New Here - Our Story
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Thanks OC
Great update.
It just shows P is the right Lady for you and you the right partner for Her.
She now knows for sure She is allowed to have som fun when She wants to and maybe feels a need to spice things up a bit.
And you know that Her first priority will be you, other guys are just some sugar on the cake that She can lick off when She wants to, and then you can continue to be Her cake.
Take care.
elina
Great update.
It just shows P is the right Lady for you and you the right partner for Her.
She now knows for sure She is allowed to have som fun when She wants to and maybe feels a need to spice things up a bit.
And you know that Her first priority will be you, other guys are just some sugar on the cake that She can lick off when She wants to, and then you can continue to be Her cake.
Take care.
elina
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Great update and story. Central Florida here too! Just north of OrlandoOrlandoCPL wrote: ↑Sat Jun 07, 2025 8:00 pmHi Everyone!
It's been a bit but we're home from our cruise now. Actually got home a week ago, but came down with the flu on the last day and the entire household was down and out. Everyone is feeling much better now, thankfully!
As for updates...I have a few!
First, nothing has happened between P and Jeremy. He'd clearly love to fuck her and she said he stares at her tits constantly. She's also heard that he told one of the other guy interns that his goal by the end of the summer is to fuck her. P also heard two of the girls talking and one of them hooked up with Jeremy. She said he had a nice dick and that he eats pussy like crazy. So, we've made Jeremy part of our fun, but nothing has actually happened.
On the cruise, we had a blast. This was our families together. Over 20 of us in total! It was crazy, but we had a great time. Very relaxing. P and I had our own cabin, so we made plenty of time for fucking too! Because this wasn't one of "those" cruises, nothing overly wild happened. And with so much of our family around, basically at all times unless we were in our cabin, there wasn't going to be a lot of time for anything crazy to happen.
Here's the only really fun update. On the next to last day, I was already starting to feel the flu coming on. I didn't know it yet, but I was feeling a little off. We were in port and the family all went off on an excursion. You had to take a tender boat and I just wasn't feeling up to that. So, P stayed with me and we lounged around for a while. I was feeling better and we decided to go up to the hot tub for a while in adult only section of the ship.
P put on this new bathing suit she had bought and she looked incredibly hot. It showed off all her curves perfectly, including a TON of cleavage. We almost didn't make it out of the room! As we were leaving, my phone went off with a text from my mom. Apparently when they got to the shoreside, they realized they forgot their excursion passes. I told P to go and I ran to my parents room, got the passes and met the kids (who rode the tender back over) to give them the passes.
If you've been on a cruise, port days tend to be somewhat slower on the ship itself. By the time I made it up to the hot tub area, there were four people in the hot tub. There was an older couple (had to be in their 70s), a black guy around our age and, of course, P. I noticed P and the black guy were deep in conversation, so I instinctively kind of hung back a bit. She was laughing at him and it was obvious he was having fun watching her big tits jiggle whenever he made her laugh.
I don't know why (or maybe I know exactly why!) but I gave P a quick smile and motioned that I was going to sit near the hot tub. I grabbed a chair close enough to hear them, but not so close that it would be obvious I was eavesdropping. They were just chatting and it was clear he was very charming. P was laughing at his jokes and they were having a good time. After about 10 minutes or so, the older couple got up and left.
After they were gone, the black guy said "I was wondering when they'd get the hint and go!" and P said, "What hint is that?" He replied, "That I'm trying to pick you up, of course!" She laughed her deep laugh and asked him what made him think was there to get picked up. He laughed and said, "I've never met a women showing off that much titty that wasn't trying to get picked up!"
P blushed and laughed and replied, "Maybe I'm showing this much titty for my man!" He made a big show of looking around and said, "I don't see anyone else around here! And if you were my lady, I wouldn't let you out of my site with that much titty showing!"
P laughed again and said "It's really not that much showing! There's just a lot to show!" To which he replied and said, "You damn right about that!"
P really started to laugh at this point and even from my vantage point, I could see her big tits bouncing and jiggling a lot. He was clearly enthralled by them and said, "I gotta know...How the hell big are those babies?" P told him to guess and he said, "At least a DD. Maybe bigger?" And she laughed and said, "Oh honey. I haven't been a DD since high school. This top is a 40F." He replied with a low whistle followed by "Dammmmmmmmmmmmmmn."
They chatted a bit more about a bunch of stuff and he finally said, "So who are you here with?" And P said, "My family...and yes, my partner." And she said, "Oh, so you're gay?" And she laughed and said, "No! My partner is a man, but we're a little old to be saying boyfriend or whatever." He asked where I was and she said "He wasn't feeling so good, so he stayed in the room for a while. He's going to meet me up here later."
He then said, "Then I gotta move quick huh?" And P laughed. She asked him who was there with and he said, "My wife and a couple of friends. This thing was planned a year ago during happier times. We said we'd still go and see if it sparked things, but our marriage is done. She went off to port with our friends and it's just better off that way. We've made our peace with it."
I'll pause here to say that neither P nor I ever found out if this guy was full of shit or what the deal was. He seemed genuine about it to both of us.
