Recently started getting fantasies. How to cope with it?

[cpmici+]

I found this thread earlier this week and finished it yesterday.
Congratulations, you're an excellent storyteller, and I imagine you took so long to write it: that only adds to its value.

I must confess that I was captivated by the story and made me experience your worries, emotions, excitements, and second thoughts as if I were experiencing them for you.
When you broke down the wall of reluctance to touch your friend's penis, on her initiative, and you overcame it when you inserted it in her pussy or "handled" it to get it hard, for me it was the height of your submission and the pinnacle of excitement and lust.
It's a shame you only hinted at it without detailing it, even if only briefly.

Surely other readers will be interested in finding out whether she did it for you or it was your initiative, and what his rations were.
I'm excited to know if she continues her foot fetish on your friend.

PS: I apologize for the length of this post, and I understand if you don't want to reply. Forgive me if I wasn't clear (English isn't my language).
Thank you, and I wish you all the best.

[anondesires]

Thanks for the interesting responses. I agree with much of what was said.

I think a lot of what you've gone through stems from your particular circumstance: she's cuckolding you with your best friend, and you and your friend have a history that made you very sensitive about that dynamic. I suspect if your fantasies had been triggered by a photo of some anonymous stranger's cock and she decided to cuck you with someone that you didn't know, it might've been easier for you.

I think it's because of how "wrong" the thoughts were that made them "stick". It seems to be a recurring thing, it's almost like whatever I don't want to be turned on by, I'll get turned on by. I don't think a photo of some anonymous stranger's cock would've triggered it. It was a thought process like "this is the dick he always jokes about cucking people with. Imagine how bad it would be if I got turned on thinking about my girlfriend with it. *image of my girlfriend's pleasant surprise and sucking it enters my head and turns me on.* Oh shit, am I getting turned on? Think about something else!" Then later on I'll remember that it happened and want to convince myself that it doesn't actually turn me on, that it was just a coincidence. Eventually I think it went from genuinely wanting to convince myself to trying to convince myself being an excuse to think about that thing that turns me on most.

When you broke down the wall of reluctance to touch your friend's penis, on her initiative, and you overcame it when you inserted it in her pussy or "handled" it to get it hard, for me it was the height of your submission and the pinnacle of excitement and lust.
It's a shame you only hinted at it without detailing it, even if only briefly.

Surely other readers will be interested in finding out whether she did it for you or it was your initiative, and what his rations were.

A lot of the details were lost by not writing about it soon enough. Trying to write in the level of detail I was writing in would mean I'd put it off or not find enough time and then I'd get more behind with it.

To answer your question, initially it was her that made it happen and she'd been hinting at it, asking for it and trying to make me do it for a long time. I think once it had happened and it wasn't as bad as I imagined, I got a bit curious about it and more tempted to go along with it. He didn't react to it at all, which is good. He could've called me gay or something and I probably wouldn't have done it again. I think he subtly acknowledges it with passing comments at other times merged in with how it was his dick that triggered the fantasy for me.

I'm excited to know if she continues her foot fetish on your friend.

It's always there, I don't mention it because it doesn't really change or make much difference to me. She looks after her feet much more than she did before and I sort of associate them with him now. Apparently he's much more foot focussed when I'm not watching. She says sex is different depending on if I'm present or not. She thinks he feels the need to show off in front of me but is more present when they're alone. Since she said that I'll sometimes find myself imagining them passionately making love to each other while she's at his house. When I'm horny, I'll hope it's happening, when I'm not I hope it doesn't. I've asked her to take the hidden recorder with her but she won't, she worries about being able to set it up without him seeing. It just makes me think about it more.

[cpmici+]

Thank you for your prompt response; it honors you and makes me even more grateful.
I look forward to further explosive updates.
A warm hug.

[sucker00]

Anon,

So glad to see that you're posting again. I have a question that I'm not sure has been asked.... has there been any gradual change in the dynamic of the relationship between your gf and friend? I know they're getting it on pretty frequently based on your posts, but are they hanging out together casually any? Do they go out together when you're not around? Has there been any talk about her going on a date with him? I'm curious if their relationship dynamic has shifted towards anything beyond a FWB hookup.

