Recently started getting fantasies. How to cope with it?

[Rogueuser1]

Do what is best for you - you owe us nothing.

But... please don't let the toxic pricks ruin it for the rest of us. If you have an desire to post please keep posting. For the toxic jerks just add them as a foe - after you click on their user name - that should make it so you don't even see their trolling.

[sucker00]

Anon,

We all appreciate hearing from you. Many of us appreciate your story, as I think it's a bit therapeutic for like minded members of this board to learn about experiences of others. I guess I'm in the camp that I would appreciate to hear how your relationship and the dynamic with your GF continues to develop, but at the same time, it's your life and we all can respect if you decide to keep it private. However things develop with you and your GF, and whatever you decide to do in terms of continuing to post or not post, please know that the vast majority of us on this thread appreciate your candor with us and we are supportive of you and there's no judgement here from (most of) us. Wishing you the best.

[venus-can99]

That makes sense. Selfishly, I've enjoyed following your story and find it hot. I'd certainly appreciate hearing more from you, but I get that it can be burdensome. Maybe I should post my own story on here sometime to see the other side...

That would certainly make for a wonderful reading raoulduke...

[Cuckcuckgoose1]

I love your heartfelt story and how you are feeling about what you are going through. I can relate. Sorry there are some a holes on here. You can always use the friend/foe option to block anything they post. I use it quite a bit actually. Best of luck to you and I hope you continue to share your experiences with us.

[CuriousJohn]

A few stories on this site resonated with me. Yours was one of them. I have found myself in the very early stages of your story, so looked forward to your updates. Either way I loved how quickly your adventure has developed and wish you only good luck for the future.

[elina]

When you say you've "weaned" yourself, do you mean from needing advice from the community here, or something else?

Mostly from needing advice. I felt lost, from when I started getting these fantasies until very recently when it's gotten easier. I think I was posting everything I thought and felt in the hope that people would say that they've been through the exact same thing and to do these things but avoid those things.

Dear Anondesires.

Thank you for coming back.

I think it is important to remember that we are all very much individual and different human beings.
Even if there was someone on the site here who had been going through exactly the same thing as you were, that person would not be an exact copy of you and would most likely have reacted differently. Also, that persons girlfriend would be different from your girlfriend and the relationship would for sure also have been different.

I therefore think that the real value from a forum like this is that we can all share our different experiences and post our reflections and sometimes advice, but still each one of us has to take responsibiliy for assessing how relevant the remarks were and to what extent the reflections and experiences described can teach us something.

I am glad to hear that you now feel there are fewer challenges for you, even if you report that your girlfriend is still eagerly looking for another male sex partner. I also think it was very good that you went with Her to meet the guy She had set up an appointment with. When he didn't show it just illustrates the significant difference between you and the rest.

Her lovers may come and go and be replaced when She feels for it. You should be Her rock, the person She is sharing Her thoughts and emotions with, the one who will always be there for Her and She will want to be the same for you.

Take care.

I for one will appreciate if you keep posting, even if it happens at a much lower frequency than before.

I wish you and your magnificent girlfriend all the best!!

SIncerely
elina

[armyguyot1]

Welcome to the forum CuriousJohn.

[anondesires]

Rather than respond to individual PM questions... hopefully this'll give some closure.

So after the failed coffee date, she asked if I could invite my friend over Friday night (the next day, 20th June). I reminded her that he was already coming over on Sunday, she hadn't forgotten. I since found out that she was worried about him getting serious with the girl he was seeing and he usually met her on Saturday. We made some excuse about getting his opinion on the Chinese dish she'd learned to cook recently and he was up for it. We talked about her plan from the previous weekend, that she would get his interest with her feet, break it to him that I know about his fetish and everything they've done and then offer to let him in on our secret.

Friday night came, I wasn't too worried for some reason. It felt like the more she'd tried to make things happen in the last 2 weekends, the less they actually happened. Far more had happened weeks/months before when she wasn't trying. She was wearing a short, tight dress and matching lace underwear underneath. She cooked for us both and then we watched TV. She was clearly trying to get him interested but wasn't brave enough to initiate her plan. I went upstairs to the toilet and she and I exchanged glances as I left. We'd discussed the night before that she might need me to give them a few minutes alone so I checked my news feed and whatever else to pass a few minutes while I was there.

