Hotwife going out alone/why is it too difficult for me?

[flyinfast]

Hi flyinfast/Forgive me if I dont comment on everything you wrote.

I don't expect you to, but do appreciate the answers you do want to give. As I said what intrigues me the most is what goes on in your head. Your feelings and Reese's. Particularly that one about how you wanted to see what was in Reese's eyes and how that made you feel.

WE do worry about that ONE day when I dont want to come back to hubby. We talk about it all the time as a check and balance system for our marriage. But one thing that I always tell hubby is "why would I ever want to leave you when I have the best of both worlds".

Why would you leave? Because as you say - you get tired of having to play the game all the time, it's stressful - and you'd like to be just a normal wife, not a hotwife, with a man that loves you for just you, not for all the lovers you have and games you'd play. Paraphrasing a novel (The End Of The Affair by Graham Greene), if you let a bird go and it comes back it's yours, but if it flies away and never returns you never really had it to begin with. Even with all the traditions, companionship, memories, one day you just may want to fly away. One thing certain in life is there will be change. To say you could never fall out of love with Reese and in love with someone else... how can any of us be that certain of the future?

He tells me constantly that because of my lovers, he will always be on his A game with me.

Do you have to be on your A game for Reese? I suppose not as he's totally hooked on you. Can't blame him for that.

And for that matter will Reese being on his A game always be enough for you?

I am becoming impatient. I may call Marques, we've had too long of a timeout. I know hubby is hoping I see him soon. I just needed to take care of Michael for a while.

You know, as a guy, even as hot as your hotness is, I too could have fun with other women the very same way you have fun with other guys. Just fun, not the memories, companionship, etc. Just "the best of both worlds". Wonder if that would work to keep my wife on her A game?

If feels good to relax for a while like I have been lately. I was too involved with satisfying Marques, Michael, Hubby and someone else. ...

It's the contradictions that I wonder about.

[flyinfast]

If your wife was "in love" with you before hotwifing, AND she now gets to openly enjoy other men however she likes, AND said enjoyment causes you to up your game by an order of magnitude (when it was already pretty good before), then is she really going to feel inclined to rock the boat?

If your husband was "in love" with you before hothusbanding, AND he now gets to openly enjoy other women however he likes, AND said enjoyment causes you to up your game by an order of magnitude, then is he really going to feel inclined to rock the boat?

Why wouldn't it work both ways? Why couldn't a guy have the "best of both worlds", just like a woman could?

And when the hotwife's charms begin to fade, or she's tired of the "performance", would some hothusbands be inclined to trade her in for a new, younger hotwife?

[flyinfast]

To make a man go that crazy over me; especially a man that is my husband!!!! That is every married girls dream come true.

I love the feeling of losing to her lover....and then reclaiming everything back.

Losing to her lover v. losing her to her lover. Perhaps a distinction without a difference.

Something Mrs R and Mr. R said bugs me. Is anyone really following this or is it just me? (come on az you PMed me, spit it out man... don't be afraid of the people yelling jump.)

What's really going on? Is Mr R going crazy over his wife or is he going crazy over the wild sexcapades she engages in? Is being lost to another man every married girl's dream? No I don't think so. Is making her husband go crazy by fucking other men every married woman's dream? How does Mrs R feel about her husband's enjoyment of losing to other men or losing her to other men? Is that part of her dream?

Is it every married girl's dream that her husband enjoys losing her to another man? Or is it her dream that he go crazy over her and just her, without her having to fuck the neighborhood?

OK the quotes are out of context. But distilled down doesn't it sound just a wee bit crazy? But then passion tends to make us crazy. Hotwifing even more so.

Who loves whom the most? Mr R who gave his wife the freedom to enjoy other men? Or Mrs R who gives her most intimate self to other men to please her husband and drive him crazy with the pleasure he gets from losing her and then reclaiming her? Some kind of love that is.

Mrs R certainly enjoyed being ravished by Marques, but she also enjoyed the humiliation she caused Reese. And he enjoyed it too. Which would make me want to say WTF? How do you love someone and enjoy humiliating them at the same time?

But like the perverted voyeur I am I eagerly await the telling of the next encounter with Marques and the future Mrs. R has planned for Mr. R. A long while back she said she wanted to cuck Mr. R. She has and she enjoys it too. She enjoys the other cocks, but it is also that enjoyment of cucking Reese, juxtaposed with her love for him that is a contradiction I want to understand. The rose also has thorns. The agony and the ecstasy.