[anondesires]

Anon,

So glad to see that you're posting again. I have a question that I'm not sure has been asked.... has there been any gradual change in the dynamic of the relationship between your gf and friend? I know they're getting it on pretty frequently based on your posts, but are they hanging out together casually any? Do they go out together when you're not around? Has there been any talk about her going on a date with him? I'm curious if their relationship dynamic has shifted towards anything beyond a FWB hookup.

They have gotten very comfortable with each other. At the start there was some awkwardness, he would come over, they would go upstairs and there would be slight awkwardness while they were getting into the mood. Nowadays it's much more casual and comfortable, they usually start downstairs, nearly always with her taking out his cock and sucking on it. Sometimes he and I will be having a conversation and she'll start sucking him while we're talking. Sometimes it'll turn into fucking downstairs, sometimes they'll go upstairs first.

She goes over to his once or twice a week. This used to be a quick after work thing, she'd be back by dinner. This gradually became her having dinner at his and showering at his before sex. I don't think they have much in common apart from me and sex so I don't overly worry about that side of things. My mind does conjure up images of them making love to each other and laying in bed cuddling etc. I don't know if this happens, I've not asked directly but she's implied that it doesn't happen. She does say she spends a lot of time sucking his cock and I can believe that.

AFAIK, there have been no dates or anything other than meeting for sex. We both agree we want to keep it that way and there's not been any talk or signs of it being otherwise.

[DoctorLuv]

Anon,

So glad to see that you're posting again. I have a question that I'm not sure has been asked.... has there been any gradual change in the dynamic of the relationship between your gf and friend? I know they're getting it on pretty frequently based on your posts, but are they hanging out together casually any? Do they go out together when you're not around? Has there been any talk about her going on a date with him? I'm curious if their relationship dynamic has shifted towards anything beyond a FWB hookup.

They have gotten very comfortable with each other. At the start there was some awkwardness, he would come over, they would go upstairs and there would be slight awkwardness while they were getting into the mood. Nowadays it's much more casual and comfortable, they usually start downstairs, nearly always with her taking out his cock and sucking on it. Sometimes he and I will be having a conversation and she'll start sucking him while we're talking. Sometimes it'll turn into fucking downstairs, sometimes they'll go upstairs first.

She goes over to his once or twice a week. This used to be a quick after work thing, she'd be back by dinner. This gradually became her having dinner at his and showering at his before sex. I don't think they have much in common apart from me and sex so I don't overly worry about that side of things. My mind does conjure up images of them making love to each other and laying in bed cuddling etc. I don't know if this happens, I've not asked directly but she's implied that it doesn't happen. She does say she spends a lot of time sucking his cock and I can believe that.

AFAIK, there have been no dates or anything other than meeting for sex. We both agree we want to keep it that way and there's not been any talk or signs of it being otherwise.

I think that it’s great that your relationship has seemed to reach an equilibrium between the three of you. I can believe that your girlfriend has much more of an emotional connection with you than your friend. I hope your relationship between the 3 of you can continue as it presently exists. I think it would be a red flag if she quits involving you in her sexuality whether that be with your Friend or someone new. I only say that because what you have posted makes me think that is true. I wouldn’t second-guess you or presume to know yourself or your relationships with both your girlfriend and your friend better than you do. From what you just posted, it seems like your girlfriend has quit trying to push your boundaries. I hope she can remain content with the relationship between the three of you as it currently exists.

[Watchinu69]

Anondesires, Any updates the past week? Love to hear more, thx

[coastalkid]

Anon,

So glad to see that you're posting again. I have a question that I'm not sure has been asked.... has there been any gradual change in the dynamic of the relationship between your gf and friend? I know they're getting it on pretty frequently based on your posts, but are they hanging out together casually any? Do they go out together when you're not around? Has there been any talk about her going on a date with him? I'm curious if their relationship dynamic has shifted towards anything beyond a FWB hookup.