When I returned, I honestly wasn't expecting anything, I pictured them being as I had left them, as had been the way the hundred or so other times I had gone to the toilet when he was over. What I came back to was her on her knees, between his legs as he was laid back in the armchair. Her head was bobbing up and down and she was making slurping noises. I couldn't see his cock but I knew it was happening. It felt like my jaw must've dropped as I realised what was happening. I could sense he was looking at me but I avoided looking at him. I looked at her just long enough to realise what was happening, she didn't look at me or stop what she was doing. I panicked and offered them another drink as a way to leave the room and regain composure. He replied "the same again if you don't mind" but she didn't reply.

After turning the corner to be out of sight, I took out my dick and started stroking. I felt like such a cuck. I had just walked in on my girlfriend sucking my best friend's cock in my own house and I'd sheepishly walked away and offered to get him a drink while he enjoys the pleasures of my girlfriend's lips around his shaft. Realising the humiliation of it only turned me on more. Realising that here I was, stroking my dick in the kitchen to the thought of what was going on in the next room compounded it. I didn't want to but I needed to pry my hand away from my dick, I couldn't let myself cum. I opened the fridge and tried to make general kitchen and "drinks making" noises to buy myself time. I didn't know how to go back into the room, it was awkward. I could hear them making noises. I would cycle between occasionally opening/closing the fridge or moving glasses around in the cupboard and then return to stroking my dick. I heard what sounded like him cumming, it was difficult not to cum myself. I went about actually pouring our drinks and tried to hide my erection after realising it wasn't going to go away soon then I walked back in carrying 2 drinks as if nothing had happened.

They were sat a little awkwardly but nothing was going on when I entered which is what I hoped. I didn't have a plan for if it was still going on. Nothing was said about it and it was a bit awkward after that but he didn't stay long. She was very intent on making out lots after he left. I was very aware that she had just swallowed a mouthful of his cum but I was too horny to care. We went upstairs and had amazing sex. I was grateful to be the one undressing her although I hadn't really considered the possibility that he might've got the opportunity until then.

We had set up the hidden camera which had captured the event. It wasn't a good angle but it doesn't take much imagination. I can't make out what was being said after I left though, they were whispering, she told me what was said. Basically, she could see that she had made his cock hard. When I left she pounced on it, started stroking it and started to take it out. He tried to stop her. She told him that I know about everything and I'm fine with it. He still resisted. She promised him that I'd be fine with it, told him to trust her. He stopped resisting and she took out his cock, stroked it for a bit and then started sucking.

I asked her if he had agreed to keep it a secret, she admitted she hadn't mentioned that part, that she had rushed it in nervous desperation. I messaged him that his secret was safe with us and that we hoped he could say the same for what happened tonight. There was a bit of back and forth, him confirming that I was ok with it like she had said and confirming that he wouldn't tell anybody.

I'll tell the rest of the weekend in another post.

[Midnight Joker]

I'll tell the rest of the weekend in another post.

Damn that's one hot update! Very erotic how much she wanted you to kiss her mouth after being filled with cock and cum!

[Rogueuser1]

Wow what a great update! Thanks for sharing!! Don't let anyone discourage you from sharing more!

[realcucklife]

Can’t wait to see the update.

[venus-can99]

Thanks for sharing this erotic update. Love the way you describe the planning and the “action”

[elina]

Dear Anondesires.

Thanks for sharing.

I can understand how difficult it must have been you to go through with finally witnessing your beloved Girlfriend being sexual with your friend.

I truly admire your courage and willingness to support your Girlfriend in this.

First, when you spotted that it was difficult for Her to initiate sexual activities while you were present to leave the room and take enough time to come back to ensure She had the opportunity to get this started. You must have known that this might happen and you still got up and left to allow it. No wonder your Girlfriend wants you as Her boyfriend.