At that point, P reached out and kind of touched his arm and said, "I'm so sorry. I'm divorced too and it ended badly. I hope you can find someone like I have." He told her thanks and they just kind of sat there quietly for a minute. Then he smiled and said, "So about them big titties..." And they both laughed.
P said, "Yeah. I've always been big. Developed early, got bigger when I was pregnant and then basically stayed big. My partner really seems to like them, so it works!" And he said, "Hell, I LOVE them and I'm only seeing the cleavage bouncing when you laugh!"
P laughed, looked around very quickly to make sure no one but me was around (I had my sunglasses on and a hat on and she said it looked like I was asleep) and she smiled at him and very quickly pulled her top down and flashed him. I couldn't really see his reaction, but she said his eyes bugged out of his head and then he got a huge smile. He then pretty softly said, "Holy shit. God damn. What did I do to deserve that?"
P smiled and said "You seemed down. No harm in helping to cheer you up!" And he said, "Yeah, my cheer ain't the only thing that's up!" And P laughed and said, "Oh yeah? Is that so?" He said, "You're welcome to see for yourself!" She said, "I don't know if my partner would be ok with that." And he said, "But he's ok with you showing off your big titties like that?" And she laughed and said, "Well, touche I guess! I shouldn't have done that." He laughed and said, "Oh hell no. You should have done more!"
They both laughed, chatted a bit more about how the cruise had been and when things got quiet he said, "40F...fuck. They must be so fucking heavy." And P said, "Well, you saw them flop. They aren't light!" And she said she has been lucky to not have back pain like a lot of other busty women do. But that it sucks having to buy custom bras sometimes and things like that. Then she asked him, "How big is your wife?" And he laughed and said, "Oh she's all ass. Big ol' ass on her. But she's a B cup, barely. No titties. And I'm the rare black man who likes titties more than ass!"
P laughed and said, "Well, happy to have made your day then." And he said, "Well, all you really did was get me all excited. But I do thank you, even all I got was a quick peek!"
P said at that point she made a very quick decision after seeing no one else was in sight but me. She slid over next to him and said, "You wanna feel how heavy they are?" And he didn't hesitate and immediately reached out and took her tits in his hands. I could hear him say, "Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck." And then I heard P moan and him ask, "You like that? You like having these big titties squeezed by me?" And she moaned back, "Yessssss."
I couldn't see from my angle, but I heard her moan a bit louder and she told me that he managed to slip one hand inside her top and was tweaking her nipple. He kind of nudged her strap off her shoulder and got her whole tit out. At that point, she moaned even louder when he rolled her nipple. She then said, "I don't even know your name!" He laughed and said, "Adam. And you are?" And she told him her full name.
At that point, she said he leaned in for a kiss and she said she wanted to kiss him so badly, but knew things had gone far enough. She told him, as she put her boobs back in her bathing suit "This is fun, but I can't. Not here like this." Adam said, "We can go to my room." And P said, "No. I'm sorry. I can't do that, but I hope you enjoyed this! I have to go now."
At that point, I tried (and probably failed) at making it look like I woke up from a nap. And I left to go back to our room. I heard them talking, but walked away.
About five minutes after I got to the room, P came in. She looked at me very nervously and said, "Are you mad?" And I smiled and said, "Not even a little. Did you want to fuck him?" And she smiled a big smile and pushed me onto the bed, gave me a deep kiss and said, "You tell me!" While pulling my hand to her soaking pussy.
I asked her what brought it all on, and she said, "I've been so horny this whole week. So many hot guys in bathing suits. All the sex we've had. He was so funny and so damn charming! And then he seemed so sad. I knew you would probably like it too!"
While I rubbed her clit I asked her, "Did you like him feeling your tits?" And she moaned, "Oh God yes! It was so FUCKING hot to see his black hands all over my white tits!" At that point, she came hard.
When she came down, I asked her if she liked that he was black. She said, "I never really thought about it before, but when he was touching me, the contrast was so hot. I first noticed it when I touched his arm. It is pretty sexy!"
So, for the rest of that afternoon, we fantasized about P with black men. Adam, other black men, I learned she has a thing for Donald Glover! ("He's just so funny and cute! You know he'd be a good time!")
She also told me that in the time that I left and before she left, Adam asked where she was from and it turns out that he's also in Central Florida. He said, "If things don't work out with your partner and he doesn't wife you up, give me a call." And they exchanged numbers. Yes, they've texted a couple of time since we've been home, but it was very innocent and her telling him that we were all sick. He did tell P that he and his wife decided to separate and that he's moving out.
When we were sick, there was no thought of discussing anything. It was awful and I wouldn't wish this flu on my worst enemy. Over the last couple of days we've been feeling better and did talk about things. We agreed that it was awesome what she did and that we both loved it. She did say that as much as she wanted to fuck Adam in the moment, she's not sure she would actually do it. We have no idea if he's even still interested, but my guess is that since he's texted her, he is still interested!
