Recently started getting fantasies. How to cope with it?

[Cuckcuckgoose1]

Best part of that convo:

But sloppy seconds?
Yes
How was it?
Sloppy

[anondesires]

Sunday morning for my girlfriend and me was much the same as the week before. We cleaned the house, made lunch together, she was getting herself ready for him. She was a bit less secretive about it this time. She was wearing another new basque set that I hadn't seen before, a red wine coloured one. I asked how many of these she was hiding from me, she wouldn't tell me, told me she liked to surprise me. This time didn't feel as tense, emotional and final as last time. Last time had been tolerable I thought, this was just the same but watching and I had technically watched last time, just not live and in person. We had some intimacy on the bed again, I asked if she was going to offer me the opportunity to take her for myself and scrap the existing plan again. She pointed out that she doesn't need to offer, I could do that whenever I wanted but I was choosing not to because I wanted to see him fuck her. It was true and the brutal truth of it turned me on but I wanted to prove her wrong, I looked into her eyes, she had a dominant gaze about her. She didn't say anything but her face said "C'mon then, what are you going to do..? Oh... nothing? Ok cuck, watch me get fucked then..." or at least that's how I read it

He knocked on the door, right on time. She wasn't wearing anything over her lingerie this time and waited in the lounge for us. There was some small talk and then she straddled him as he sat. There was some flirting and touching and then she suggested we all go upstairs. I sat on the floor in the corner of the room, she sat on the bed and he approached her and started kissing her. It wasn't passionate like in the video but I guess they hadn't been getting as warmed up downstairs as last time. Plus, it was probably on both of their minds that I was sat there watching. They mostly undressed each other and then she began sucking his cock. She looked fucking hot with his dick in her mouth, her jaw quite stretched. I realised she looked hotter sucking his dick than she did sucking mine. I then realised that I didn't even want to swap places with him, that it was hotter watching her suck him. It was a bizarre realisation. Why wouldn't I want to get my dick sucked by my hot girlfriend? I realised it wasn't that I didn't want to, it's that this was hotter. I wondered if this was me accepting my place as a cuck. The realisation turned me on more. I wanted to jerk off but felt embarrassed to and just slyly stroked my erection through my clothes instead.

My girlfriend caught me staring and stroking, she kind of smiled at me with her eyes as she made eye contact and then put on a show, sucking him seductively. (The previous post where I said about the dildo sucking happened after this occasion and the seductive sucking routine she did when I asked if she was thinking about him seemed the same, whether that was deliberate or not but I thought of this moment when she did it). He saw her looking my way, he grabbed her head and used her head as a fuck toy, she continued to maintain eye contact, looking helpless, closing her eyes as she gagged.

They removed the rest of their clothes and she laid on her back on the bed, legs spread. This seemed like more of a moment than when I had watched the video. This was imminently happening in front of me, my girlfriend offering herself willingly to his bare hard cock, complete disregard for me, both of them. They both started moaning and gasping as he gradually penetrated her. She looked over at me as if to tell me that this is what she looks like with a real dick inside her. He lifted her leg and kissed her foot and toes. There was generally less foot action this time than in the video. He also seemed to be fucking her with more flare, as if he was putting on a dominant performance for me, asserting dominance over us both. Nothing was really said at all, they said a few things to each other under their breaths but I couldn't really make them out. Otherwise the positions were much the same. As I watched, I had the same realisation as with the blowjob, that I didn't want to swap places with him, it was more satisfying to see her take his big dick, not worrying about cumming too soon or dominating her enough. She was enjoying it more with him too. Again, I felt like I was accepting cuck status and wanted to jerk off but didn't. The thought of him taunting me in the past about jerking off as I watched him fuck my girlfriend was too much of a line to cross which seemed a bit silly considering what was happening right now, but it was. I felt defeated as he easily fucked her better than I ever could and I was unable to not get aroused by it. Sometimes my mind would wander and I would forget I was watching my friend and girlfriend, it was like watching porn and then I'd remember who they were and that I was getting cucked hard. There were a few times where, like last time, I'd accept that it was fucking hot and enjoy it but I'd get really tempted to jerk off.