[cuckified]

Just to be devils advocate on this subject!As Mrs. Reese said why would I ever want to leave!!!!I don't see why you would...You have it all,as a hotwife you have all the fun,sex,romance,new love and the super husband waiting at home for you!!!!!!But what almost everyone on this forum tend to forget is,90% of the time being a hotwifes husband is not fun as far as the lifestyle go's!!!Being on your A game just to keep your wife does and or will get old after awhile!!!!reclaiming is fun,but something that should be there hotwife or not!!!The wife can get complacent because she is obviously hot,wanted,sexy and having more fun than she knows what to do with!!! It can be easy to forget how hard the husband is working to make the lifestyle fun and workable!!!the point being,you might not want to leave but there are two people in every marriage!!!!!That said I don't see to many marital problems in the future for the hottest couple in hotwifedom!!!!We love your story Mr. and mrs. Reese!!!!!!Thanks for shareing with us!!!!

[mrs_reese]

Well flyinfast, the look in hubby's eyes turns me on, to see him scared, erotically excited, nervous, embarrassed. All of that in a quick moment in time. To know that I have that much power is amazing. Maybe power is the wrong word. Maybe it's more like control. For a man like my hubby to take on that role is such a turn on for me in itself. He is so different in his career, as a father and as a husband. It is only in these hotwife moments that I am able to see a man who has lost all control.

[mrs_reese]

Throwing in all the contradictions is part of the fun I have being a hotwife.
Sometimes, I am trying to figure everything out as I go along with an encounter.
I am not a pro, I dont have any clue what I am doing at times. Other times I do.
Being a hotwife as compared to a non-hotwife is a contradiction to a vanilla marriage anyway.

[mrs_reese]

Now about Marques. I went to the gym as planned. It felt good to work on my butt.
I texted Marques on my way and he was very pleased to hear from me.
I told him how horny I was and that I wanted to see him soon.
He replied "how about now" and I told him after my work-out that I could see him for a few minutes.
He and I both knew what we wanted at this moment, but being the shy hotwife at times, I didnt want to bring it up.
I didnt want to go into his office b/c I was in my sexy gym outfit; I was not dressed and didnt feel comfortable.
We met in the lobby and he walked me to his already warmed vehicle.
We talked for a few minutes, he told me how much he missed me and asked me if I am still his hotwife slut.
I nodded yes and really wasnt paying a lot of attention to him as I saw his hard-on ripping though his pants.
He took my head and pulled it upon his penis. Telling me to suck it, I unzipped and soon I felt his orgasm filling my mouth.
I loved this moment. Being like that, being married and suprising not only Marques but hubby who had no clue that I was visiting Marques at that moment.
He didnt have a lot of time and I didnt want to really spend a lot of time with him, it was supposed to be a quick suprise for everyone including myself.
We planned on meeting next week.More intimate and possibly in a hotel room.
More later, time to xmas shop.

[blueduck1954]

Mrs_Reese, can you see my hard on ripping through my pants too...thanks for the hot stories

[reese]

Blueduck......................I read my wife's message at work.....closed my office door....went into the bathroom...pulled out the lube......jacked off my cock as I fantasized about what just happened to my wife! No matterwhat anyone says......having my hotwife crave her BBC and visit him at lunchtime...sucking him off!
That just rocks my world.....I can't stop thinking about it.
Last night....she told me what had happened..and we fucked wildly last night....but reading her words today....on this thread drove me crazy....I had to stroke it again over my hotwife!

[flyinfast]

Well flyinfast, the look in hubby's eyes turns me on, to see him scared, erotically excited, nervous, embarrassed. All of that in a quick moment in time. To know that I have that much power is amazing. Maybe power is the wrong word. Maybe it's more like control.... It is only in these hotwife moments that I am able to see a man who has lost all control.

Yeah, the power exchance aspect of it all.. But what I don't get is why that would turn you on, to see the man you love scared, nervous... It's a hard thing to try to understand that. If you love someone do you want to make them scared and nervous? Would I, a man that loves his wife, like to see her scared and nervous? Hmmm... in a way yes. So I can relate somewhat.