I don't think anything is going to happen. He's close to us, but not that close. That is kind of appealing, because it probably wouldn't be any sort of regular thing. I really don't know where things will go. But I will say that in the last couple of days, we've had sex twice and Adam figured in both times. It's a fun fantasy at least!
So, there we are with another overly long update! I'll be back again when there is more to share.
K
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Re: New Here - Our Story
Seriously! It's only my opinion but I think you are SO much better off with P! P seems to have your best interests at heart. She knows what broke your relationship with D. She knows what you want but P doesn't seem to have any desire to do anything that will hurt you in any way. She'll talk yo you about it. She's made it easier for you to enjoy yourself without the fear of negative things. I'm willing to bet that if you asked her to stop and go back to just you and her (just as an example, not implying you will or would) she would wouldn't bat an eye and agree. The way you have described her makes me believe she loves you and wants you to enjoy and not be emotionally tortured. The way I see it you two are going to have a whole lot of really fun memories!
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Re: New Here - Our Story
Some updates on life:
Things are generally good. Just some life stuff, but nothing too crazy. My knee is back to normal, or as back to new normal is a better way of putting it. The really good news? Over the last year, I've lost 85 pounds. I'm off a whole bunch of meds I was one for stuff, no more CPAP machine to sleep and I generally feel great. My dick isn't actually bigger, but it seems way bigger!
P and I are doing well. We've had a couple of rocky patches over the last couple of months. I think I last updated a month ago or so. Just after Labor Day, P's ex-husband Tom showed up. Completely unexpected. Texted that he was in town and wanted to see her. Now, to be fair, she needed him to sign a couple of things (stuff from the sale of their former home), so that was his pretext. He knows we are together, but things were still awkward. I used to work with him and we had become friendly back in the day.
The day we met, not really thinking, we invited him to the new place. Talking about it later, we both decided that without talking about it, we subconsciously wanted to show off our new home and life together. Tom was a huge dick to P at the end of their marriage.
He was fine initially, but when I had to leave to get the kids from school and off to sports and dance, he openly hit on P. Told her that he wanted to get back together. And that he wanted to be in the kids' lives again. He went as far as pressing up against her and trying to kiss her. She pushed him away and told him there was no chance that was ever going to happen. Then he pushed her to "Just give me some head or sex then. I send you some money sometimes. That should get me something!" And she lost her shit on him. She berated him that any money he sends goes to taking care of his kids and it doesn't really do much towards that. They really went at it, and he eventually stormed off and left. By the time I got home almost two hours later, she was still pretty fired up.
Now, I will admit to our fight being completely my fault. She was telling me how he was staring at her tits the minute I left and how he was obviously hard and tried to kiss her. I couldn't help it and I got hard. Well, that wasn't the right response. Her exact words were "Not him. NEVER him." and she got really upset at me for even being excited by the idea. I then got mad because it wasn't something I did on purpose. That was our first full-on, knock-down, drag-out, fight as a couple. We've had little snits here and there, but nothing that wasn't over within minutes. This wasn't that. At one point I said I can't help being who I am and she said, "Then you need to get help. I'm not just some whore to fuck anyone that will excite you."
Things got worse from there. We retreated to opposite corners of the house and barely spoke the rest of the day. After the kids went off to school the next day, I said we needed to talk and she replied with "Go fuck yourself" which set things off again. At the end of it all, we went nearly a week of not really talking much. I slept on the couch in my home office. It was pretty bad.
Finally, I told her that we needed to talk or we needed to have a different kind of talk. I wasn't intending to scare her, but I had been here before and I didn't want to go down a bad path. That turned into a lot of crying, more yelling, but we were talking. We finally landed that we were both so scared of fucking things up that it was causing us to proactively lash out harder than intended.
Things are better now. Better than they were, actually. We got passed it and we're better for it. There's nothing happening on the cuckolding or even fucking anyone else front. And that's fine. If it happens, it happens.
To the other part of things that caused an issue...D and Michael's wedding is fast approaching. P and I were invited. Both as friends of the bride and groom, as well as sharing the parenting of D and I's kids. Weird as it may be, they wanted us there to be a part of things. Maybe to show off? Maybe to rub our faces in it? But mostly it seemed genuine.
I wanted to go. P wanted no part of it. For me, D is a huge part of my life. She's still the mother of my kids. We were best friends once. A lot of our other friends will be there. Our kids will be there. We've all made peace with things.
P said, "It's gross. They just want to humiliate you, and me as part of it. They probably want you to hold up her dress while Michael fucks her. I wouldn't be surprised if it happened in front of everyone."
I laughed, because the idea was absurd. And P went off. "Be a fucking man for once in your life. I know you get off on all of this humiliation stuff and having a small dick, but grow the fuck up and be a man. Don't let your ex-wife and the guy who stole her from you humiliate you in front of a bunch of people you know. Don't be such a weak wimp."
And all of that hit really, really hard. I let her have it back as good as she had given. Thankfully, this led to just a night of sleeping on the office couch. We talked it out. She wants no part of going and doesn't want me going either. We spoke with D and Michael, and the compromise is that I'll bring the kids to D and Michael's house on Friday, drop them off, wish them well, and then I'm going to head home. They're keeping the kids for the rest of the weekend. P and I are going to actually head out of town for the weekend. Her kids are going to stay with friends. So, we're getting away for three nights and then coming home Monday morning.