As it looked like he was about to cum, I remembered that there were no condoms this time, that he was going to fill her, she even asked him to and then she came a couple of thrusts before he did. I remember wanting him to fill her, wanting the satisfaction of seeing his cum leak out of her. He stayed in for a few moments and then as he pulled out it didn't disappoint, there was a short delay and then a glug of cum followed by a small stream, it was a memorable image. I stayed where I was, I didn't want to move until he had gone. He started getting dressed and then offered to see himself out. I got up to lay next to her in bed, she was smiling and we kissed for a while, I heard the front door close. She asked if I was ok, I said I was and she said she felt great. She started fidgeting a bit then sat up, I hadn't clocked what was happening but in one swift motion she rolled me on to my back and straddled my face. She looked down at me a little worried at first, gradually lowering herself down as if to give me the chance to say something but I was just stunned and struggling with my arms against her legs. It seemed to happen fast and slow at the same time but before I knew it I was eating pussy. At first I couldn't tell the difference but then I realised that my chin was gooey and my lips and tongue were lubed up. I tried not to think about it too much and just enjoyed her beautiful pornstar pussy. She was looking at me, happy with herself and making gaspy noises, I wanted to make her cum, as she tensed with pleasure she fired a glob into my mouth and her thrusting was moving wetness from around my lips and chin, slightly saltier than if it was just pussy. She was grinding hard and excitedly into my tongue, building to a solid orgasm. She rested against the headboard for a bit and then moved down to ride my cock and we started making out.

I realised that I was both fucking a pussy full of his cum and kissing with his cum, the realisation of what I had just done hit me, it was humiliating, I had done what they both wanted and was rock hard as she rode my dick. She didn't say anything but she was smiling, clearly pleased with herself. It felt like she was deliberately edging me, I couldn't feel much but I didn't need much, she gave me a slow build and then we looked into each others eyes as I filled her with her 2nd load.

He messaged me that night, clearly hinting for me to say what we'd done after he left but I didn't give anything away.

[Cuckcuckgoose1]

Congratulations Anon! You've properly reclaimed her. Can't wait to hear what the aftermath was.

[joel68]

Thxs for the description and how you felt. It can only get hotter for all three of you guys. Looking forward to hearing more.

[venus-can99]

Anon - you have the gift of describing what was happening along with how you felt at each stage - the excitement, humiliation, acceptance….

[wannabecUKold]

Amazing description. Thank you.
What sexual pleasures you are having.

[avid fan]

Thank you
.. looks like you couldn't be in better hands to explore all angles of cuckolding

[elina]

Dear Anondesires.

Thank you very much for your recent posts.
So good to see that both you and your Wonderful Girlfriend now seems to have found a setup which keeps both of you happy.

I haven't described the last couple of weeks yet. I'm trying to.

Why's everyone desperate for me to eat creampie? And why does everyone think I would?

Well, to me; When a cuck cleans his beloved Lady¨s pussy after She has let another man cum in Her, the cuck is demonstrating his acceptance and enjoyment with the situation. It is in some sense making an extra commitment and enables the Lady to feel truly good about what She is doing.

In your case in particular, where your Wonderful Girlfriend has teased, and sometimes forced, your desires out of you, I can only imagine that having you eat Her Pussy while it is still full of your friends cum tells Her that you love Her and accepts the new arrangements. She clearly wanted you to do this, and you kept denying you wanted to all the way till it actually happened....

Have you asked Her about it when the two of you have one of your intimate cuddling moments?

