A slippery slope?

[SoCal Bosun]

Well. A bit of an update. This weekend has been hard. Cucks, it’s the biggest fantasy but reality is a tough beast. They have mostly been quiet but have had some contact. She is obviously having a great time with him. And they have fucked two or three times a day. And gone out together being “tourists”. He has been cumming in her every time.

She is older and just stopped her birth control as doctor said it was time. So that’s a big nerve wracking. I’m sure it will be ok.

I have had about three photos and two short videos. In one video she is on her back in his candlelit bedroom. Her legs are spread and he gently climbs between them. She softly moans and leans uo to kiss him as he is obviously sliding his cock into her. Her arms go around his back and she is just kissing him. He whispers something in her ear. She says something. He says louder. As he starts to fuck her. She says “I’m yours”. Louder he says. “I’m yours”. Louder he said again. “I’M YOURS!” She cried as his thrusts increase. Then the video cuts off. I am told i will be allowed a longer version tonight before I go to sleep.
You can imagine how this makes me feel. It’s like a cuck atomic bomb going off inside my head and body. The erotic tension it builds is insane. And I’m caged. Since she left. Caged since early Friday with no release. It’s totally crazy. I can’t explain it. Last night I was sitting a had a couple of glasses of wine. All of a sudden everything felt too much. I kid you not tears started to come to my eyes. Just with the pure intensity of all the feelings, tension and such crazy unreleased erotic energy I have been carrying around.

So I slept. In my cage. More successfully actually than the night before. Still woken up at 5:30 by a caged erection that wouldn’t go away making the ring bite so deep. And my balls are so swollen with cuck cum I guess.

Today she actually chatted a bit via text. Enjoying her last day with him. She admires that in the moment she dies want to be his, but knows he has other girlfriends and she couldn’t possibly be his favorite. And she says it’s nice to think of that in fantasies but in reality she is still mine. I’m not sure what to think of that but know she is wise.

And. It turns out. Yes. He fucked her ass. She was plugged for a bit then he took her. She said it was different to what she thought and pleasurable. But different. It’s her first time. So there we go. Will she ever allow me? I always wanted to. 20 years married and no. Maybe now?

I can’t even fuck her properly at the moment without cumming too fast. Now they have been at it a few times a day. I knew it would be hard but it is making me feel a bit inferior. I’m a good lover. I think. But. I’m gentle and passionate. It’s my style. These alpha type men tend to dominate women and they seem to love it? I just can’t do that. It’s not my nature. But she loves submitting to him. Ugh. I don’t know.

So there we go. They are enjoying their last day together. She was quiet but then said she was taking it all in. Wish it could happen more often but appreciates the time she has with him.

It’s hard everyone. I’m in a daze. Hard to focus. I had things to get done I didn’t. And couldn’t be organized. I did manage to work a bit.

So tonight I will go to bed one more time in my cage. Tomorrow I will go and meet her when she gets back and we have a hotel booked. She wants me to put my panties and things on under my clothes and meet her like that. Bring her whip etc. But she says she wants to fuck me. To reconnect. She knows it might take a few times to get me working properly but there we go. I don’t know how si will be out of my cage.

It’s an intense rollercoaster.

SCB

Oh. I will post the two pics he sent. He said i could.

[leander99]

What's this about you wanting to feel the sting of her whip?

Is that figuratively, or does she actually know how to handle a whip?

[coastalkid]

What's this about you wanting to feel the sting of her whip?

Is that figuratively, or does she actually know how to handle a whip?

I think he's being serious. He's into that.

[cpmici+]

Exciting, do you think she's accidentally showing off the ring on her finger in the third photo while the bull is penetrating her and she's caressing her wet pussy? Or does she want to humiliate you by telling you it belongs to her bull? I can imagine the butterflies fluttering inside you.
I wish you all the good you deserve.
Thanks for the updates

[Rogueuser1]

Hopefully the arrival back home went well and you two are reconnecting!