D and Michael are headed to Asia that Monday too. They'll be there until mid to late-April. I've already explained their plans.
Anyway, these fights have made P and I stronger. We just need to work on talking vs exploding on each other. Hopefully that will keep me from sleeping on the couch. It's nice for naps, but a whole night destroys my back!
A few people asked about Adam and Jeremy...
Adam still sends the occasional text about getting together again. But that one is done. He's just too clingy for what we want.
P and Jeremy never fucked. Never even had the chance. He lasted less than a month on his internship. He was constantly late, didn't care about the work and was trying to fuck multiple women, both interns and full-time employees. The final straw was about three weeks in, he showed up to work still drunk from the night before and fell asleep at his desk. That was that and he was done. P did say on his way out he made a big show of how he had "Fucked Lucy (one his fellow interns) and Melanie (a married full-time employee). And that Lucy had the tighter pussy, but that Melanie gave better head."
According to P, Lucy was kind of like "Yeah, we fucked. Whatever." But that Melanie was mortified. Having met Melanie, you never would expect her to be the type to cheat. P and Melanie aren't super close, but she felt like she needed to help her out. So they went to lunch a few times. For all his bravado, Melanie admitted that Jeremy wasn't very impressive downstairs. And that she only did it because he was very cute and she felt neglected at home.
There you have it. I think that's everything from the past month-plus. Nothing too exciting, but that's how life goes!
K
Things are generally good. Just some life stuff, but nothing too crazy. My knee is back to normal, or as back to new normal is a better way of putting it. The really good news? Over the last year, I've lost 85 pounds. I'm off a whole bunch of meds I was one for stuff, no more CPAP machine to sleep and I generally feel great. My dick isn't actually bigger, but it seems way bigger!
P and I are doing well. We've had a couple of rocky patches over the last couple of months. I think I last updated a month ago or so. Just after Labor Day, P's ex-husband Tom showed up. Completely unexpected. Texted that he was in town and wanted to see her. Now, to be fair, she needed him to sign a couple of things (stuff from the sale of their former home), so that was his pretext. He knows we are together, but things were still awkward. I used to work with him and we had become friendly back in the day.
The day we met, not really thinking, we invited him to the new place. Talking about it later, we both decided that without talking about it, we subconsciously wanted to show off our new home and life together. Tom was a huge dick to P at the end of their marriage.
He was fine initially, but when I had to leave to get the kids from school and off to sports and dance, he openly hit on P. Told her that he wanted to get back together. And that he wanted to be in the kids' lives again. He went as far as pressing up against her and trying to kiss her. She pushed him away and told him there was no chance that was ever going to happen. Then he pushed her to "Just give me some head or sex then. I send you some money sometimes. That should get me something!" And she lost her shit on him. She berated him that any money he sends goes to taking care of his kids and it doesn't really do much towards that. They really went at it, and he eventually stormed off and left. By the time I got home almost two hours later, she was still pretty fired up.
Now, I will admit to our fight being completely my fault. She was telling me how he was staring at her tits the minute I left and how he was obviously hard and tried to kiss her. I couldn't help it and I got hard. Well, that wasn't the right response. Her exact words were "Not him. NEVER him." and she got really upset at me for even being excited by the idea. I then got mad because it wasn't something I did on purpose. That was our first full-on, knock-down, drag-out, fight as a couple. We've had little snits here and there, but nothing that wasn't over within minutes. This wasn't that. At one point I said I can't help being who I am and she said, "Then you need to get help. I'm not just some whore to fuck anyone that will excite you."
Things got worse from there. We retreated to opposite corners of the house and barely spoke the rest of the day. After the kids went off to school the next day, I said we needed to talk and she replied with "Go fuck yourself" which set things off again. At the end of it all, we went nearly a week of not really talking much. I slept on the couch in my home office. It was pretty bad.
Finally, I told her that we needed to talk or we needed to have a different kind of talk. I wasn't intending to scare her, but I had been here before and I didn't want to go down a bad path. That turned into a lot of crying, more yelling, but we were talking. We finally landed that we were both so scared of fucking things up that it was causing us to proactively lash out harder than intended.
Things are better now. Better than they were, actually. We got passed it and we're better for it. There's nothing happening on the cuckolding or even fucking anyone else front. And that's fine. If it happens, it happens.
To the other part of things that caused an issue...D and Michael's wedding is fast approaching. P and I were invited. Both as friends of the bride and groom, as well as sharing the parenting of D and I's kids. Weird as it may be, they wanted us there to be a part of things. Maybe to show off? Maybe to rub our faces in it? But mostly it seemed genuine.
I wanted to go. P wanted no part of it. For me, D is a huge part of my life. She's still the mother of my kids. We were best friends once. A lot of our other friends will be there. Our kids will be there. We've all made peace with things.
P said, "It's gross. They just want to humiliate you, and me as part of it. They probably want you to hold up her dress while Michael fucks her. I wouldn't be surprised if it happened in front of everyone."
