It might actually happen after years of telling me no.

[iwish]

Lana should view his profession and resulting access to woman as a challenge. To keep him interested she has to earn his attention. She's competing with the other women. At least that's how I imagine my wife acting if we ever went down this road and she found the guy that she just had to have more of. Again and again and again. It would be so out of character for her. But, isn't that part of the experience?

[tojanman]

Bump

[GuruTravelMonkey]

Sounds like things are phasing out again re: her lovers.
The timing was so good too, for teasing about pregnancy risk… playing games like having hubby wear condoms or not get to cum, while her lovers get full access. Just some extra teasing, fun games while you still can.
Tis a shame.

[Jujube]

I wouldn’t count these two out. Lana has an insatiable need for alpha lovers, and they both seem to love the cheating fetish.

[w770]

hey everyone. It's been a really tough time. Not something I really want to get too deep into at the moment as I'm still processing and working through my feelings and Lana and I are having to confront a lot of things as it pertains to our marriage, this lifestyle and future plans for growing our family. Without getting too far into it - Lana and Conner have been seeing each other without my knowledge. We had the standing rule of the 3 days, where she was free to do what she wanted and "cheat" but with the understanding that she would tell me about everything no more than 3 days. After I confronted her, her twisted logic was that she believed that it would turn me on when I would eventually find out.

The confusing, and perhaps hurtful part of it was that she was right and that in our hardest conversation about her encounters with Conner, she reached down my pants and my erection confirmed what she had thought. I honestly hate that I loved it, and she jerked me off while having me admit that I liked that she legitimately cheated on me.

But when the moment subsided, we talked about it more and we are basically in a stalemate. She hates that she can't resist him, I hate how much it turns me on. She confessed that the sex seemed better when it was behind my back as opposed to having a "proper" bull/cuckold arrangement and I frustratingly confessed that I agreed with her. But we don't know how this fits into our plans for another kid as she will soon be off any form of birth control but if Conner should feel the desire to be between her legs again in that window of time, she can't say with certainty that she would be able to say no. So in a way, we're in an uncomfortable place with the uncertainty of things.

Trying to focus on work at the moment, which I know is mainly a band-aid for having the deal with these issues, but it's what I have to do for now as the emotional roller coaster has been a bit too much lately.

[jmontagn]

W770 This is the never-ending story of having mixed emotions when your wife vows her love for you and then goes on to fuck others. One thing looks undeniable: you both love the idea of her cheating. The complication here is that you want to expand your family and Lana WILL CONTINUE to cheat while you are expanding it. This creates a sperm war; a race between your sperm and Connor's to see which one of you fertilizes Lana's ovum/ova. Connor could not care less about whose sperm wins because you will be the one who raises the child that develops in her womb. You need to decide whether or not you care whose sperm wins before the war begins. Are you okay with raising someone else's biological child?

[Pecannut]

That must be so confusing for you. On the other hand it is so hot that Lana is really cheating you and enjoying Conners cock and is helpless to resist it and of course hard since you were planning to have a new baby. Could you postpone the baby thing a bit?

I also think that it is so amazing that you two are so solid that you know Lana and you are staying together no matter what.

How long Lana had cheated you?

[tojanman]

Yes it turns you on to have her cheating. And yes she get immense pleasure from cheating and being fucked by Conner. But pleasure need to tempered by Discipline. Without the discipline to control ourselves, our enjoyments spiral into excesses. Abusing food leads to obesity, drinking leads to alcoholism, and cheating leads to broken trust.

The situation isn't so black and white. Just because it turns you on, doesn't make the cheating OK. You can safely play and enjoy the situation because you trusted Lana to operate within the rules, set both of you acting as team, which gave her latitude to ethically cheat. However if she can make unilateral changes to rules whenever she feels, then the trust and safely net no longer exist.

That's fine if you want a FLR dynamic, but if you want to be equals in the relationship then she needs to be communicating with you if she wants to change the parameters of the game. And not after the fact.