Sincerely
elina

[anondesires]

She raised the point that evening that she was worried that I hadn't seen him in a normal way for a couple of weeks. She felt it was important that we could maintain a normal relationship and not let it become just a sex thing. We discussed how we could see him without it being purely sexual. If we delayed sex after he arrived it would just be sexual tension and build up which she enjoyed teasing me about but agreed wouldn't solve anything. If he stayed over after sex it might work but would mean him being there for us fucking afterwards. We agreed that he would probably leave us to it but he would no doubt hear that she wasn't getting the same level of satisfaction that he had just given her. She pointed out that he probably knew that already but I said I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of knowing for sure. She thought I was being silly but accepted my point, we agreed we should probably get dinner together afterwards next time.

Knowing I had eaten his creampie was praying on my mind that night and the next couple of days. It grossed me out a lot that that creampie had been in his balls, shot up the length of his cock, into her pussy and then into my mouth and I had swallowed it. I tried to convince myself that girls swallow cum all the time, it shouldn't be that gross. In theory it was no more gross than pussy juices or saliva, it was just psychological. I remembered that he had hinted that he wanted me to do it, maybe that was the worst part. It seemed like the whole time we had known each other he had been hinting/joking about sexually dominating me and now that he had achieved it, he wanted to push it even further. Tbh it was a bit of a turn on that he was wanting to rub my face in it like this but I couldn't help feel it seemed "gay". Whenever he had mentioned anything along those lines, I would joke that he was trying to turn a guy on or trying to flirt with me or curious whether I wanted to suck his cock. He would turn it around and imply that I was the gay one for getting turned on by or getting urges to do those things. Neither of us had explicitly mentioned it being "gay" though.

It always seemed to be me pointing out that it was weird for him to be asking those things or wanting them. He seemed to be more comfortable with it, maybe that's because he felt like he was poking at my vulnerabilities, I don't know. What would he have said if I had said that I did get the urge to suck her lover's cock? Would he then want it to happen? Or would he just want to laugh at that and/or humiliate me about having the urge? If he found out I had eaten his creampie, what would he think? He said it was hot for him but why would he want to get turned on by me doing something? What would his next goal be then?

I was confused about the whole gay thing and our dynamic but our dynamic was otherwise good, we could still have a joke about things, it didn't feel too awkward that he was fucking my girl. I wondered whether it was fair for him to know that I had eaten creampie. Part of me saw it as 2 guys enjoying opposite sides of the same thing, that we should just indulge each other. Another part of me saw it as letting him own us and that I shouldn't let him have anymore than he was getting already. He was already fucking my girl, why should I give anymore than that?

A couple of days later he was asking about inviting her over to his, I already posted about it. I considered that would be letting him own us more but with the "other way around" thing, I would definitely want to do that if I was in his position. I think just the concept was hot, I'd removed myself from thinking about the reality of it. I also figured that just because he invited her, it didn't mean she would go. In reality, she didn't need him to convince her and I didn't offer much resistance to her. Suddenly it was on.

[anondesires]

There were a number of options there that I would have said yes to.

You personally? Or that you think I should've said yes to because there were some white lies?

[anondesires]

Best part of that convo:

But sloppy seconds?
Yes
How was it?
Sloppy

I wanted to give as little away as possible but see where he was going with it.

[anondesires]

Anon - you have the gift of describing what was happening along with how you felt at each stage - the excitement, humiliation, acceptance….

I'm just trying to describe how I'm feeling in the hope that others will be able to say they can relate, so I don't feel like the only one to go through this and maybe learn something from those who've been there and done it. I'm also trying to avoid writing jerk-off material but it sounds like I'm failing at that. I don't understand people wanting to jerk off to this, there must be much better stuff out there, I'm almost avoiding describing the sexual acts.

[monraccoon]

don’t how often i’ve heard or read that this biggest erogenous zone is in the psyche or similarly, that the greatest sex organ is the brain.
i’m here living my kink vicariously through you, in a similar way to how i’ve experienced my partners’ adventures through their writing/telling. there are plenty of folks here and elsewhere who are porn providers, (i won’t call them writers), who can shovel details, but it’s hum drum until someone like you comes along who can both write and who is also self-reflective and self-aware enough to make the stories interesting.
all this to say that i, personally, am grateful for you, and y-guy, and koreanslut and some few others here and there. thank you for letting into your journey of self-discovery.