I laughed, because the idea was absurd. And P went off. "Be a fucking man for once in your life. I know you get off on all of this humiliation stuff and having a small dick, but grow the fuck up and be a man. Don't let your ex-wife and the guy who stole her from you humiliate you in front of a bunch of people you know. Don't be such a weak wimp."
And all of that hit really, really hard. I let her have it back as good as she had given. Thankfully, this led to just a night of sleeping on the office couch. We talked it out. She wants no part of going and doesn't want me going either. We spoke with D and Michael, and the compromise is that I'll bring the kids to D and Michael's house on Friday, drop them off, wish them well, and then I'm going to head home. They're keeping the kids for the rest of the weekend. P and I are going to actually head out of town for the weekend. Her kids are going to stay with friends. So, we're getting away for three nights and then coming home Monday morning.
D and Michael are headed to Asia that Monday too. They'll be there until mid to late-April. I've already explained their plans.
Anyway, these fights have made P and I stronger. We just need to work on talking vs exploding on each other. Hopefully that will keep me from sleeping on the couch. It's nice for naps, but a whole night destroys my back!
A few people asked about Adam and Jeremy...
Adam still sends the occasional text about getting together again. But that one is done. He's just too clingy for what we want.
P and Jeremy never fucked. Never even had the chance. He lasted less than a month on his internship. He was constantly late, didn't care about the work and was trying to fuck multiple women, both interns and full-time employees. The final straw was about three weeks in, he showed up to work still drunk from the night before and fell asleep at his desk. That was that and he was done. P did say on his way out he made a big show of how he had "Fucked Lucy (one his fellow interns) and Melanie (a married full-time employee). And that Lucy had the tighter pussy, but that Melanie gave better head."
According to P, Lucy was kind of like "Yeah, we fucked. Whatever." But that Melanie was mortified. Having met Melanie, you never would expect her to be the type to cheat. P and Melanie aren't super close, but she felt like she needed to help her out. So they went to lunch a few times. For all his bravado, Melanie admitted that Jeremy wasn't very impressive downstairs. And that she only did it because he was very cute and she felt neglected at home.
There you have it. I think that's everything from the past month-plus. Nothing too exciting, but that's how life goes!
K
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Re: New Here - Our Story
God the story just reminds me that the world is filled with giant backstabbing pricks and one is lucky just to find a few friends. Keep on keeping on my friend.OrlandoCPL wrote: ↑Thu Oct 09, 2025 10:06 amSome updates on life:
Things are generally good……..it. I think that's everything from the past month-plus. Nothing too exciting, but that's how life goes!
K
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Re: New Here - Our Story
Even though P's reaction was out of character it actually does say something about how she feels on an unspoken level about your kink. I would guess that it had a lot to do with her ex and his behavior. It probably reminded her of why she's glad to be away from him. Although it isn't entirely your fault as to your reaction to P telling you that he hit on her, your timing was bad. She was looking for you to support her indignation. You let your kink guide your reaction and that lead her to think about your obsession. It was more or less a perfect storm.
As to the wedding, P is blinded by the amount of undoing she had to do in the wake of D. P doesn't have the same connection concerning D that you have. She has memories of the hell D put you through. She clearly doesn't want to give D and Michael any opportunity to further ridicule the two of you.
P is and has been your protector and I believe she said, "Be a fucking man for once in your life. I know you get off on all of this humiliation stuff and having a small dick, but grow the fuck up and be a man. Don't let your ex-wife and the guy who stole her from you humiliate you in front of a bunch of people you know. Don't be such a weak wimp." because she wanted to see some progress on your part of being able to control your kink. She didn't want to see you react like "any typical kink driven male". The way you describe it, it sounds like she was frustrated with your obsession and wanted you to see how driven you are by it. What other reason can you think of that would have caused P to react so differently?
When P said she wouldn't put it past D and Michael to make some sort of public sexual display you laughed. I agree with you that they most likely wouldn't do that but P obviously thinks the worst of them first thing, reasonable or not. There's some sort of wound that hasn't healed for P. While it would give the appearance that all parties have moved on and let the past be the past by attending the wedding, it's probably best to let it go and leave D and Michael out of any conversation unless absolutely necessary. If P doesn't want to go and she doesn't want you to go either, then the smart move is to abide by her wishes. Hopefully you can have a conversation with her to discover the roots of attitude towards D and Michael.
I still trust P! I trust her instincts. These are just my observations, nothing more. I could be way off. If I am, I sincerely apologize!
As to the wedding, P is blinded by the amount of undoing she had to do in the wake of D. P doesn't have the same connection concerning D that you have. She has memories of the hell D put you through. She clearly doesn't want to give D and Michael any opportunity to further ridicule the two of you.
P is and has been your protector and I believe she said, "Be a fucking man for once in your life. I know you get off on all of this humiliation stuff and having a small dick, but grow the fuck up and be a man. Don't let your ex-wife and the guy who stole her from you humiliate you in front of a bunch of people you know. Don't be such a weak wimp." because she wanted to see some progress on your part of being able to control your kink. She didn't want to see you react like "any typical kink driven male". The way you describe it, it sounds like she was frustrated with your obsession and wanted you to see how driven you are by it. What other reason can you think of that would have caused P to react so differently?