They have gotten very comfortable with each other. At the start there was some awkwardness, he would come over, they would go upstairs and there would be slight awkwardness while they were getting into the mood. Nowadays it's much more casual and comfortable, they usually start downstairs, nearly always with her taking out his cock and sucking on it. Sometimes he and I will be having a conversation and she'll start sucking him while we're talking. Sometimes it'll turn into fucking downstairs, sometimes they'll go upstairs first.

She goes over to his once or twice a week. This used to be a quick after work thing, she'd be back by dinner. This gradually became her having dinner at his and showering at his before sex. I don't think they have much in common apart from me and sex so I don't overly worry about that side of things. My mind does conjure up images of them making love to each other and laying in bed cuddling etc. I don't know if this happens, I've not asked directly but she's implied that it doesn't happen. She does say she spends a lot of time sucking his cock and I can believe that.

AFAIK, there have been no dates or anything other than meeting for sex. We both agree we want to keep it that way and there's not been any talk or signs of it being otherwise.

I'm also glad that you're posting, thank you.

Is it a conscious decision by both of you to focus on the sex and restrict things that build a relationship with this guy? I understand that a certain comfort level with each other is an important thing. I can also understand that by you not being there to see everything that some things are left to your imagination, which could be good or bad. What does your gf share in terms of details with you other than she sucks his cock a lot?

[anondesires]

Anondesires, Any updates the past week? Love to hear more, thx

There was something on Friday with someone she found online but I've been struggling to write about it.

Is it a conscious decision by both of you to focus on the sex and restrict things that build a relationship with this guy?

Yes and no. It's been something we talk about avoiding and we discuss it if I ever worry they're getting too close or I feel out of the loop. I think we're lucky that they don't seem to naturally drift in that direction. They are very comfortable with each other, they almost look like a couple sometimes which evokes a range of emotions.

What does your gf share in terms of details with you other than she sucks his cock a lot?

All sorts of details, all fairly normal, nothing particularly noteworthy. She likes to tell me things while we're having sex and watch me squirm as I try not to cum.

[wannabecUKold]

Thank you for the update, Anon. We look forward to hearing about the guy online.

Are you still present and involved with your girlfriend and your best friend when they are having sex? For instance you were holding his cock and placing in her pussy.

[WillSheDoIt]

Please keep us updated Anon. Love this thread!

[anondesires]

Apart from the regular meetups with my friend, there haven't been many other episodes with other guys. She's always talking to different guys she finds online, she'll show me the odd photo and tease me about it but most of them end up being time wasters or fizzle out for various reasons. There have been a couple that we've waited around at a meeting place and eventually given up on, there have been a couple that have cancelled last minute.

It actually happened with one of them a few weeks ago but he didn't want me to be present. I drove her to a bar they agreed to meet at, I waited in the car outside for maybe an hour and then she messaged me to say all was good and that they were going back to his place. She messaged me his address, I drove there and waited around the corner for a couple of hours. It was a long and awkward wait, it was a built up area so I was aware I might be seen. She gave me the less sexual details on the drive home and the more erotic details while I was eating her pussy back home. She said it was fun but they didn't have much of a connection, the sex was average.

There was another episode when we were out in town. She got hit on by some guy at the bar, she messaged me to ask if she could go back to his. I said she could. He assumed she was single and didn't know about me. I followed at a distance to the car park and then followed in the car except they didn't leave the car park. He drove to a dark corner, I reparked where I could just about see his car and waited for half an hour or so. He then drove back towards where we came from and she got out of the car. She said his dick wasn't much bigger than mine and felt guilty about that. She gave him a blowjob and swallowed his load. She said he tried to stop her from making him cum, he wanted to fuck her but she wasn't feeling it and saw making him cum as an easy way to finish up. I expected her to be her usual self by kissing me and rubbing my face in it but she was quite reserved about that one, maybe because of guilt, maybe it just felt like a seedy experience.