[anondesires]

So Wednesday morning, she was looking especially sexy before she went to work. She was wearing a short tight dress and her taller, less comfortable heels. She gave me a peek at her sexy underwear. I don't think it was new but I hadn't seen it much before, it was probably from a special occasion of ours but I couldn't remember, I wasn't sure if it was better that I couldn't remember. We exchanged "I love you's" and kissed, I realised she hadn't checked I was ok with it, she seemed confident about these things now. After she left, I jerked off thinking about how she was going round to his place like his whore. I remembered telling him how if it was the other way around I would do it to him and send his girlfriend home to him full of my cum. The reality that I would never actually do that to him but he was going to do it to me and she was going the be complicit was so erotic to me. I thought about how he would get great satisfaction from hoping I might fuck or eat his creampie. The thought of giving into that and giving him what he wanted made me shoot my load. I felt great shame from thinking most of that afterwards. I tried not to dwell on it and left for work.

Once I was at work, it was easier to deal with but it was at this point that I checked this forum, saw a few posts asking if I was ok, I considered posting but realised I would have to explain the whole backstory and I didn't want to do that.

I stayed as late as I reasonably could. She usually gets home before I do but she had to work a bit later so that he would be home when she got there. I got home to an empty house. I knew she was was still at his. My head started to fill with doubt, wondering if they would be more intimate now that they weren't being watched or recorded. I wondered if he'd be grilling her for information that I hadn't given him. I wondered if they might plot ways of cucking me harder. I wondered if he might treat her like his girlfriend now that she was at his place. I wondered if she might start having a change of clothes and a toothbrush at his place. There were lots of thoughts, none of them particularly enjoyable but still a level of nervous arousal.

I was waiting for maybe an hour and was probably starting to worry that it had been longer than it would take to have sex when I had the relief of hearing her key in the door. She walked in looking almost as sexy as when she had left, just a little rough around the edges. I got up from the sofa to greet her, we kissed and embraced and she was walking me slowly backwards still kissing and embracing to the sofa I had come from. She was reaching down to take off her heels and kick them away one by one. She pushed me onto the sofa and straddled me, still kissing. What I hadn't noticed was that she had pulled her underwear off when she was taking her heels off. They were strewn on the floor, laced with cum but I hadn't seen them. She pulled away from the kiss, pulled up her dress to her waist and then stood over me to make me eat her. We had done this position/place before (minus the cum) in recent weeks and we had probably teased/thought about this scenario back then. I realised what she was doing, I told her no, told her to fuck off but she was determined and confident. Her pussy was slick and a bit glued together. I resisted licking when she pushed it against my mouth, she started grinding but I found it too erotic and I started licking her, reluctantly at first and then enthusiastically as I sort of forgot why we were doing this (it wasn't that obvious she had been creampied this time). She was moaning as she grinded, we kept going until she cum. We did an awkward shuffle of me standing up and trying to get my clothes off so she could ride my dick and then we made love to each other on the sofa. All felt good again, she was mine.

A few minutes later I saw her messaging on her phone, didn't think anything of it at first and then I wondered if she was messaging him. I asked her, it was him. I semi-jokingly asked to check she wasn't telling him she made me eat his creampie. She told me she had, not jokingly or teasingly, just as if it was nothing. I freaked out, told her to delete it. She deleted it but said he'd probably already read it. She wasn't sure what I was freaking out about. I asked her why she would tell him that, she told me he'd asked her to. I asked why she would tell him something I didn't want him to know. She said she didn't know it was a big deal, that I already told him about doing it Sunday, why was this any different? I said I didn't tell him about Sunday. She was confused. She recalled what he had said to her, he'd asked "are you going to make [your boyfriend] eat it again?". She told him she probably would and they both agreed that it was hot. I told her if he knew about it, it wasn't from me. We decided that he was probably bluffing when he asked her, worst case was she would've corrected him that she hadn't made me eat it on Sunday, but what actually happened was she assumed I had told him and thought it was fine to talk about.