Why would it turn me on (and it does) to think about another man cumming down my wife's throat? Why does it turn me on to think about my cumming down his wife's throat while he watches me do it to her?

It's hard for me to figure out why those would be a turn on when they really shouldn't be. It's more than just the taboo. More than just the power exchange (I think). What's going on in my head? I haven't a clue.

In trying to understand you and Reese, I'm trying to understand myself.

In one of the other threads (in the hotties section) she texted her man and said, paraphrasing "come pick me up, but not for 20 minutes, he's still fucking me..." That just sent me over the top. Why? I really don't know, but very hot. On par with the Marques scenario. That was really, really hot. I don't know why it is to me, since I wouldn't like it happening to me that way, but it was hot to be an onlooker. Why does it turn me on? Why does it turn you on? Why Reese? I don't know.... but I wish I did know.

[flyinfast]

He took my head and pulled it upon his penis. Telling me to suck it, I unzipped and soon I felt his orgasm filling my mouth.
I loved this moment. Being like that, being married and suprising not only Marques but hubby who had no clue that I was visiting Marques at that moment.

I loved that too... very hot...

But then I wonder WTF is wrong with me? Why the heck would I like that?

And there are times when I think why aren't all women like Mrs. Reese? Why can't they all be that kind of sexy, wonderful, desirable, beautiful slut. (And I mean slut as in the very best kind of slut in a very good way...)? Why can't my wife be like that? Why can't my buddies wife be like that and I filling her mouth?

... time to xmas shop.

hmmm... what will Mr. R be getting?

[flyinfast]

... No matterwhat anyone says......having my hotwife crave her BBC and visit him at lunchtime...sucking him off!
That just rocks my world.....I can't stop thinking about it.

Mr. Reese, me too.

If my wife did that, yeah, it would drive me crazy too. I often fantasize about my wife in the hotwife role.

But one difference is I would want to be in the hothusband role sometime too. I'd want my wife on her knees sucking off her best friend's husband, while his wife was in her knees right next to my wife sucking me off. I'd get a thrill out of watching him cum down my wife's throat and just as big a thrill out of having him watch me cum down his wife's throat.

When we were going to take the girls to lunch, when they arrived at our office, my wife would go straight to his office and suck him off, while his wife would be in my office sucking me off. Sometimes he and I would double team one of our wives. Sometimes we'd swap for the whole weekend. Sometimes I'd take his wife to a bar and have her pick up a third wheel for us to play with (and I assume he'd do something similar with my wife).

Why that would turn me on so much I don't know, but it does.

[mrs_reese]

flyinfast, I like how dirty you mind is with your last post
I am too jealous though, you know that! It would drive me crazy to see a woman enjoying hubby in front of me,
So far only L has been with hubby, and that drove me crazy too.

I have something I want to say.
Next post.

[mrs_reese]

So Marques invited my husband and I to be at his company holiday party.
Next Tuesday night.
One twist though!!

I am going as Marques' date. I told him that I want to play with his other friends too.
There will be vendors and other customers at the party so hubby will go alone as an invited guest.
NO one will know that hubby is mine. It is best that we kept it that way.
Hubby told me that he probably wont be that agreeable in front of everyone, being cucked like that.

But I am excited! Our plan is to go and hang out. Hubby will be going crazy as Marques' plans on introducing his as his customer, and with me at this side.
Of course as we share a few drinks, I am sure that it will come out that hubby is my husband.
Marques will have a room rented out and later our plan is for all of us to go to the hotel.
Husband will drive Marques and I to the hotel.
Marques asked that this time he joins him and a few friends sharing me.
I like it better that way. Hubby is more eager to do this as long as he is included.

I will make it a point to share everything that happens!
I cant wait!!

[mrs_reese]

Opps, I forgot to mention,
I asked Michael to go with hubby as friends.

Thanks to some of your suggestions, especially Aynsley.
Tuesday will be a night to remember.

I am waiting for Michael to confirm. He is a little hesitant. But I think I convinced him that I love himand that he shares a part of my heart. It is important that Michael finally can witness his hotwife in action too!
His only hesitation is that he feels awkward! I told him to get over it!

[bubbajack]

Sounds like multiple fucking Tuesday night for you, Baby!!

(I Would LOVE to be there, too!! )

[BallSpanking]

Yipes!

Marques sharing you with some of his friends!!!