Last week she was messaging some guy which wasn't unusual. She said he wanted to meet on Friday, I assumed it might not happen. She said I could not only be present for this one but he was happy for me to suck his cock. Again, this wasn't unusual. I feel like it's in her first 5 questions to these guys. As with previous times, I told her I wasn't up for that but she continued to tease anyway.

Friday came around, I was surprised that it still seemed to be going ahead. They had arranged to meet at a hotel halfway between us. He had booked a room there and we met for dinner at the hotel restaurant. I had seen a photo of him but I think that photo was old and on a good day. He wasn't ugly but was 44 and wasn't exactly in our league. As we sat down to dinner, I assumed we would stay out of politeness and then find a way to call it off.

He was very confident, charismatic and "gentlemanly". I felt like if I was him, sat with a beautiful girl 20 years younger, I'd feel like I was being interviewed for some golden opportunity. He didn't seem like that at all. He paid compliments to her at the right moments but didn't dwell on it, he made it seem like he was helping us out with an experience. It was like he did this all the time and she was as attractive as the rest. He asked about my fantasies, I played it down, said it was mostly for her and it was just something we were experimenting with. He accepted that and nothing more was said about it. They were both talking about things like they were about to happen but I still assumed that she was going to abandon at some point. This seems to be normal for me, to assume that nothing will happen and convince myself that I don't want anything to happen.

Dinner ended, he paid the bill and invited us to his room. I was looking at her, expecting her to find a way out but she looked happy and followed him to the elevator. As we stood in the elevator, them facing each other, I looked at him and started to panic that he might actually fuck her. I was convinced that I didn't want him to. We got to his hotel room and she went to the toilet, leaving us awkwardly waiting for her. He took off his shirt and sat on the end of the bed waiting for her, he was in good shape, not body builder but toned. I took a seat in the cuck chair thinking that I would just play it cool, watch whatever unfolds, not give him the satisfaction of thinking I was getting off on it or anything. When she came back, she gestured to him to unzip her dress, he did so and then she turned around and undid his belt and jeans and took out his cock. I watched as she kneeled in front of him and her hands caressed his cock. His cock stiffened as she handled it. His cock wasn't overly long, maybe 7" but it was thick and had a big head on it.

As I watched, I felt the conflict begin in my head. My mind suggested the thought of her sucking on it, I wanted to see it but I didn't want it to happen. Then the horny thoughts started to win and I found myself willing her to suck it. When she eventually took it in her mouth, I felt rewarded, like she'd scored a goal. I realised how good it felt and realised how much of a cuck I was, willing her on like that and feeling that good about her cucking me. My dick was hard and I was hesitantly stroking as I watched. He reached down and took off her bra. She eventually looked my way and saw me stroking my cock as she sucked and then she beckoned me over.

I joined her kneeling on the floor, we made out for a bit and she continued sucking. While she was sucking, I put my hand on his cock. It's difficult to explain what I was thinking, I felt a sort of respect for his cock. I think partly because he was older but also because it was bigger, thicker and generally a better model of a cock than my own. Seeing her suck it looked so satisfying and seductive. I remember thinking that she'll be wanting me to suck it but I was determined that I wouldn't, I remember reminding myself not to and thinking that I shouldn't have to remind myself not to do something so ridiculous.

After a few times of us making out, he started to get more involved, he had his hand on her head and hair and pulled her from me and onto his cock and then returned her to me. I think the following time or time after his cock brushed my lips as he pushed it into her mouth, I panicked a bit, reminded myself it didn't matter, that he was a stranger and was quickly interrupted by her making out with me again. This progressed to him pushing his cock into our kissing, sometimes going through the middle, sometimes entering her mouth. One of the times I think he tried to push into my mouth and it sort of went inside my cheek and he pulled out and went back to her mouth. I panicked again and it was at this point I realised she was jerking me off. This went on for a while, probably 30 minutes or more, gradually ramping up. Every time his cock touched my mouth, she would smile or giggle. Her hand on my cock was making me hornier and more submissive, I was enjoying making her happy and it didn't feel wrong, it felt like what I was supposed to do, the horny fog had manipulated my judgement.