In fairness to her, she didn't find it funny. She seemed genuinely sorry and a bit upset with herself, she spent the rest of the evening being extra loving, apologetic and trying to make it up to me. It was a bit of a downer, I ended up trying to convince her it wasn't her fault, I didn't blame her, she couldn't have known he was tricking her but it was a bit of a lesson. We weren't sure what to do about it. We agreed to sleep on it but agreed that she'd probably need to have a word with him about it which she did the next day.

[wannabecUKold]

There were a number of options there that I would have said yes to.

You personally? Or that you think I should've said yes to because there were some white lies?

I meant me personally. I was perfectly relaxed about the white lies (cage, pegging etc). You're not on oath.
Personally I would want to sub to him (fluffing, sucking, receiving his great cock). But your creampie was stunning.

[venus-can99]

I'm just trying to describe how I'm feeling in the hope that others will be able to say they can relate, so I don't feel like the only one to go through this and maybe learn something from those who've been there and done it. I'm also trying to avoid writing jerk-off material but it sounds like I'm failing at that. I don't understand people wanting to jerk off to this, there must be much better stuff out there, I'm almost avoiding describing the sexual acts.

The fact that your posts are more about your feelings, your actions and your evolution as a cuck is what fascinates me. For porn yes there are other sites but yours is more about your feelings and interactions with your gf and best friend.

[wannabecUKold]

The fact that your posts are more about your feelings, your actions and your evolution as a cuck is what fascinates me. For porn yes there are other sites but yours is more about your feelings and interactions with your gf and best friend.

This is the point. We feel your desires, your doubts. We listen to your internal debates. It’s a real debate in your head. And your cock. Very arousing.

[Dream Weaver]

I'm just trying to describe how I'm feeling in the hope that others will be able to say they can relate, so I don't feel like the only one to go through this and maybe learn something from those who've been there and done it. I'm also trying to avoid writing jerk-off material but it sounds like I'm failing at that. I don't understand people wanting to jerk off to this, there must be much better stuff out there, I'm almost avoiding describing the sexual acts.

The fact that your posts are more about your feelings, your actions and your evolution as a cuck is what fascinates me. For porn yes there are other sites but yours is more about your feelings and interactions with your gf and best friend.

Erotica is different than porn!

[Wannabe123]

Anon, it looks like your gf and your friend are strategizing together to groom you into a sissy. At this point you are just being exploited y them without you realizing.

[Wannabe123]

Reading the trajectory of events, I think Anon’s gf’s end goal is to see him take his friend’s cock in his ass

[Cuckcuckgoose1]

No need to project your personal fantasy into another's story.

[Midnight Joker]

She pulled away from the kiss, pulled up her dress to her waist and then stood over me to make me eat her. W

Your updates are so well written and exciting to read. Almost as if I'm there.

As for your latest update, that is a big fantasy of mine. I've told my wife that is how I want her to come home from a date and do just that!

[Pecannut]

Anon you write so well! Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us.

[wannabecUKold]

Reading the trajectory of events, I think Anon’s gf’s end goal is to see him take his friend’s cock in his ass

I agree with you. Best friend would enjoy fucking him in front of her. Anon would find it very rewarding. He likes his friend and I believe he would enjoy being taken by him sexually.

When she pegged Anon with the dildo, they did not find it very erotic.

[Xmatty1]

I wouldn’t worry about him getting turned on by something you are doing. It’s not you that’s turning him on when you clean up, it’s your girlfriend making you do it. It’s his sexual dominance of your girlfriend.

You guys are all turned on be the same thing, and it’s not what you are doing. It’s more about what you are not doing.