The problem is at this moment you don't know if she'll change the rules again without telling you.

[Pecannut]

That must be so confusing for you. On the other hand it is so hot that Lana is really cheating you and enjoying Conners cock and is helpless to resist it and of course hard since you were planning to have a new baby. Could you postpone the baby thing a bit?

I also think that it is so amazing that you two are so solid that you know Lana and you are staying together no matter what.

Also it is good that you know what really turns you on. Lana is such a treasure!

How long Lana had cheated you?

[coastalkid]

I hope you guys can get it worked out. Don't give up. If you and Lana really want to grown old together and have a family, you'll have to protect that dream/goal together. You still are in the literal infant stages of your first child. That alone has to have had a significant impact on every aspect of your lives together, along with responsibilities you never had before. The continued liberated sex life is the reward for other responsible behaviors.

Assuming that you would be turned on when you found out she was breaking a rule/agreement suggests omitting the need for confirmation. That sounds scary when that person is so closely associated with handling every other responsibility in your non-sexual life. That kind of unpredictability is dangerous and ripe for unintended consequences.

I hope you and Lana can get re-centered with some serious, unrestrained, "out of the bedroom" discussions.

[w770]

W770 This is the never-ending story of having mixed emotions when your wife vows her love for you and then goes on to fuck others. One thing looks undeniable: you both love the idea of her cheating. The complication here is that you want to expand your family and Lana WILL CONTINUE to cheat while you are expanding it. This creates a sperm war; a race between your sperm and Connor's to see which one of you fertilizes Lana's ovum/ova. Connor could not care less about whose sperm wins because you will be the one who raises the child that develops in her womb. You need to decide whether or not you care whose sperm wins before the war begins. Are you okay with raising someone else's biological child?

Well our position is that if she gets pregnant, we would raise the child no matter what. However, she has stated repeatedly that she only wants me to be the biological father. It's just difficult when lust takes over... Also, Conner has been cumming inside her pussy telling her each time "take it, Lana. Take my cum."

That must be so confusing for you. On the other hand it is so hot that Lana is really cheating you and enjoying Conners cock and is helpless to resist it and of course hard since you were planning to have a new baby. Could you postpone the baby thing a bit?

I also think that it is so amazing that you two are so solid that you know Lana and you are staying together no matter what.

How long Lana had cheated you?

It's been about a month. I noticed a text message conversation between the two of them after I believed that we made the decision to end things with Conner that made it clear that they had in fact fucked after I had left for work. I kept checking her phone every few days and they had carried on repeatedly on the days when I went into the office, sent each other pictures and videos when she thought I was sleeping, and the most hurtful - on our anniversary, he demanded to see her naked as I was waiting for her to finish getting ready for our date. Turns out she was in the bathroom sending nudes to him.

As far as putting off having another child, we're not really wanting to wait too much longer as the longer we wait, the harder the process will be.

Yes it turns you on to have her cheating. And yes she get immense pleasure from cheating and being fucked by Conner. But pleasure need to tempered by Discipline. Without the discipline to control ourselves, our enjoyments spiral into excesses. Abusing food leads to obesity, drinking leads to alcoholism, and cheating leads to broken trust.

The situation isn't so black and white. Just because it turns you on, doesn't make the cheating OK. You can safely play and enjoy the situation because you trusted Lana to operate within the rules, set both of you acting as team, which gave her latitude to ethically cheat. However if she can make unilateral changes to rules whenever she feels, then the trust and safely net no longer exist.

That's fine if you want a FLR dynamic, but if you want to be equals in the relationship then she needs to be communicating with you if she wants to change the parameters of the game. And not after the fact.

The problem is at this moment you don't know if she'll change the rules again without telling you.

You're spot on with why it hurt so much. The unease that the uncertainty gave me was the most unsettling feeling as I always felt like there was a sense of boundaries, that while Lana definitely pushed, at least I had the belief still existed, so the non-compliance with the hard 3 days rule was the toughest pill to swallow.