Touching tongues turned into our tongues on his cock which eventually became the head of his cock in my mouth. This shocked me even though the act wasn't a surprise. My mouth was so stretched, I felt so violated, I immediately pulled away. She was looking at me as happy as could be. I guess I felt like I had failed but also I think there was something about that violated feeling I wanted again. The next time he pushed my way I took it in my mouth and held it there, I think he was thrusting gently. I felt violated but it felt strangely good, her hand stroking my cock made sure of that. She was giving words of encouragement and appreciation like "that's so hot!", I think she was touching herself with her other hand. Lots of thoughts flashed through my head, wondering if I was doing it right, if it felt good for him. I considered the eventuality of him cumming and I think that snapped me into thoughts of shame and I pulled away. She made out with me as passionately as she ever has and gave more words of appreciation.

They got onto the bed and he put a condom on. I stayed on the floor, realising what I had just done and how the playing it cool plan really hadn't worked. I couldn't help but watch and jerk off as he penetrated her. I could sort of remember how I would've felt like a year ago if I had have been subjected to watching this, I would've been horrified. That seemed like a distant memory, like immature thoughts of sex being gross from being a child. Watching her take his dick, the pleasure on her face, it all felt like pleasure that I'd been missing out on before.

Eventually he told her to get onto her knees and he pulled the condom off. He jerked his dick in front of her face and then unloaded into her mouth. She then squeezed out every last drop which was hot as fuck and satisfying to watch despite knowing what comes next. She then came over to me, still sat on the floor. She hovered above my face, waiting for me to open my mouth and then dropped it all in, we then made out again. He offered for us to use the bed while he went for a shower. We made love, she was so excited and grateful for everything. She teased me a bit and I came.

[Jeremie11231]

I'm so happy for you. And for your girlfriend. She must be so happy. I do think it is a genuinely very good thing (separately from it just being hot). It sounds like you really just needed it to happen with someone other than your friend, to make it easier and less complicated. But the feelings you had while it was happening, well... it sounds like you were experiencing the relief of giving in to where this has been leading all along. I think you've been doing the right thing to resist and to take it slow -- slow enough to let yourself adjust and process. But you're also letting your girlfriend guide you closer to things she knows about you better than you wish she did. Based on all your descriptions, it sounds like really a good thing happening between the two of you, and there can be so much more ahead.

[octavian]

A highly erotic account anondesires.

[elina]

Thanks for sharing Anon.

I think it is wonderful that you are gradually accepting the inevitable.
Clearly this is what your Girlfriend wants for you and it is good to see that She is rewarding you as you make progress.

I hope the two of you have had several good conversations on this incident later and would love to hear about those.

Has She made arrangements for more meetups with this guy?

Sincerely
elina

[bham87uk2]

Apart from the regular meetups with my friend, there haven't been many other episodes with other guys. She's always talking to different guys she finds online, she'll show me the odd photo and tease me about it but most of them end up being time wasters or fizzle out for various reasons. There have been a couple that we've waited around at a meeting place and eventually given up on, there have been a couple that have cancelled last minute.

It actually happened with one of them a few weeks ago but he didn't want me to be present. I drove her to a bar they agreed to meet at, I waited in the car outside for maybe an hour and then she messaged me to say all was good and that they were going back to his place. She messaged me his address, I drove there and waited around the corner for a couple of hours. It was a long and awkward wait, it was a built up area so I was aware I might be seen. She gave me the less sexual details on the drive home and the more erotic details while I was eating her pussy back home. She said it was fun but they didn't have much of a connection, the sex was average.