[mrs_reese]

Hubby and I shared an interesting twist of sex last night.
I called Marques late, around 1am while hubby and I were being naughty.
Marques and I had sex talk while hubby was inside of me.
I orgasmed a few times listening to Marques' sexy voice tell me how he and his friends will be tag teaming his slut.
Something about that makes me very excited.
Knowing that I am married and considered a slut to Marques makes me wet.

Going shopping now with the sisters. Bye for now everyone.

[blueduck1954]

I will be eagerly awaiting the story of the adventures planned for Tuesday...this is to hot for words.

[flyinfast]

I am too jealous though, you know that! It would drive me crazy to see a woman enjoying hubby in front of me,
So far only L has been with hubby, and that drove me crazy too.

That's the point isn't it? To be driven crazy... It drives Reese crazy and he enjoys, why wouldn't you enjoy it the same way? You would have all the same thrill of reclaiming your husband that he has reclaiming you. Seems to me that should work.

I think rather than jealous, it's more like fear. Afraid to try it. Initially Reese probably had that same fear but grew to like it. You probably would like it too if you overcame your fear or jealousy. You know Reese wouldn't leave you for another woman, just as you won't leave him for another man.

You might find you really liked a foursome swap if you tried with the right couple. Not traditional hotwife play but it can lead so something like that if play it right.

[flyinfast]

flyinfast, I like how dirty you mind is with your last post

Thanks... Oh, you have no idea how dirty my mind is. That was just a tease as to the whole Lord and Master story. I gotta finish that up one day and post in the library.

I am going as Marques' date. I told him that I want to play with his other friends too.
There will be vendors and other customers at the party so hubby will go alone as an invited guest.
NO one will know that hubby is mine. It is best that we kept it that way.
Hubby told me that he probably wont be that agreeable in front of everyone, being cucked like that.

Isn't there a danger that the more public you are about your dating other guys that someone you know will find out? It's a hot concept, but... will people be taking photos at this event? Ready for those to be posted on somebody's facebook page? "Hey - I know that woman... "

Which brings up the whole topic. What if your friends, family, daughter - do find out. What then?

Of course as we share a few drinks, I am sure that it will come out that hubby is my husband.

So why not post a picture on this site of your beautiful face for all to see?

I really can't see how this will end well. And what about blackmail? Does Marques already have pictures of you and he together he could you to pressure to keep up with him? I hope nothing bad happens, but it is a risk isn't?

Marques asked that this time he joins him and a few friends sharing me.

Is this your first big gangbang? How fun. Everyone bareback? Maybe not.

[kcpa]

If Marques has any more invites my plane is on standby.

[mrs_reese]

Hi everyone.
Kcpa, nice to hear from you again.

Flyinfast, I wont gangbang without condoms. My rule.
I have been thinking about a 4 some one day with hubby. I know that it is time to let go of my fears and jealousy.
Everyday I grow more confident with being a hotwife.
As for someone finding out. I dont worry about that now. The rumors are out there already. You should hear some of the stuff I hear about me and hubby. The only way I can deal with all of that is not to reply. I really dont care anymore.
I keep our personal life very private. I only have a few close friends who understand what we are into. L is one of them.
We dont hang out in the city that we live in and while in public near our hometown, we are always seen as a couple.
But I learned a long time ago thanks to hubby that whatever people want to think is their business, I could care less what everyone says.

Now for my child. We protect our privacy with her. We have yet to have a compromising situation. We take that one day at a time.

[mrs_reese]

One more post. Marques and I talked this morning. He has asked 2 of his close friends whom I have met to join us later at night. Both men are married. They are very nice looking so I am sure that I will be attracted to them.
I think that I am more turned on by the situation. Being with my hubby, possibly Michael and 3 BBC.
5 men?? OMG? What am I thinking? TO have that kind of attention is another thing that makes me horny.
I really want to be overwhelmed. I have one rule. Whatever I say goes! And NO bareback sex.
I can be real funny with penetration at times. I may just want to play around and choose one man to have sex with me while I make the others jack off on me. There is something very naughty about watching a man jackoff over me.
Shopping time

[Aynsley]

Wow, Mrs. R.
I'm sure you'll have a great time,
but I'm also sure, Mr. R. is getting the Christmas present of a Lifetime !!!

Have a fun night.