I hope you guys can get it worked out. Don't give up. If you and Lana really want to grown old together and have a family, you'll have to protect that dream/goal together. You still are in the literal infant stages of your first child. That alone has to have had a significant impact on every aspect of your lives together, along with responsibilities you never had before. The continued liberated sex life is the reward for other responsible behaviors.

Assuming that you would be turned on when you found out she was breaking a rule/agreement suggests omitting the need for confirmation. That sounds scary when that person is so closely associated with handling every other responsibility in your non-sexual life. That kind of unpredictability is dangerous and ripe for unintended consequences.

I hope you and Lana can get re-centered with some serious, unrestrained, "out of the bedroom" discussions.

Thank you. Every time we're in the middle of talking about things and I can feel that lust is taking over, our child would make some noise or do something that would sober us up. So it's been this constant pushing and pulling, back and forth lately that's been honestly exhausting.

[Bart77]

Let’s address the elephant in the room - Lana professes that she wants you to be the father of her next child, but there’s no way the thought of Conner planting his seed isn’t secretly turning her on. And there’s no way that he’s not going to try his best to impregnate her - it’s too massive a power move to not try.

[Bart77]

Safe to say Conner is aware that Lana will be off birth control and fertile again soon? And what’s the time frame on that? Believe me, once she goes off bc, they’re both going to track her ovulation cyclical.

[w770]

Let’s address the elephant in the room - Lana professes that she wants you to be the father of her next child, but there’s no way the thought of Conner planting his seed isn’t secretly turning her on. And there’s no way that he’s not going to try his best to impregnate her - it’s too massive a power move to not try.

Safe to say Conner is aware that Lana will be off birth control and fertile again soon? And what’s the time frame on that? Believe me, once she goes off bc, they’re both going to track her ovulation cyclical.

I suppose it tracks with the theme of today and how I've been feeling lately which is that I hate that the thought of that turns me on.

[Bart77]

I think it’s safe to say you’re not alone - it’s very intense and the ultimate cuck rush. When is she coming off birth control?

[tojanman]

Now that the cat’s out of bag, has she shared the details of their hook ups? Had Conner been escalating his control over her such as the instance of your anniversary?

At least she hasn’t been purging her messages with him.

[w770]

I think it’s safe to say you’re not alone - it’s very intense and the ultimate cuck rush. When is she coming off birth control?

We were planning on the end of the year give or take a few weeks. So basically any day now.

Now that the cat’s out of bag, has she shared the details of their hook ups? Had Conner been escalating his control over her such as the instance of your anniversary?

At least she hasn’t been purging her messages with him.

We made love last night and it was intense in a different sort of way. Like we both knew that we had just gone through a really emotional rough patch, rife with crying and confusion, and maybe even some anger. For the most part, we generally are pretty tame and sweet during out love making but last night was much more aggressive and she answered any questions I had as I thrusted into her. Questions such as "what else did you do with him that you don't with me?" "He loves fucking me while I wear my black heels." I thrusted harder into her, taking my humiliation out on her pussy. "What else did he make you do behind my back?" "He would tell me what bra and panties to wear every day...." I pounded her harder still. "Oh yeah? What else?" And this one really drove the knife in deep. "He made love to me." "what?" "He would make love to me, even when I told him to fuck me." "was it good?" "it was the best."

It was the closest I've come to making her cum via intercourse in years, as I went as hard as I could eventually reaching my own orgasm, with her telling me how I was Conner's cuck. It was humiliating and I hated and loved it at the same time.

[complexity]

Oh god... these updates.

One the one hand, its so fucking hot. On the other hand, her breaking the rules you guys set really sucks. I imagine it must be an insane push/pull of emotions for you.

[Lennycra123]

Hey w770, been following your post for a while now and living vicariously through your guys' journey. Was wondering if you could share some texts between Lana and Conner.