There was another episode when we were out in town. She got hit on by some guy at the bar, she messaged me to ask if she could go back to his. I said she could. He assumed she was single and didn't know about me. I followed at a distance to the car park and then followed in the car except they didn't leave the car park. He drove to a dark corner, I reparked where I could just about see his car and waited for half an hour or so. He then drove back towards where we came from and she got out of the car. She said his dick wasn't much bigger than mine and felt guilty about that. She gave him a blowjob and swallowed his load. She said he tried to stop her from making him cum, he wanted to fuck her but she wasn't feeling it and saw making him cum as an easy way to finish up. I expected her to be her usual self by kissing me and rubbing my face in it but she was quite reserved about that one, maybe because of guilt, maybe it just felt like a seedy experience.

Last week she was messaging some guy which wasn't unusual. She said he wanted to meet on Friday, I assumed it might not happen. She said I could not only be present for this one but he was happy for me to suck his cock. Again, this wasn't unusual. I feel like it's in her first 5 questions to these guys. As with previous times, I told her I wasn't up for that but she continued to tease anyway.

Friday came around, I was surprised that it still seemed to be going ahead. They had arranged to meet at a hotel halfway between us. He had booked a room there and we met for dinner at the hotel restaurant. I had seen a photo of him but I think that photo was old and on a good day. He wasn't ugly but was 44 and wasn't exactly in our league. As we sat down to dinner, I assumed we would stay out of politeness and then find a way to call it off.

He was very confident, charismatic and "gentlemanly". I felt like if I was him, sat with a beautiful girl 20 years younger, I'd feel like I was being interviewed for some golden opportunity. He didn't seem like that at all. He paid compliments to her at the right moments but didn't dwell on it, he made it seem like he was helping us out with an experience. It was like he did this all the time and she was as attractive as the rest. He asked about my fantasies, I played it down, said it was mostly for her and it was just something we were experimenting with. He accepted that and nothing more was said about it. They were both talking about things like they were about to happen but I still assumed that she was going to abandon at some point. This seems to be normal for me, to assume that nothing will happen and convince myself that I don't want anything to happen.

Dinner ended, he paid the bill and invited us to his room. I was looking at her, expecting her to find a way out but she looked happy and followed him to the elevator. As we stood in the elevator, them facing each other, I looked at him and started to panic that he might actually fuck her. I was convinced that I didn't want him to. We got to his hotel room and she went to the toilet, leaving us awkwardly waiting for her. He took off his shirt and sat on the end of the bed waiting for her, he was in good shape, not body builder but toned. I took a seat in the cuck chair thinking that I would just play it cool, watch whatever unfolds, not give him the satisfaction of thinking I was getting off on it or anything. When she came back, she gestured to him to unzip her dress, he did so and then she turned around and undid his belt and jeans and took out his cock. I watched as she kneeled in front of him and her hands caressed his cock. His cock stiffened as she handled it. His cock wasn't overly long, maybe 7" but it was thick and had a big head on it.

As I watched, I felt the conflict begin in my head. My mind suggested the thought of her sucking on it, I wanted to see it but I didn't want it to happen. Then the horny thoughts started to win and I found myself willing her to suck it. When she eventually took it in her mouth, I felt rewarded, like she'd scored a goal. I realised how good it felt and realised how much of a cuck I was, willing her on like that and feeling that good about her cucking me. My dick was hard and I was hesitantly stroking as I watched. He reached down and took off her bra. She eventually looked my way and saw me stroking my cock as she sucked and then she beckoned me over.

I joined her kneeling on the floor, we made out for a bit and she continued sucking. While she was sucking, I put my hand on his cock. It's difficult to explain what I was thinking, I felt a sort of respect for his cock. I think partly because he was older but also because it was bigger, thicker and generally a better model of a cock than my own. Seeing her suck it looked so satisfying and seductive. I remember thinking that she'll be wanting me to suck it but I was determined that I wouldn't, I remember reminding myself not to and thinking that I shouldn't have to remind myself not to do something so ridiculous.