Second, from managing to stop your masturbation in the kitchen before you could come. What you did was in essence to "edge yourself", stroking your dick while listening to the sounds from the next room makes you incredibly horny and when you stop before masturbating to orgasm, your body will be even more desperately aching for your lovely Girlfriend. I am so glad that the two of you could truly enjoy each other after your friend had left.

Also, I noted that in your post yesterday you indicated that you had less of a struggle with what was going on now. From this post it appears that this was not really applicable to the experience you described here. I am hopeful that the remark you made yesterday points to a deepening of your relationship with your Girlfriend which has taken place after this Friday evening and that She has managed to make you feel more confident that you will remain Her Boyfriend, but now you will have an even more self-confident, sexual and loving Girlfriend than before?

Sincerely
elina

[Pecannut]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience!

[wannabecUKold]

Dear Anon
Thanks for the detailed update.

“she told him that I know about everything and I'm fine with it.”

“ There was a bit of back and forth, him confirming that I was ok with it, like she had said”

So you have now crossed the line. He knows you’re OK with it. That feels alright for you, doesn’t it? Quite exciting that he knows.

He will come back for more, of course. And will be given it. I think it will be fun. He’s OK with fucking her on this basis and he’s OK with keeping it secret. That’s where you want it.

Many thanks again for keeping us in the loop.
Please tell us how it maps out.

[parheliam]

Sorry, there are a few toxic people on this forum and that put me off posting (I don't enjoy writing anyway) and then I got too far behind and gave up with it. I've since realised that it's a bit selfish of me to completely stop posting. It was actually seeing that all 3 of parheliam's posts being on this topic that made me realise that. I then realised that I hadn't actually seen his posts, I guess because they don't show up for a while when you're new and people were posting quite

Hi mate. Glad that you are back and you read my posts and took them in consideration. Let me tell you my oppinion.

First of all, do you really care about the toxic trolls? Cmon.. if you miss them here you will find them in trafic, in the groceries store or anywhere in the world. Just ignore.

Secon, regarding your stories. Of course your writing is very good and you are expressing your feelings in a big manner so for sure we like your stories. I don't think that's selfish, but maybe i'm wrong. I have an ideea about how your story will develop amd my curiosity is this one. After your girl will fuck your friend (which for sure it will happen if it did not already happened - btw waiting for details) will you still be so eager to live in this cuckold relation? Or maybe your girl fuckin your friend was just your Achile's heel and now you would like to get away from this situation? You need to think about that. And if you need to evade, evade, leave and don't look back. But if you will be eager to find another one and another one, then maybe you are a cuck and not just disapointed by you inability to satisfy your girl

I would also sugest to try to tell yoir girl about this forum, and let me tell you why. As i read your stories i started to believe that she likes being exposed as a "slut". Being that, you should try to start a conversation "what would you think if we would write the story on a forum, anonymous". Just test the watters and see where it goes. If she likes the ideea i bet she will be excited when she'll read your story aboit her first fuck date, from page 9.

Hope to hear from you soon and best of luck

[diet_dew_86]

It really feels like you need to talk with him separately so that you both can be more comfortable with the dynamic.

[anondesires]

It's difficult to remember exactly where my head was at without the biases of where I'm at now. My previous posts have been when it was still fresh in my head. I might've downplayed how easily I handled it but I don't think I had chance to worry or feel down about it. I went straight from thinking it wouldn't happen to it happening, being horny and being worried about how to react. There was a short period of worry and panic after she told me that they didn't discuss secrecy but after messaging him, I felt reassured, not just in his secrecy but also that he hadn't said anything bad about it. From there she was already teasing me about Sunday, she was obviously still sexually frustrated.

Saturday was just the 2 of us. The topic of protection came up fairly early on. We didn't know when he was last tested or if he'd been safe. We knew he'd fucked a few different girls in the last few months and so condoms seemed necessary. Again, we didn't know if he carried any on him. She pointed out that condoms we had that fitted me probably wouldn't fit him, her blunt honesty about it turned me on. We were going shopping anyway and went to a pharmacy while we were out. There were a couple of different XL varieties, I think nude and original. I asked which she thought, she said "XL" then chose the nude ones because she wanted him to be able to feel her. The process of buying XL condoms for my best friend's cock to feel good in my girlfriend's pussy was humiliating to say the least.