[SoCal Bosun]

Hi everyone. And again. Thank you for your interest and thoughts. It has helped me. Well. The weekend is over and as I mentioned it was intense.
Last night I met Becka in a hotel. It felt very strange at first. Well. I did. She was magnificent as always. I felt such submission after that whole thing. She went into the restroom and came out in lingerie, thigh highs etc. My weakness. I love it. And yes. It sounds silly but we practice a bit of BDSM. She put me on my knees and whipped me. It felt so good to finally have something physical. Eventually after teasing me with my hands tied behind my back she released me and I pleasured her with my tongue and fingers. She tasted so good. She came. Then pulled me up to her. We reconnected. I cannot explain his good that moment felt. It was as incredible as a moment can be. I actually lasted a big and eventually let go inside of her. After a weekend of intense torture and caging. My head spun. We kissed. I layed in her arms. Laughed into my pillow next to me. Just overwhelming.

We got dressed for dinner. Her looking amazing (actually i looked pretty good too ) and went out. Had a cocktail. And a lovely meal. Then back to the hotel where she met me have her one more time. I couldn’t resist but seizing that moment.

I still feel very much like her cuck and the beefy is coasting through me. There really is no going back. Her bull has been a gentleman, but, fucked and cum in her 5 or 6 tones over the weekend. I hope we are in the clear in a few weeks. He also fucked her ass. A great man. That she loved having the long weekend with.
She hinted it would be great to do it 2 or 3 times a year otherwise how can she be his if she doesn’t see him.

So right now trying to stabilize . He says he has more photos he will slowly feed me. I’m sure to keep my position affirmed. I will continue to update our journey as it’s interesting to report. Right now I suspect we will try to return to enjoy our deep albeit kinky connection. I’m a lucky man to be married to Becka. And even though I’ve turned out to be a cuck I think she feels she is lucky too. Best of both worlds. A dedicated husband and a hot stud to visit when she wants. Oof.

[elina]

Thanks for updating,

Really good to see that both Becca and you enjoyed yourselves and appears to be growing closer as a couple through the experience.

Sincerely
elina

[leander99]

That's honestly one of the most amazing post I've seen in this forum, or anywhere on the internet.

And I'm really jealous of you SCB

[Jujube]

Thanks for that wonderful reconnection! Don’t sell yourself short, I think Becka LOVES to have you as her cuck! She can confide in you about how she wants to be his whenever she can. I’m also interested in your dabbling in a little BDSM. I can imagine her keeping you locked and in panties and occasionally release you, restrain you, and give you lots of ruined orgasms about the totality of your situation. I think Becka ought to reciprocate and invite him down to YOUR place for a weekend of debauchery!

[SoCal Bosun]

Yes. It’s already on the cards so to speak. I offered him the open invite to come over to our home next time he is in town so I could thank him and make us all a dinner. I hope Im allowed that opportunity to be gracious. And Becka is already talking about wanting to visit again. Still lots of dust to settle so to speak.

[boobman987]

I’ve just caught up with this very interesting thread. I love your detailed exploits and how they affect your feelings.

If the new bull comes and stays with you and Becky, would you be allowed to sit in the cuck’s chair and watch? Or maybe even join in if invited?

[cpmici+]

I've seen her photos, they're very exciting. She gives her all to satisfy her bull.
Has she given him her anal virginity? It's amazing how she lets him have all the space in her ass. Was that part of the agreement between you?

PS: Did he accept your offer to visit? He must have enjoyed both the dinner you prepared and your wife's attention to him.
Thank you for joining us.

[SoCal Bosun]

It wasn’t really an agreement. He and she gets to do anything they want. It was his decision and she trusts and wants to fully give herself to him.

Regarding the visiting us. We shall see. The invite is there. But this will be a longer time in the future as he does not live close. Right now I’m just living the life of a cucked man. She constantly reminds me that I’m just a cuck now. But occasionally she still lets me have a day off so to speak and a regular coupling with her.
See how the future develops.

[coastalkid]

Is Becka interested in or has she shown any interest in finding someone local? What is your playtime like now? Is it a lot of teasing and the two of you dwelling on the (what seems to the successful) experience you had?

When you say that Becka reminds you that, "you're JUST a cuck", does she do anything other than JUST say it to reinforce the statement?