After a few times of us making out, he started to get more involved, he had his hand on her head and hair and pulled her from me and onto his cock and then returned her to me. I think the following time or time after his cock brushed my lips as he pushed it into her mouth, I panicked a bit, reminded myself it didn't matter, that he was a stranger and was quickly interrupted by her making out with me again. This progressed to him pushing his cock into our kissing, sometimes going through the middle, sometimes entering her mouth. One of the times I think he tried to push into my mouth and it sort of went inside my cheek and he pulled out and went back to her mouth. I panicked again and it was at this point I realised she was jerking me off. This went on for a while, probably 30 minutes or more, gradually ramping up. Every time his cock touched my mouth, she would smile or giggle. Her hand on my cock was making me hornier and more submissive, I was enjoying making her happy and it didn't feel wrong, it felt like what I was supposed to do, the horny fog had manipulated my judgement.

Touching tongues turned into our tongues on his cock which eventually became the head of his cock in my mouth. This shocked me even though the act wasn't a surprise. My mouth was so stretched, I felt so violated, I immediately pulled away. She was looking at me as happy as could be. I guess I felt like I had failed but also I think there was something about that violated feeling I wanted again. The next time he pushed my way I took it in my mouth and held it there, I think he was thrusting gently. I felt violated but it felt strangely good, her hand stroking my cock made sure of that. She was giving words of encouragement and appreciation like "that's so hot!", I think she was touching herself with her other hand. Lots of thoughts flashed through my head, wondering if I was doing it right, if it felt good for him. I considered the eventuality of him cumming and I think that snapped me into thoughts of shame and I pulled away. She made out with me as passionately as she ever has and gave more words of appreciation.

They got onto the bed and he put a condom on. I stayed on the floor, realising what I had just done and how the playing it cool plan really hadn't worked. I couldn't help but watch and jerk off as he penetrated her. I could sort of remember how I would've felt like a year ago if I had have been subjected to watching this, I would've been horrified. That seemed like a distant memory, like immature thoughts of sex being gross from being a child. Watching her take his dick, the pleasure on her face, it all felt like pleasure that I'd been missing out on before.

Eventually he told her to get onto her knees and he pulled the condom off. He jerked his dick in front of her face and then unloaded into her mouth. She then squeezed out every last drop which was hot as fuck and satisfying to watch despite knowing what comes next. She then came over to me, still sat on the floor. She hovered above my face, waiting for me to open my mouth and then dropped it all in, we then made out again. He offered for us to use the bed while he went for a shower. We made love, she was so excited and grateful for everything. She teased me a bit and I came.

Hot af.

[wannabecUKold]

Dear Anon
Thank you for that detailed update.

That was wonderful. I am so glad that you have now sucked cock in front of her. As Jeremie said, it sounds like you really just needed it to happen with someone other than your friend.

This older guy seems to have understood the dynamic very well. He would be good for a return visit. As you say, you are enjoying sexual things now that you would have been shocked about a year ago.

[Jujube]

One of the most erotic retellings I’ve ever encountered on this site! Particularly when he moved his cock between both of your lips with both of your tongues caressing it. I’m sure your gf will want to see him again and keep making you her complete cuckold. That road is wide open, and you need to marry her! You’ll probably never find a better partner to live this life with. You’re hooked!

[realcucklife]

Congratulations on pushing through another boundary. Even though it’s just in your mind, your long held beliefs could never imagine you would do it, but pushing the limits is the appeal. The loves and support you both now feel for each other allowed you to get there. Well done.

[realcucklife]

Congratulations on pushing through another boundary. Even though it’s just in your mind, your long held beliefs could never imagine you would do it, but pushing the limits is the appeal. The loves and support you both now feel for each other allowed you to get there. Well done.

[vicg]

Thanks for the long, detailed update. I've missed reading those from you, and I'm glad the site isn't being as troublesome anymore (knock wood). I love hearing how excited she got when she saw you sucking a cock … that tells me that she genuinely wants that for herself (I suspected she might be pushing you toward that just to tease and mess with you).

Does your friend know that she is also seeking out other guys, or does he think that she's only cucking you with him?

Also, you said that when this guy filled her mouth that you knew what was coming and then she snowballed you. Has she ever done that to you with your friend, in front of him like she did with this stranger?

