Sounds like you're having a great time though
Long may it continue.
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reese wrote:I finally decided to post some of my thoughts.
It has been a long time!!
I left this site because as much as my wife has claimed to change with her approach to hotwife play...so have I!!
This has been a long journey....and I feel as though I am an expert on denial- tease and torment and cuckold play.
As much as I feel that way, I always seem to encounter a new stimulus...and that makes me happy!
I am randomly posting my thought so be patient with me.
I read some of the posts from this thread today.... posts from old friends made me smile.
Everyone poster has been kind and full of encouragement over the past 5 yrs...THANK_YOU!
I missed some of you!
More random thoughts....
I agree with my wife...we need to be more private.
For some of you that are not aware of the problem we encountered a while back....ex caused too many problems once he discovered this site....we needed legal help to solve that problem.
I have not posted or read posts for a while because this place is the devils liar at times...LOL!
I read and read and become more horny for wild encounters...involving my wife.
Out of respect for her and her life...I had to back off!!
I have more self-control now.
This was taken away from me for a while...and OMG did I miss this!!
As much as I have been my wife's cleanup boy....I have also shared one on one amazing sex with her.
I know that she will read my post...but I can not avoid stating something for my friends to read....
I can't stop this compulsive addiction...hotwife play!
I promised my wife that I would have more self control...and I do!
But when she tells me to turn off hotwife play.....everything about hotwife fantasy or real life encounters...I really try to..but there is NO WAY to eliminate it from my mind.
We have amazing sex....I could fuck her 3 times a day....but there are so many times when she may send me a text or verbally tell me to TURN IT OFF....and i agree to do that.
But when we have sex....it always always always comes back...all the memories come crashing down upon my sex drive.
Usually it's all about her current lover!
My orgasms are so damn powerful....and once its over for me...I feel it coming back very soon..the need to taste my wife..to lick her pussy...to breath in her scent...to put her worn panties to my face..the panties she wore on the way home from another fuck session with her lover.....it is such an addiction!!
So for those who may read this thread and hope to turn your wife into a hotwife...be careful.
There is NO going back!
I went back...and i was depressed...I lost my urge for sex...I found my marriage boring at times...lost my urge for her....
Those feelings terrified me....but once we found our happy place again....life returned to normal for me.
Over the last year or so... I have learned some self control....we have a normal marriage most of the time....I am more selective with my wild urges..I have learned to allow my wife to be at the forefront...allow her to start the process....
I have learned to keep quiet...not talk about it 24-7.
I have learned patience.
Thanks for reading.
Not for me mrs_reese, it is one step to far and always ends up in a mess. i don't mind them falling for me or even falling in love with me but I am allergic to them telling me.mrs_reese wrote:Hi!
Steve called me this morning and told me how he wished he could've been with me on Valentines.
He also told me something that is kindof freaking me out.
He's falling in love with me!
I love knowing I own his mind and soul, but I need some input from everyone!
How do I handle this?
Part of me wishes be didn't tell me that,
And another part of me is intrigued by this because it'll be so much more amazing making love to a man other than my Husband who feels that way!
This is all so much right now!