When P said she wouldn't put it past D and Michael to make some sort of public sexual display you laughed. I agree with you that they most likely wouldn't do that but P obviously thinks the worst of them first thing, reasonable or not. There's some sort of wound that hasn't healed for P. While it would give the appearance that all parties have moved on and let the past be the past by attending the wedding, it's probably best to let it go and leave D and Michael out of any conversation unless absolutely necessary. If P doesn't want to go and she doesn't want you to go either, then the smart move is to abide by her wishes. Hopefully you can have a conversation with her to discover the roots of attitude towards D and Michael.
I still trust P! I trust her instincts. These are just my observations, nothing more. I could be way off. If I am, I sincerely apologize!
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Re: New Here - Our Story
Dear Orlandocouple.
Thanks for sharing both the good, the bad and the ugly.
I am guessing that both you and P now have developed true feelings for each other, you easily become jealous and you crave your Partner to demonstrate love and devotion; then add the emotional stress that P obviously suffered which set all of this off.
The good part is that you are able to get through this together and will then be coming out of it stronger.
Maybe you allready did, but I would suggest that you buy P a big bouquet of Flowers, write Her a nice card, tell Her how much you love Her and that She will always be the one you want to love and adore. Apologize to Her for not being able to live up to Her expectations after She had to put Her ex in place and ask Her for suggestions on how you can be a better husband for Her going forward.
Then accept that you are concious about your small dick and not always being able to act like a real man, and tell Her you know She deserves better sex than you can give Her and that you derrive pleasure from seeing Her enjoying Herself with Real Men because you can see how much She loves this.
Just my thoughts, for you to decide if it is the right thing for you to do.
Sincerely
elina
Thanks for sharing both the good, the bad and the ugly.
I am guessing that both you and P now have developed true feelings for each other, you easily become jealous and you crave your Partner to demonstrate love and devotion; then add the emotional stress that P obviously suffered which set all of this off.
The good part is that you are able to get through this together and will then be coming out of it stronger.
Maybe you allready did, but I would suggest that you buy P a big bouquet of Flowers, write Her a nice card, tell Her how much you love Her and that She will always be the one you want to love and adore. Apologize to Her for not being able to live up to Her expectations after She had to put Her ex in place and ask Her for suggestions on how you can be a better husband for Her going forward.
Then accept that you are concious about your small dick and not always being able to act like a real man, and tell Her you know She deserves better sex than you can give Her and that you derrive pleasure from seeing Her enjoying Herself with Real Men because you can see how much She loves this.
Just my thoughts, for you to decide if it is the right thing for you to do.
Sincerely
elina
Re: New Here - Our Story
P is right in both fights even though she was harsh but may be thats what you need. She clearly have your best interest at heart and she cares for the relationship she have with you. Set your priorities right, your kink ? D who always used you? Or P who clearly loves you and cares for you and the kids in every aspects ?
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OrlandoCPL
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Re: New Here - Our Story
Hi Everyone!
I'm not going to delay except to say that things are really good. P and I spent that entire long weekend together. We talked a lot, got a lot of things out of our systems and everything is great. She's very open to exploring cuckolding, but with some guardrails. Mostly, no one overly attached unless we both agree. She also made it clear that she's not going to be out fucking everyone. However, she does like the freedom to fuck someone if she wants to. So, basically, she's going to take control of things on that front. And that's actually really, really great for me. I think it's obvious by now that I want her to lead our relationship.
D and Michael got married. My kids said it was nice and the reception was fun. They said their mom seemed happy and looked really pretty. D was sad that I wasn't there, but she actually said "If P isn't comfortable with it, you shouldn't come." So, it all worked out just fine. They got the kids to school on Monday and headed off for their long trip around Asia.
The next part was a bit more shocking. P told me that she would like to see me suck a cock. She said she had a dream about it and the idea has driven her wild since. I was stunned. Completely stunned. But I told her that I appreciated her being honest with me but that I would need to think about it.
Over the last month or so, she's brought it up a few more times. I admitted to her that I also thought a lot about it and that I am kind of curious about the idea, but only with her there. She got incredibly excited. We talked through things and the more we did, the more we both got excited. This turned into P admitting a few more things. This idea goes beyond just me sucking a cock in front of her. P told me she's really turned on by the idea of feminizing me. Not full time, but she loves the idea of "making me look like a pretty slut" to use her words.
This hit me like a ton of bricks. I'll be completely honest: I was also shocked at how much the idea turns me on. Something just sort of clicked. I don't know what it was, but the idea of getting all dressed up and made up appealed to me in a way I never, ever would have expected.
I should pause her to explain that despite my weight loss, the one place I'm still struggling with is my man boobs. They're still pretty present. To the point that I've talked to a doctor and after testing it was determined that it's very likely a genetic thing. I could do surgery, but for now, we're holding off. As you all know, I had knee surgery and that was enough for now!