[newboy72000]

Ok, I really do appreciate all of your input and I'm taking it onboard.

Parklife yes perhaps you are correct, maybe it doesn't have to be all or nothing and I think that's perhaps the way it might be, at least for now. We spent the whole day together yesterday, I had to drive her around whilst she took care of certain things she needed too, we had a lovely lunch out together and we talked a lot. All day long by the way of her teasing and rubbing me through the panties she now makes me wear. So I told her that I really seem to be unable to make a decision. That I think I need to be able to have that connection still sometimes, but then when she turns me on and teases me about her man I get to the point I can't help but imagine her cutting me off entirely,, so that he is the only one. Anyhow, upshot is I'm incapable of a coherent sensible reply, which she has taken on board.

She is seeing hime again tonight, going to his house after work and staying the night. She is super excited, its crazy, she seems to never get tired of him. She just tells me she is really happy right now and how he makes her feel. She has packed another outfit for him, thigh highs and sexy top, so I'm sure they are going to be at each other like rabbits again.

One interesting habit she is now forming, is allowing me to enter her on the condition of agreeing to something. Yesterday during our talk I mentioned that perhaps once a week is enough for her to spend at his, and that even that seemed to be quite a lot. She just kept quiet and didn't really seem to be bothered by what I was saying so I was happy and moved on. But then, after a full day of her teasing me whilst driving, we stopped at the office. As soon as we were in the doors she came up to me and kissed me. She said if I wanted I can slip it in her. She turned around, pulled down her tight pants and lent on the desk. Then she looked back at me and said "but if you do and cum I'm allowed to see my boyfriend as much as I want in the week, without even a question or a complaint."

This woman, who has she become! She also knows that controlling, humiliating manipulating behavior leaves me so turned on and attracted to her. So there I was. She has done this in the past and I know from experience I'm never allowed to go back on any deal made. Something that I had "signed" for. I was standing there, hard as a rock looking at her like this, looking back at me. I mean what would you do? Is there a man strong enough to resist that? Even though I'm a man/ cuck of my word. Ugh. So I pulled out my hard teased desperate cock and walked up behind her. She smiled at me. I didn't say anything as I held my head at the entrance. "you know what this means don't you" she said.

"Yes Mistress" I replied. (she makes me call her that now). "It means I'm not allowed to object complain or say anything no matter how many times a week you want to see him". I give up. I really do. I held her hips and pushed in. I wouldn't mind but after a day of teasing I was in no shape to enjoy or savor a long lasting moment. I just quickly started to thrust but who was I kidding. I think I lasted 5 seconds and that might of been an exaggeration.

So there I stood. My mind turned into jelly once again at the intensity of the explosion, and now this.

I tell her I'm a little scared and nervous at the direction this is all going. She tells me that its what I have begged for and wanted for so long and now we are finally in this situation, and both enjoying it. I said all I can do is trust you. She said you can, I love you.

I had a hard night last night feeling a little low and deflated. These are the ups and the downs. She tells me its normal to have some feelings but she won't let them get anything near us. That she I very good like that. Becka is naturally a very gentle and loving person, always smiling, so I just have to trust and believe her. She said nothing will come between us so as a cuck again, just have to go with this. I really don't think this could all get out of control too much, I do actually fully trust her and I told her I'm in her hands. But it doesn't stop feeling nervous and sometimes scared and low. All the ingredients of the cocktail. It makes me realize that I definitely have slight masochistic tendencies, and risk is a turn on.

So there we are. That's now. She is off work in a few hrs and heading over to his. Another night trying not to jack off and feel too bad. But so turned on.

I'll stop writing now. And I thank you for your words of support and interest.

Why are you lying to yourself?
Looks like your wife will do what she wants and she actually doesn't give a Fuck on how you feel. Exactly same as what my wife feels. The great sex the other guys provide and all the excitement is too much for her to give up.

As you can still get it up, why just role playing and dressing up stuff not enough for you? Have you tried these options?

I know that it's too late for you and your wife is fully immersed in this LS. But one question, just one: are you actually happy throughout the day, week and month? Be honest and don't bother what people will say here.

