me again. This thought isn't new; it's been years in the making. I've somewhat resigned myself to the idea that we'll be playing some version of this game into our future. The look in her eyes as she's first taken, that initial penetration, the overwhelming intensity—it's something I crave to witness, to feel through her. Her body tensing, muscles contracting, the way she curls up into herself with the force of her orgasms—it's all part of this dark, thrilling ballet.

A couple of nights ago, after the kids were in bed, we were watching a film when Sipho texted. Lexi, as she's known to him, checked with me. I gave the go-ahead, and she replied, eager for play. Sipho came to our house, he was short on time. He had Jaimee stand, undress, and face the wall by the telly. I could see he was pent up; it had been days since Lexi was with him, and he needed this release.

He was quick; he pressed her against the wall, her breasts flattening against it. He rubbed his cock against her pussy for lubrication, and she started to moan immediately.

"You can use my pussy," Lexi murmured. "I miss your cock in my pussy."

Sipho only grunted, pulling back, aligning with her ass instead.

"Oh, please use my pussy, Daddy," Lexi whined, her voice thick with desire. "It's been so long."

But Sipho had other plans. "You still haven't learned to enjoy this as much in your arse as you do your cunt." He pushed the head of his cock into her, and I watched, my heart racing, ready to leap upstairs if I heard the slightest sound from the children's room.

He started slow, but soon was thrusting with vigor. Lexi bit her forearm to stifle her cries, her body shaking under his force. When squatting became cumbersome, Sipho lifted her off her feet, holding her against the wall, fucking her until she was almost screaming. The strain got to him, so he moved to the couch, dropping her into my lap, her back to my chest, her tattoos and piercings on full display. Sipho continued, taking her ass while I held her, nearly coming just from the sight.

Lexi went silent for a moment, her mouth open in a silent scream before her body began to shudder with an intense orgasm. Sipho announced his own climax, pulling out to spill over her breasts and stomach, some dripping to her bare pussy, disappearing between her thighs. With a satisfied sigh, he stepped back, leaving the last drops to fall.

"Good girl," he said, dressing quickly and leaving.

Fuck, it was intense, fast. Once he was gone, Lexi had me strip, and she rubbed Sipho's cum between us, sliding down to give me an unforgettable blow job. She was still buzzing from the encounter, needing more, which I gave her. Later, as we lay in bed, I felt it shake—she was pleasuring herself, no longer shy about her needs. If she wants to masturbate, she does it, even if she thinks I'm asleep, making sure I get the rest I need, but I know she'd keep going if I stayed awake, driven by her insatiable desire.

I appreciate your comments, your engagement. I'm still figuring this out, but I think about your words often. Please bear with me as I navigate these complex emotions and desires.

Beautiful Ky. Please don’t let the negative voices turn to judgement in your mind. Use the foe function to ignore the ones you can’t let go of in your mind. With Lexi’s new unabashed stance towards her sexuality, is there any chance at all she would let you post some photos of her new decorations for us?

[mick_flow]

That was epic!

[Wistful]

“Masterclass” should commission Ky as expert presenter on how to live life as a cuckhold.

Or rather, maybe Jaimee should be hired as expert presenter on how to be the complete cuckholdress.

Better yet, together they could present lessons on experiencing the full cuckhold lifestyle. But perhaps that’s already being accomplished by this thread.

[mundyman]

Thank you again Ky for a most honest and truthful post. It’s very raw in your shared emotions and feelings.
Thank you for taking the time me to write it and share it.

Quick question. You mention that Jaimie has more ink than you’ve described. I was actually wondering if Sipho has had her get tats on the back of thighs like you see some pornstars get?
With things like Fuck on on leg and Me on the other.
Or Cum Slut, Daddy’s Whore, or other versions of those ideas. Or the ribbons and bows on the back of the thighs.
All very hot to think about.