[cpmici+]

Wow, super exciting, very well described. She's made you break down another wall, now you'll have to enjoy this new reality with your old friend too.
I think it will soon take you beyond new limits that were unimaginable just a year ago.
I wish you all the best and enjoy it with your girlfriend.
Thank you

[Tryagain]

I am not sure I agree with how you guys are going about this. You guys are very young and the way your GF is going at this, you will pass the 50 guy mark pretty soon. Not to be a downer but you can get STDs orally as well.

I know I am different than you guys. I like to place ads asking for what we want. This way you can be sure the guy has a big cock – your preference - at the right age range – and an acceptable height/weight and ability to communicate well enough that may increase the possibility of a more long-term thing.

I think the thing with your friend is totally great. It is much more enjoyable when you know someone and can be more comfortable with everything.

Slow down – quality is better than quantity

[HusbandX]

The question has been asked throughout the thread about how this resonates, and the call was made for those who can offer insight, based on their own experience. I've no insight to offer and no experience, but it resonates. The original poster is one who objectively expresses what I think many feel, though a lot of us never make the journey. That doesn't invalidate the thoughts, or the desires, or perahps the fact that we feel some guilt or shame for them. From the inception, the original poster pleaded for others to talk him down from the ledge, help him on his journey, and bemoaned the responses which were mostly cheering him on, for want of titilation.

It's a road I'll likely never walk, though I've ben down it ten thousand times in my sleep, and in my waking moments, replayed ten thousand more, and in waking dreams. The reluctance, the fears, the worries and the concerns, the losing battle against temptation, and the internal struggle with morality, decency, propriety, and monogamy are no less real for those along the way who never set foot on the road, and I would never encourage, nor discourage the traveler. It's not my place.

I won't say congratulations or thanks for making the journey, but thanks for taking us along. I am impressed with the objectivity and insight, particularly for someone so young and so involved. There's a lot about myself I wish I'd discovered at that age, and wonder how the path might have been.

The desire to please his woman, stopping at nothing, despite himself, perhaps resonates as deeply as anything, and all the insecurities, worries and fears are well-founded. The unique ability of both partners to remain true to each other, supporting one another and allowing one another their space, is remarkably adult at that age and experience level, but helps those of us with some distance from youth, to identify.

I travel a great deal, and internet is never guaranteed; I save and record stories on my laptop for reference on the road. That includes this thread, in which I only saved the original poster's comments; one hundred twenty five pages of them, on a word document. I found them poignant, and will refer to them again.

I can't say it's clinical; the original poster's story is arousing and inspiring, largely for his self-discovery and his support of his lady, and the openness of what he's shared. I guess my long-winded nothingness is just to say, "thanks for sharing."

[_xavier_]

That's a big development, anon. Basically the one thing you said from the start you would never do. The limit you would never break. Even though you obviously indulged her in her playful games in private with the toy, and let her tease you and get almost there with you before. This clearly went to a place you never planned.

How are you feeling about that?

It sounds like in the moment you 'realized' that it wasn't really all that crazy or, for lack of a better term "unnatural" to cross that line under her guidance and encouragement. At least not with a man you didn't know / wasn't going to be part of your life outside of that experience. Do you still feel that? Or did shame and disgust set in afterward? Or do you feel some relief that the monkey is off your back in a sense? Maybe those fears of emasculation or embarrassment just got proven to be silly?

Did you talk about it with her afterwards? I mean I can only imagine you two have talked about it a bunch since then. I assume she was highly excited by it, the domme in her has been dying to see you submit that way for so long. But I wonder how it's been discussed...?

You shared a very wild experience together. I'm almost surprised that she went right back to focusing on him while you started there on the floor processing what had happened. Did that bother you? Did you feel happy you have her what she wanted, or a little exploited, or just numb? Did she say least help finish you off that night?

I hope you've had time to process things. I hope she didn't immediately start pushing you repeat that act of service. I hope she reassured you that it made her more attracted to you. Where are you with it all?