Thanks for your input Timburkey. I don't think I'm lying to myself but then again one reason I am here turning to this sight and the community is I want an other perspective. I think you do make a couple of good points. I think at this point my wife will do what she wants. Its been years of building up to this point and we have talked and fantazised about it so much, it just seems to be finally happening. Now that she has found a man who is everything she wanted, and she goes crazy for. But I have to believe her when she says she cares how I feel. I mean when I get down and sad and frustrated then grumpy sometimes she has no time for it and tells me only good behavior will be rewarded, and that I'm unattractive to her when I act like that. But she does care for me and my feelings. I know it.

Is it too much for her to give up? I don't know. I know that she would not want to give it up now she finally has found it and having fun. It also puts me in a position of not being able to ask her to stop. Would she if I did? Perhaps. Would she resent me? Perhaps. Would I be able to stop having cuck fantasies and talking to her about it? No. I don't think I can stop. Clear my brain of this. When she has me teased and turn on I can't help but open the floodgates and tell her all of my fantasies. Like now I've gone and said it would be hot for them to go away together for valentines. She looks at me wide eyed and now has taken it on board. Perhaps this is a common problem. She says sometimes I'm playing with her head and that is not right, and I concede that.

Is role playing enough? Dressing up? No. I don't think on its own it is enough for us now.

I don't think its too late for us. I think this is just a phase in our life. She tells me me and our family is too important to her to jeopardize. And I believe her.

Am I happy? I get exhausted at this being inside of me. I have the most intense sexual experiences and releases. I do get down and sad. Handling the emotions. I'm up and down. I also am trying to sort our my work and get a good job, as she is the main earner and has been for years. I've been raising the kids and my career was put on hold due to her having the better option. So that gets me down and low, and I think it filters through to the LS. But overall I think I am. When we are together its incredible. She blows my mind and I love her so much. And that is all amplified too by the lifestyle.

I'm not sure I answered the question. I also am sorry that you feel that your wife doesn't care for your feelings. I hope through communication that can change. I really do. Don't give up loving her and being communicative.

[newboy72000]

Ok, I really do appreciate all of your input and I'm taking it onboard.

Parklife yes perhaps you are correct, maybe it doesn't have to be all or nothing and I think that's perhaps the way it might be, at least for now. We spent the whole day together yesterday, I had to drive her around whilst she took care of certain things she needed too, we had a lovely lunch out together and we talked a lot. All day long by the way of her teasing and rubbing me through the panties she now makes me wear. So I told her that I really seem to be unable to make a decision. That I think I need to be able to have that connection still sometimes, but then when she turns me on and teases me about her man I get to the point I can't help but imagine her cutting me off entirely,, so that he is the only one. Anyhow, upshot is I'm incapable of a coherent sensible reply, which she has taken on board.

She is seeing hime again tonight, going to his house after work and staying the night. She is super excited, its crazy, she seems to never get tired of him. She just tells me she is really happy right now and how he makes her feel. She has packed another outfit for him, thigh highs and sexy top, so I'm sure they are going to be at each other like rabbits again.

One interesting habit she is now forming, is allowing me to enter her on the condition of agreeing to something. Yesterday during our talk I mentioned that perhaps once a week is enough for her to spend at his, and that even that seemed to be quite a lot. She just kept quiet and didn't really seem to be bothered by what I was saying so I was happy and moved on. But then, after a full day of her teasing me whilst driving, we stopped at the office. As soon as we were in the doors she came up to me and kissed me. She said if I wanted I can slip it in her. She turned around, pulled down her tight pants and lent on the desk. Then she looked back at me and said "but if you do and cum I'm allowed to see my boyfriend as much as I want in the week, without even a question or a complaint."

This woman, who has she become! She also knows that controlling, humiliating manipulating behavior leaves me so turned on and attracted to her. So there I was. She has done this in the past and I know from experience I'm never allowed to go back on any deal made. Something that I had "signed" for. I was standing there, hard as a rock looking at her like this, looking back at me. I mean what would you do? Is there a man strong enough to resist that? Even though I'm a man/ cuck of my word. Ugh. So I pulled out my hard teased desperate cock and walked up behind her. She smiled at me. I didn't say anything as I held my head at the entrance. "you know what this means don't you" she said.