[venus-can99]

W - hope you and Lana work things out with regard to adding to your family. If her desire for extra-marital sex is very strong perhaps she can stay on bc and let the phase run its course with Conner?

[Bart77]

So here we are. It took 3 years of an intense, intoxicating, addictive sexual journey to get to where this was bound to end up - having to decide to cease-and-desist the lifestyle completely, or to step over the only line left to cross - letting another man impregnate your wife and raise the child as your own. Anyone who’s been following this from the beginning - as I have - knows what an unbelievably thrilling, gut wrenching, over-the-top, and even dangerous journey this has been. And here we are. I’ve read the comments disparaging Lana and coming down hard on her for “breaking the rules”, ignoring boundaries, etc, and they’re grossly unfair. Yes, there were rules, agreements, expectations, etc, but W has admitted repeatedly that despite his initial anger, disappointment, and angst, it all ultimately turned him on. Lana knows this. It adds to the intensity and heightens their sexual dynamic. This is an addicting lifestyle and W and Lana have been living in real time what the rest of us have only read about or imagined in our perverted little minds while jerking off. W, the reason why your emotions are on high alert - and the sex is different in a more aggressive, somewhat angry manner - is because I think psychologically - and perhaps subconsciously - you know you’re at a serious - perhaps final - crossroads. If you don’t completely and very seriously cut ties with Conner, he will - with Lana’s consent - get your wife pregnant. It doesn’t matter how much you stress that she can only fuck him during safe times; deep down she will think that ultimately it will turn you on beyond belief to see her body change before your very eyes because another man’s sperm is actively at work inside your wife’s body - her breasts are filling with milk, her hips and belly beginning to swell, and her face filling out more everyday with a beautiful glow - all because she spread her legs and knowingly let another man fill her - repeatedly - with his cum. And all this done intentionally - while both he and your wife tracked when her egg would have the highest probability of being fertilized by one of the millions of swimmers he left inside her. The reason Lana will think this, is because it’s true - you will find this hotter than anything you’ve ever experienced in your entire life. Lana knows it and you do, too. This experience is ultimately going to be devastating - at least short term - but nothing will generate the intensity or sexual thrill. I get it. I can relate to 99% of all the turn-ons, kinks, thoughts, feelings, and excitement that goes along with pushing the envelope the way you and Lana have since all this started 3 years ago. But there is no gray area or compromise that will hold now that you’re at the finish line. Selfishly, I think it would be an enormous turn on to read your updates and hear about Conner timing his fuck dates with your wife so he nails her during her most fertile times. It will be wildly intense for Conner, for you, and, of course, for Lana. But I think you need to bring this to a close and do so almost immediately. If Lana comes off birth control, I can all but guarantee she’ll be carrying Conner’s baby in the new year. Your call, buddy.

[Bart77]

I actually got hard while typing that…

[mundyman]

Well this sucks and I feel sorry for you W, and Lana. Sorry for you b/c of your conflicting emotions and inability to adequately deal and control your feelings, and Lana b/c she can’t control herself or the damage she’s doing to your relationship, trust, and marriage.

Is she dealing with a raging case of NRE or is she really in love with him? That should be your next questions while you rage fuck your wife; “Do you Love him?”, “Have you told him you love him?”, “Did you mean it?”.

You could put a halt to this lifestyle now and get yourselves both back under control and really work on yourselves and your relationship and your inabilities to control yourselves. People blow up relationships all the time with their addictions and inability to stay away from destructive behaviors.

The problem for you now is, do you trust Lana to do the right thing? Can she stay away from him while you are trying to conceive? Can you trust her to really break it off with him if he continues to reach out to her and tempt her?

Good luck W. I hope you guys work this out. Please keep us up to date.

[Coolcalm]

Well, I’m sorry for you.

[parmaham55]

Conner..Adam ... this is a rerun - same pattern of cheating and control. Even the selfies from the bathroom in secret. Enjoy the ride - Lana is a serial offender as we know and love.