So, back to discussing all of this with P, and she got super excited to help me dress up. We had a weekend where all of the kids went and stayed with friends and the minute we got home from the last drop off, P said "Let's get you in a bra and some panties!" I had no idea, but she had actually bought a pair of pink panties ("Your first pair just HAD to be pink!" she said) and a matching bra. The panties were actually a little big, to which we both laughed because they are more or less P's size. But she has bigger hips and a bigger ass than I do!
The bra band was unfortunately a bit small, but P has this extender thing that she uses for some of her bras. Surprisingly, the cups actually fit fairly well. P was very excited about that and said, "I totally guessed you would be a C cup and I was pretty close. Maybe a D cup for the next one, but we'll get you properly measured at some point."
For the rest of the weekend, I wore panties (she bought three total pairs for me) and the bra (just the one). Even when we went out to run errands, I kept them on under my regular clothes. Of course, no one could tell about the panties, but I wondered a bit if anyone could tell I had a bra on. P said it just looked like I had a full, muscular chest. Beyond that, the panties she picked were WAY more comfortable than my usual boxers! And wearing a bra took a while to get used to, but I did feel more supported up there!
As far as anything sexual actually happening that involves anyone else, we haven't done anything...yet. This Friday, the kids are all going to be staying with friends before everyone heads off for Thanksgiving break. P and I will be meeting a guy she met on an app. He's fully aware of our situation and he's bi and experienced. He's very handsome and tall, as well. Assuming we all get along, I have a feeling I'll have a story to share later!
Because I know some will ask: I am VERY on board with this. P is over the moon about it. I'm excited to see where things go and I'm excited to be doing it with her. I also like that she's been pretty clear that she likes this as an "in the bedroom thing". For now, this is all just having some fun, but I'm very happy that it's just exploring something new.
More to come when there's more to share!
K
I'm not going to delay except to say that things are really good. P and I spent that entire long weekend together. We talked a lot, got a lot of things out of our systems and everything is great. She's very open to exploring cuckolding, but with some guardrails. Mostly, no one overly attached unless we both agree. She also made it clear that she's not going to be out fucking everyone. However, she does like the freedom to fuck someone if she wants to. So, basically, she's going to take control of things on that front. And that's actually really, really great for me. I think it's obvious by now that I want her to lead our relationship.
D and Michael got married. My kids said it was nice and the reception was fun. They said their mom seemed happy and looked really pretty. D was sad that I wasn't there, but she actually said "If P isn't comfortable with it, you shouldn't come." So, it all worked out just fine. They got the kids to school on Monday and headed off for their long trip around Asia.
The next part was a bit more shocking. P told me that she would like to see me suck a cock. She said she had a dream about it and the idea has driven her wild since. I was stunned. Completely stunned. But I told her that I appreciated her being honest with me but that I would need to think about it.
Over the last month or so, she's brought it up a few more times. I admitted to her that I also thought a lot about it and that I am kind of curious about the idea, but only with her there. She got incredibly excited. We talked through things and the more we did, the more we both got excited. This turned into P admitting a few more things. This idea goes beyond just me sucking a cock in front of her. P told me she's really turned on by the idea of feminizing me. Not full time, but she loves the idea of "making me look like a pretty slut" to use her words.
This hit me like a ton of bricks. I'll be completely honest: I was also shocked at how much the idea turns me on. Something just sort of clicked. I don't know what it was, but the idea of getting all dressed up and made up appealed to me in a way I never, ever would have expected.
I should pause her to explain that despite my weight loss, the one place I'm still struggling with is my man boobs. They're still pretty present. To the point that I've talked to a doctor and after testing it was determined that it's very likely a genetic thing. I could do surgery, but for now, we're holding off. As you all know, I had knee surgery and that was enough for now!
So, back to discussing all of this with P, and she got super excited to help me dress up. We had a weekend where all of the kids went and stayed with friends and the minute we got home from the last drop off, P said "Let's get you in a bra and some panties!" I had no idea, but she had actually bought a pair of pink panties ("Your first pair just HAD to be pink!" she said) and a matching bra. The panties were actually a little big, to which we both laughed because they are more or less P's size. But she has bigger hips and a bigger ass than I do!
The bra band was unfortunately a bit small, but P has this extender thing that she uses for some of her bras. Surprisingly, the cups actually fit fairly well. P was very excited about that and said, "I totally guessed you would be a C cup and I was pretty close. Maybe a D cup for the next one, but we'll get you properly measured at some point."
For the rest of the weekend, I wore panties (she bought three total pairs for me) and the bra (just the one). Even when we went out to run errands, I kept them on under my regular clothes. Of course, no one could tell about the panties, but I wondered a bit if anyone could tell I had a bra on. P said it just looked like I had a full, muscular chest. Beyond that, the panties she picked were WAY more comfortable than my usual boxers! And wearing a bra took a while to get used to, but I did feel more supported up there!
As far as anything sexual actually happening that involves anyone else, we haven't done anything...yet. This Friday, the kids are all going to be staying with friends before everyone heads off for Thanksgiving break. P and I will be meeting a guy she met on an app. He's fully aware of our situation and he's bi and experienced. He's very handsome and tall, as well. Assuming we all get along, I have a feeling I'll have a story to share later!