"Yes Mistress" I replied. (she makes me call her that now). "It means I'm not allowed to object complain or say anything no matter how many times a week you want to see him". I give up. I really do. I held her hips and pushed in. I wouldn't mind but after a day of teasing I was in no shape to enjoy or savor a long lasting moment. I just quickly started to thrust but who was I kidding. I think I lasted 5 seconds and that might of been an exaggeration.

So there I stood. My mind turned into jelly once again at the intensity of the explosion, and now this.

I tell her I'm a little scared and nervous at the direction this is all going. She tells me that its what I have begged for and wanted for so long and now we are finally in this situation, and both enjoying it. I said all I can do is trust you. She said you can, I love you.

I had a hard night last night feeling a little low and deflated. These are the ups and the downs. She tells me its normal to have some feelings but she won't let them get anything near us. That she I very good like that. Becka is naturally a very gentle and loving person, always smiling, so I just have to trust and believe her. She said nothing will come between us so as a cuck again, just have to go with this. I really don't think this could all get out of control too much, I do actually fully trust her and I told her I'm in her hands. But it doesn't stop feeling nervous and sometimes scared and low. All the ingredients of the cocktail. It makes me realize that I definitely have slight masochistic tendencies, and risk is a turn on.

So there we are. That's now. She is off work in a few hrs and heading over to his. Another night trying not to jack off and feel too bad. But so turned on.

I'll stop writing now. And I thank you for your words of support and interest.

Why are you lying to yourself?
Looks like your wife will do what she wants and she actually doesn't give a Fuck on how you feel. Exactly same as what my wife feels. The great sex the other guys provide and all the excitement is too much for her to give up.

As you can still get it up, why just role playing and dressing up stuff not enough for you? Have you tried these options?

I know that it's too late for you and your wife is fully immersed in this LS. But one question, just one: are you actually happy throughout the day, week and month? Be honest and don't bother what people will say here.

Thanks for your input Timburkey. I don't think I'm lying to myself but then again one reason I am here turning to this sight and the community is I want an other perspective. I think you do make a couple of good points. I think at this point my wife will do what she wants. Its been years of building up to this point and we have talked and fantazised about it so much, it just seems to be finally happening. Now that she has found a man who is everything she wanted, and she goes crazy for. But I have to believe her when she says she cares how I feel. I mean when I get down and sad and frustrated then grumpy sometimes she has no time for it and tells me only good behavior will be rewarded, and that I'm unattractive to her when I act like that. But she does care for me and my feelings. I know it.

Is it too much for her to give up? I don't know. I know that she would not want to give it up now she finally has found it and having fun. It also puts me in a position of not being able to ask her to stop. Would she if I did? Perhaps. Would she resent me? Perhaps. Would I be able to stop having cuck fantasies and talking to her about it? No. I don't think I can stop. Clear my brain of this. When she has me teased and turn on I can't help but open the floodgates and tell her all of my fantasies. Like now I've gone and said it would be hot for them to go away together for valentines. She looks at me wide eyed and now has taken it on board. Perhaps this is a common problem. She says sometimes I'm playing with her head and that is not right, and I concede that.

Is role playing enough? Dressing up? No. I don't think on its own it is enough for us now.

I don't think its too late for us. I think this is just a phase in our life. She tells me me and our family is too important to her to jeopardize. And I believe her.

Am I happy? I get exhausted at this being inside of me. I have the most intense sexual experiences and releases. I do get down and sad. Handling the emotions. I'm up and down. I also am trying to sort our my work and get a good job, as she is the main earner and has been for years. I've been raising the kids and my career was put on hold due to her having the better option. So that gets me down and low, and I think it filters through to the LS. But overall I think I am. When we are together its incredible. She blows my mind and I love her so much. And that is all amplified too by the lifestyle.

I'm not sure I answered the question. I also am sorry that you feel that your wife doesn't care for your feelings. I hope through communication that can change. I really do. Don't give up loving her and being communicative.