I remember not wanting it to happen but I remember thinking that it probably wouldn't happen anyway. I guess I just couldn't imagine it happening and that made me think it wouldn't? That afternoon she was teasing me a lot. She had asked me to give her his number and I was refusing. I couldn't see that any good would come of that. She wanted to let him know her plans to avoid awkwardness the next day. She intermittently tried to convince me over the next couple of hours and then she got more physical. She got on top of me, teasing me, stroking me. Eventually she had me handcuffed and was edging me. At the start of this, she would ask me if I wanted her to fuck him and I would say no and mean it. She managed to turn the tables, playing down that she wanted to and that it was me that wanted this. She had me asking her to do it, admitting it was my ultimate fantasy (I wish it wasn't but nothing turns me on more), admitting I was lucky to have a girlfriend who would do this for me. This whole edging and wearing me down thing has become a habit, she's gotten good at it, it feels like she's draining my dignity but it feels good in the moment.

She was teasing me about sending him the photos we took a few weeks ago, telling me it would get him hard for her and maybe he'd stroke his dick. She had me admit that I wanted that. She had my phone in her hand and asked me if I wanted her to get his number from my phone (she knows how to unlock it). I think I refused again but she got me to agree somehow. After that she was messaging him back and forth (from her phone), sometimes showing me, sometimes not. I was still handcuffed and frustrated. Sometimes I would lose hornyness enough to realise this was a bad situation She was sending him revealing photos, she showed me a message from him saying how he'd always dreamed of seeing her naked.

Some time passed and then I received a message from him, "Are you definitely ok with this?". She read it out to me and laughed. I asked what he was referring to. She said that she had teased nudes, he wanted to see and she suggested that he could see when he fucks her tomorrow. She joked about responding from my phone for me, she actually started typing it out, something like "I'd love for you to fuck [my girlfriend] for me, my dick doesn't satisfy her, she needs a real dick like yours" and then she laughed and deleted it. She took the handcuffs off so I could reply. I took a while to reply but eventually wrote "Sure, it's just a bit of fun". He replied "That's lit. I really appreciate it. Would love to know what you're getting in return." I didn't reply but they continued to chat.

She said I shouldn't cum until we fuck tomorrow. She asked if I could control myself or if I needed help (chastity), she laughed. I said I'd be fine without it.

I remember it feeling so surreal and like a bad idea that had gotten out of hand. I was aware that I could stop it but I didn't have the will to. It's like it was already in motion, what good would stopping it do? I may as well see what it's like now.

[Ygt hubby]

You rock! Thank you for sharing your experience I have felt so many of the same feelings you’ve been feeling over the last 2+ years my wife and I have been in this lifestyle together. It has been so reassuring to read some things that touched so close to home.
I’ve been trying to post our story on here and read as many different posts as possible it really is therapeutic to know that I’m not alone in this.
Thankfully guys like you are willing to share and grow while in turn help others that are struggling through this amazing journey with our wives / girlfriends.

Thank you again my friend

[parheliam]

Great update. You're getting there(it seems it already happened and you are fine with it)

[joel68]

Great that you are back here and telling us your story. Looking forward to what happened next.

I hope you have time to let us all know.

[venus-can99]

Thanks for sharing your experience and can’t wait to see how it progressed. Iirc you had mentioned that he has a gf now - was that part of discussions?

[avid fan]

Awesome retelling. Don't know what/who it was that discouraged you from posting but hope you know your feedback is greatly appreciated and hope you continue to contribute here; you're great at relaying the events and associated emotional journey.

[parheliam]

@anondesires i strongly suggest you to search on the hub (black and orange- i don't think i'm allowed to mention the name) MaryBarrie for the ultimate cukold experience (since you were having issues recalling your girl)

[anondesires]

Thanks for sharing your experience and can’t wait to see how it progressed. Iirc you had mentioned that he has a gf now - was that part of discussions?

It wasn't [part of discussions], not that I know of anyway. As he said the week before, they weren't exclusive yet. He was actually with her that Saturday, I don't know where that fits in with us messaging him though.