Because I know some will ask: I am VERY on board with this. P is over the moon about it. I'm excited to see where things go and I'm excited to be doing it with her. I also like that she's been pretty clear that she likes this as an "in the bedroom thing". For now, this is all just having some fun, but I'm very happy that it's just exploring something new.
More to come when there's more to share!
K
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venus-can99
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Re: New Here - Our Story
Wow OC very interesting turn of events with P ! As long as all of you are enjoying it is great to hear that P and you are exploring new frontier in your relationship and letting her take charge. Hope to hear all about the wonderful experiences that the 3 of you have this weekend
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Re: New Here - Our Story
Being feminized is not really something I get turned on by, but honestly, if it turned my wife on and it was something that we did in private, just us then I'd do it. I'd even consider the cock sucking if I knew it wouldn't carry over into non-sexual time, as in getting a constant bombardment of comment/reminders from my wife. Just for me personally, I like some teasing, but too much teasing starts to feel motivated by meanness and not sexual. It's easy to feel that way being on the receiving end.
It strikes me that when it comes to attending your ex's wedding, P wanted you to "man up", she said, "grow the fuck up and be a man!" Yet, P's big revelation is that she wants you to suck cock and dress up in women's underwear. You have to admit that is somewhat confusing. I would assume that P specifically was looking for an experienced bi guy to provide an opportunity to see you in action.
I've always felt from your thread that P has consistently had your back. She's always had your best interests at heart. She has stepped up to protect you when she believes you need it. If ever there was someone you felt confident about trusting, it would be her. Whatever you biggest fears or concerns are I suggest you share them with her. I would think the most important and effective guardrail would be honest, open communication.
From what you've shared, I trust P with your situation. I think you'll have a lot of fun with her. She seems to have a handle on being wary of the risks. If you do follow through and suck cock for her, you'll have a bunch of different emotions and thoughts to process. I think P will be there for you to help you do that.
It strikes me that when it comes to attending your ex's wedding, P wanted you to "man up", she said, "grow the fuck up and be a man!" Yet, P's big revelation is that she wants you to suck cock and dress up in women's underwear. You have to admit that is somewhat confusing. I would assume that P specifically was looking for an experienced bi guy to provide an opportunity to see you in action.
I've always felt from your thread that P has consistently had your back. She's always had your best interests at heart. She has stepped up to protect you when she believes you need it. If ever there was someone you felt confident about trusting, it would be her. Whatever you biggest fears or concerns are I suggest you share them with her. I would think the most important and effective guardrail would be honest, open communication.
From what you've shared, I trust P with your situation. I think you'll have a lot of fun with her. She seems to have a handle on being wary of the risks. If you do follow through and suck cock for her, you'll have a bunch of different emotions and thoughts to process. I think P will be there for you to help you do that.
Hope is not a strategy but it's still good to have! Especially if you don't have a strategy!
I get my denial the old fashion way, I married vanilla!
I get my denial the old fashion way, I married vanilla!
Re: New Here - Our Story
Dear Orlandocouple
What an absolute wonderful post.
I am so happy for both of you that:
A) you secretly wanted P to lead more, and now She is doing just that and you have shown Her you want to follow.
P is clearly the Lady for you!!!
B) Also now that She is more in the lead, She is obviously learning to love to have some sexual freedom and
wants to cuckold you in a loving way. So good to see that you accept this and have not been totally burned
by your past experience.
C) You obviously have to stop any thinking about a breast-cup reduction!!!
So good of P to take the lead here and I cannot wait to hear when She has you properly measured and sized.
D) I think you will discover that you really enjoy taking a cock in your mouth?
Maybe in particular if this is a cock that P has just enjoyed in Her wonderful pussy and you will be allowed
to taste Her juices of that cock?
Take care, stay calm, keep developing and accepting who you are,
and above all else; Obey the wishes of your Wonderful Queen P.
Sincerely
elina
What an absolute wonderful post.
I am so happy for both of you that:
A) you secretly wanted P to lead more, and now She is doing just that and you have shown Her you want to follow.
P is clearly the Lady for you!!!
B) Also now that She is more in the lead, She is obviously learning to love to have some sexual freedom and
wants to cuckold you in a loving way. So good to see that you accept this and have not been totally burned
by your past experience.
C) You obviously have to stop any thinking about a breast-cup reduction!!!
So good of P to take the lead here and I cannot wait to hear when She has you properly measured and sized.
D) I think you will discover that you really enjoy taking a cock in your mouth?
Maybe in particular if this is a cock that P has just enjoyed in Her wonderful pussy and you will be allowed
to taste Her juices of that cock?
Take care, stay calm, keep developing and accepting who you are,
and above all else; Obey the wishes of your Wonderful Queen P.
Sincerely
elina
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venus-can99
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Re: New Here - Our Story
Hope things went well on Friday OC. I know you and P must be busy getting ready for Thanksgiving so when you do have time to provide any updates it would be great.
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